hiii ninona!!!! omg it's been ages since I sent you an ask, I'm kinda shy 😳
anyways, idk if i ever told you butttt sya is actually my favorite works of yours. I have such a weak spot for situationships and messy dynamics and idiots in love that won't admit to themselves or eo they're in love!!! You have no idea, sya is MY DRUG. I was so happy that pt4 was commissioned and even more when I saw it up.
I actually had to come back and read pt3 again bc the first time I kinda speed-read it and i wanted to talk to you about that one first! hehe
What i really loved about it was how you used warmth/cold and august/march to represent yn's feelings. I separated some specifics excerpts to talk about:
"How was it still so cold outside? This time last year you would’ve been wearing shorts and crawling on fire escapes to try and get a nice spring breeze. The world must be ending you’re sure of it. The dread you feel in your stomach is about global warming than anything else. You don’t even care what’s going on inside, even if that’s all you can think about."
Just wanted to say Y/N is a fool. I can'tttt with how much time she spent denying her feelings UGH.
"Like it was the first time of you two ever doing anything you take in a deep breath. You’re hesitant titling your head until it’s up against Anton’s shoulder. He leans into you more to make the distance smaller, and you can feel him lowering his body to give your head a proper place to lay. This weather is bearable. The cold isn’t too bad, it keeps the bugs away and layering clothes can be fun. Protecting yourself from the cold is better than the heat, and snow is always nice to see."
Y/N, you're not fooling anyone but yourself, sweetie.
“You’re shaking.” Anton is quiet, because you’re so close and it’s only you two you. You nod against his shoulder because the tremors are more prominent than before and even thought it feels like it’s August again. “We should go inside.”
She's fucking shaking. Not because of the cold. She's all warm now. She's shaking because he's close to her again. Okay, Little Ms. Downbad-for-Anton.
“Ton.” Anton turned around but you stayed looking forward. You knew who it was by the hesitation in her voice and the way Anton pulled his arm away from your waist quickly. It’s March again, freezing and desolate. “What are you doing out here? We’re about to cut the cake.”
"It's March again, freezing and desolate." HER AND HER DRAMATIC ASS
"You looked down from the railing of the fire escape, looking down at the people walking around in the parking lot. The world really was ending. Anton was smiling and saying he’d be inside in a second while the world was coming to an end. You remember all the times you found a reason to leave him alone at parties, just to show up at his place hours later. Now for some reason this seems final, even if he stays o utside with you after the girl leaves."
Comparing Anton talking to another girl to the world ending is a little too much, honey.
“There’s another thing happening after this, I think.” Anton continues. His hand that was around your waist is limp between your two bodies. The warmest you felt since August came and went. You could have that back if you just moved a little closer.
This is my favorite one because I think the last phrase has two meanings. The first and must obvious one is that she could get physically closer with Anton in that moment and have that warmth back. But the underlying meaning in it is that if she moved a little closer emotionally to Anton, if she didn't hide her feelings, if she met him halfway, she could be warm/happy again. Idk if that's exactly what you meant, but that's what the voices are telling me hahaha.
You look over your shoulder and Anton looks back at you. He’s already halfway to the window, leaning against the side of the building right next to the opening. He nods like he knows how you’re feeling and reaches out a hand to clasp over your shoulder. Almost August. The touch is like June, right before everything happened and before you knew someone was going to change your life. He pulls his hand away and crouches to go back to his party. You don’t like how March feels.
So many good sentences. "The touch is like June" / "before you knew someone was going to change your life" / "he pulls his hand away (…) you don't like how March feels".
It's crazy how she can be so aware of her feelings and so oblivious at the same time. The juxtaposition you used throughout the whole fic is so good and gave it more meaning. It made me feel more deeply. And it made me more angry at Y/N.
OK, now onto pt4. Oh girl, I love it. Tease!RIIZE is one of my favorite tropes and I don't think it's used nearly enough. I loved that she was the one chasing after him this time and that she cried when she saw the girl on his room.
I loved that despite pretending to be nonchalant he was still worried when she showed up and even more when she cried. I loved that he teased her when she called him "a friend" by resting his hand on her thigh. I loved that he also kind of couldn't help himself and kissed her in broad daylight. And I loved that he used all of those opportunities to check if she would freak out about being with him out in public. And I love that she didn't freak out because this time she was only focused on him and getting his focus on her.
I loved how she ogled his body at practices and how she knew she could have every part of him all to herself if she wasn't so dumb. I loved how he teased her with other girls and how her jealousy was so palpable and see-through.
I loved that she couldn't hide anything despite trying hard and how she dropped the act altogether when she hit her limit. I loved how he still played dumb on the trek to his dorm LMAO, that was sooooo good! Getting words out of her in the heat of the moment. He was so smart here and that was sexy as heeeeell!!!!
Of course I also loved that made up, how desperate she was, how confident and cocky Anton was and how he also turned to mush when she started jerking him off. I loved how much she needed him and the way she needed him and how she needed him as close and deep as possible and that she asked for it. I also loved that they cried.
I wasn't expecting the love confession and even less thinking it would come from her first. I think I was as stunned as Anton. And I loved that you ended it with "see you around", I laughed so hard while kicking my feet.
Anyways, FINALLY! Finally YN stopped being an idiot and snatched that fine man for herself. If she didn't, I'd take her place!!!!! But seriously, I love this couple and their dynamic. I hope they communicate better and that their love is healthy and fulfilling.
This was a perfect ending to this series. BUT if you ever wanna write about these two again, just know I'll be eating it up and gobbling it down!
Thank you for this. I'll reread it always. You're amaziiiiiing!
Also, thank you for the beautiful person who commissioned sya4, I'm hugging you so hard rn and kissing your forehead. May both sides of your pillow always be cold and that you never get bald.
That's my rambling, hehe. As always, excited to see what more you come up with 😘😘😘
thank you so much for sending me this. PLEASE DON’T EVER BE SHY!!!! like seriously i can't describe to you how i smiled so big at this. i really wanted to respond well that's why it took me so long to answer. see you around is so loved i'm eternally grateful. but like taking the time to really give me your thoughts means the world you have no idea.
you got it down to a T bro like i thought it was so fun comparing the weather to the readers feelings towards her life. i also really loved writing the reader as someone who is so stubborn she refuses to admit how she feels about anton. like her thinking life was only dreary because it was party-less instead of maybe admitting it had to do with anton was so fun. them on the fire escape and anton put his arm around her waist pretending like it wasn't there. like i love looking tender feelings right in face and still ignoring it. I LOVED THE FIRE ESCAPE SCENE SO MUCH. i was literally kicking my feet writing it akjfnakfjn THEY'RE SUCH MESSES I LOVE THEM. like the reader was legit going insane on that fire escape. and anton really has no idea how crazy she was in that moment.
i really loved part 4. you know i love tension and angst and i legit feel like it was 95% that and 5% sexxxx that was so sexy and fun to write. i was typing like a maniac when they were walking to the car. i just really loved their dynamic, them taking turns pining after the other and being at odds. i loved anton testing her and the abrupt kisses and the soft launch relationship but anton making her make the first move. like ugh. i need to be in a situation like this seriously.
and it's so weird reading my words, like i'm almost cringed out but seeing you write such a thoughtful response to them makes me smile really hard. i was also giggling like a schoolgirl at our similar reactions to part four. you make me really proud of my writing and i'm SO GRATEFUL for that. thank you for letting me know how much you like my stories because sometimes it's hard to remember other people like them BAHAHAHA. i wanna make a toast to you and the sya couple loving eachother forever
