#king thinking

How can I stay close?  How can I stay there? There where my fears surrounding me. 

I´m sure you will be fine. You will be fine. You will be fine.

I´m coming home. I`m feeling the loneliness creeping in my chest. Spreading into my whole body. I can´t feel anything else.

Please do not hate me, Do you feel the same? Please do not hate me Do you fear the same? I`m feeling trapped. How can I stay close? Everything comes back at me. 5 ghosts in the same room, watching me intensely. Trying to ease my mind. Thinking of you. My heart beats faster and faster and faster How can I stay close? By your side

February is as dead and sad as January. Both online and in real life. The weather makes no sense. Sunny yet freezing like the Arctic's asshole. Raining yet sweating like a sinner in a church. It’s like Wonderland but boring. Nothing makes sense. And for some reason, I’m hungrier in this month than other months. Who’s idea was this? The month started but I’m ready for it to end.