Bittersweet Feelings
About this time every summer my school switch flips so to speak. I begin to think about the upcoming school year and plan and get excited with anticipation about the new group I’m about to get and all the possibilities of the upcoming school year. I always spend a lot of time getting my planner ready with the school calendar dates and holidays.
However-this summer is different. This is the first summer that I haven’t worked since I was 16 years old. I stayed home and spent quality time with my little guy. And it has been an incredible summer. We’ve found our own routine. Wake up, snuggle and then get ready, eat breakfast, go on a walk, play, nap time, lunch time, play time, pool time, nap time, sandbox time, dinner, play time, bath time, bed time. It’s been really nice to do what we want when we want. Take the hubs lunch at his office, go to story time at the library, and just in general hang out. I’ve also enjoyed getting a chance to take care of the house and make dinner.
So I’ve reached this conundrum. I’m excited to go and meet with the childcare director tomorrow and get all of the paperwork filled out and figure out what we need to get for Cal and see the room he’ll be in when he’s there. But at the same time I’m sad. I’m mourning the loss of this time that we’ve had together just the two of us for the last few months. Although there are aspects that I hope to retain despite the beginning of the school year.
This also has to do with the fact that my kid is about to turn 1 and so I’m having feelings about that too. On top of the excitement that the beginning of school brings. All-in-all I’m excited to get back in the classroom but I’m also sad that it means this summer is coming to an end.
