i feel so disgusted with myself. i hate eating, i hate food, i hate how i let emotions control my intake in the past, i hate that i stopped restricting at all, i hate that i let myself get to a new highest weight, i hate that i couldve been at my ugw if i didnt give in, i hate it all. deluding myself into believing binging was recovery was the worst mistake of my life. but im making sure now that i never make that mistake again














