#killerkarpalo

you have a really good face. some a++ face happening right there

waaah, thank you so much!! ♡♡

killerkarpalo said: happy birthday~ owo

now that you know what it looks like, you can tell that he always moved with the chance of violence, too sharp and smooth all at once, clear and easy. he’s always been the centre of the room, either because of his charisma or his danger, because of the way that his steps bounce while his fists clench but this is something new. this is an amalgam of both, and you hate it a little bit more every time you see it.

it was like that- he was like that, when you marched back together from the hydra base you rescued him from, that swing in his step that he put on the second he saw there were people with which you were rendezvousing; he is not the sort to let others catch hint of his weakness- that has been only you, always you (though you don’t know if he’s even aware of it), and you know the price at which that privilege is bought. it might break your heart to see the forced spring in his step, but you do not actually realize just what it’s composed of until you’ve seen this modern version of it, don’t recognize proprietary readiness as anything more than the norm in the way his thumb strokes along the side of his weapon until you see him with a fucking grenade launcher in hand and nothing but wide open space in his heart. but you know you’re right, you know it was like that even then, even when you marched into the depths of hell to drag him back.

(you’d always had a soft spot for his habit of raising hell, you’d always even encouraged it- you wouldn’t’ve if you’d known that eventually hell would raise him back)

you think it might always have been like that- you think maybe he didn’t change so much as what he let you see did. taking care of you was always his priority, after all, and that meant lying to you about things- about how much food his family had, about where he’d gotten work, about how easily the two of you could manage on your own, after your mom and his dad both died. this is just one more thing, and it belongs to a pattern you should have sniffed out decades ago.

but this isn’t about you, it’s about him, about the way you can’t exist the one without the other and some days you think that he regrets it even more than you do, it’s about the way he lets tash run her fingers through his hair while he pretends not to cry, and it’s about the intensity with which you know he feels, about—

—fuck, you don’t know what it’s about, other than the fact that you look at him and you either want to cry, scream, punch something until your hands wear away to nubs, or curl up next to him and sleep for another sixty years. maybe it’s about how only the last is new: the rest have been your constant companions since you woke up with everything you knew aged into ash.

I love you ♥

A song that reminds you of summertime

Power, Kanye: last summer I went on a road trip, and for hours and hours of driving that was the song that I looped. Just me, the open road, and it. It's probably one of my favourite summer memories.

A song that needs to be played LOUD

Yoncé, Beyoncé: man you can't appreciate it properly unless it's threatening to explode your brain inside your skull, you just can't.

A song that makes you want to dance

Jukebox, Ani DiFranco: I don't even know what it is about it, but it's got a melancholic feeling while still maintaining a great rhythm, and I'm basically in love

One of your favorite classical songs

I really really love Vivaldi's Winter it's just really nice and sets me in the mood for writing or just relaxing, guaranteed.

A favourite song with a person’s name in the title

Mrs. Jackson, Panic! at the Disco: yoooo I literally just. what a good? what a good. great for feeling like you could do anything or be anyone, got just a hint of possible melancholia running underneath it, and the potential danger lives in my teeth while I listen.

A song that you think everybody should listen to

hi!! ♥

First impression: this person is liking a lot of my things. therefore, i probably like them.

Truth is: I DO I LIKE YOU A LOT YOU ARE A FANTASTIC PERSON and also i really treasure talking to you!

How old do you look: still haven't ever seen a picture of you!

Have you ever made me laugh: y e s

Have you ever made me mad: nah

Best feature: your willingness to ask for advice, seriously that's a major thing like woah

Have I ever had a crush on you: nope

You’re my: friend!

Name in my phone: don't got you :(

Vampire: Someone offers you a chance at immortality. Do you take it, and why or why not?I'm pretty 50/50 about it, on the other hand staying young and having the time to travel and learn new things and having a lot of time to waste, on the other hand, everyone I know dies and I doubt my mind could take eternity, so umm... maybe yes, as long as I could be killed? (I'd probably last like, 200 years tops? Maybe 300)

Frankenstein: Is someone telling you how to live your life, or are you an independent person?This is pretty 50/50 too, because I know what I want to do with my life and I'm not letting anyone to tell me what to do with it, but on the other hand I find it often easier when I'm just being told what to do, like when I have to perform tasks etc (mostly because I'm so unproductive and inefficient that I never get anything done unless someone tells me to do it)

Genie: If you had one wish that would come true and couldn’t be reversed, what would you ask for?A steady (and big) amount of income wouldn't be too bad, would it?