#killakadafi191

I’ve been meaning to tell you this for quite sometime.  I’ve put this off way too long and it’s time I finally tell you how I feel and what I need from you.  I look directly in your eyes and I let it all out.

I’m going to need you to go out your way for me the same way you’ve gone out your way for other people.  I’m going to need you make my happiness a priority.  I’m going to need you do more things I want to do.  I’m going to need you be more supportive and positive of my dreams.  I want you to allow me to be who I am.  I’m going to need you be more understanding and accepting of my short comings.  I’m going to need you not to be so negative at times.   I’m going to need you to understand that road to success is paved with failure.  I’m going to need you to let go of things that you can’t not change or control.  I’m going to need you to tell me that I’m beautiful.  I’m going to need you to look pass the scars, the pain and see that beauty.  I need you to accept me.  I’m going to need you for you to stop ignoring my pain.  I need you to stop telling me that I should hide my feelings. I’m going to need you stop giving your all for those who give you nothing.  I need you to be and do better for me. I need you to stop looking for love in the wrong places and people.  I need you to give me the same love that you give to others.  I need you to love me, to really love me.

I stand quiet for a second and I say it again and again louder each time.  “I need you to love me.” I think I finally made my point.  I look at my image in the mirror one last time before walking away and remember the words that I’ve said to myself.  

Yaki