#kiddrama

I've been in a bit of a slump recently.  

I've been forgetting/neglecting details- even with the ridiculous amount of time I spend managing task lists.  It's been a little disconcerting, to be honest.  I'm generally on top of my shit 150%.  Hovering somewhere around 90% is really not comfortable for me, and I can't see sustaining this level of performance with everything I have on my plate.

I've also been a little sensitive, and a lot bitchy.  It takes very little for me to lose my patience these days.  My skin has been a little "thinner" than usual as well.  See my previous post about stereotypes in education. One (or possibly more) of the tough bitches in my orbit have totally gotten under my skin recently.  

Yes, I'm fucking overwhelmed... but this is nothing new.  I've been overwhelmed for about the last five years.  Possibly longer!

I was thinking about this, and honestly- wondering about early-onset Alzheimer's Disease (especially since I'm experiencing a lot of age-related changes all at once... vision, etc) when it hit me.  It's the kids. Again.  The background thread of energy, meetings, discussions, behavioral anomalies, total lack of gratitude, total lack of interest in self-care, total lack of respect for authority in the school environment, etc.  It's weighing down on me, and thank all of the named and unnamed higher powers that I'm not doing it by myself.  I'd likely be in prison at this point.