Ending: June 16, 2016

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You are so sweet and so fine.

I will be eventually, but rIGHT NOW DEFINITELY NOT I I'm just un-okay right now I need a better personalitydon't ever legitimately worry about me, ignore me when i bitch, I'm a fucking wreck and will cry for hours or suddenly be happy when acknowledged, I'm not making sense I'm

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Hey thank you -w- I'm feeling already better now… I just needed to talk with someone.

The list was difficult to complete, as I can't remember half of what I've watched/read, but I tried!1) Berserk (manga). Okay, this one is extremely messed up (think of every single thing that could possibly trigger you, multiply the effect by 10, and you've barely scratched the surface) and updates a few times a year, but I love it because I love most of the characters (main antagonist, I'm more iffy on, but I don't completely hate him, either), their development, and it's one of the only series where the protagonist's love for someone motivating them doesn't make me gag. It's probably because it's so horribly tragic, but the fact that I find that to be a strength instead of a flaw of the manga means a lot.2) Sharin no Kuni (visual novel). It has one of my favourite antagonists (manipulative, interestingly cruel, great at what he does, tragic past, and voiced by NORIO WAKAMOTO), the protagonist is also really smart (he outsmarts the antagonist, which is a feat), especially for the protagonist of a visual novel, and all of the characters aren't flat and go through at least some development, especially the three main heroines. The plot also revolves around the justice system where, instead of being incarcerated, the criminal gets a punishment based on their crime, which can range from not being able to have children to no one being legally allowed to acknowledge your existence, else they'll also get punished, so it makes for some very interesting and tragic results. Yeah, that one character that needs a hug, right now? You can't legally hug her. Seriously. Her arc was one of the best ones, but my God, that almost killed me. And don't get me started on the fandisc.3) Narcissu (visual novel). The first one's about two people who are about to die, but they don't want to die in the hospital nor at home, so they decide to escape, and the second one's a prequel, so I should have been prepared for the tears, BUT I WASN'T. The music's beautiful and the atmosphere's so calm amidst the moments of angst and happiness, but I was reduced to having to rock myself back and forth because the ending scene was just so sad; it wasn't all that dramatic, but that just made things worse. The prequel's much better in that regard (only because the creator wasn't trying to make people sad when he made the first one, how do you fail so badly at that?), but it's still sad because it still feautures people in hospitals and my feelings are just crushed now yay.4) Tonari no Seki-kun (manga). The most hilarious manga I've ever read and it's great because it's one of the few light-hearted things amidst all of the tragedy and death that's in the rest of the things I read/watch (seriously, why do I keep on doing that?).5) Doctor Who (TV series). I needed to add in something that wasn't from Japan and I AM SO OBSESSED WITH THIS YOU HAVE NO IDEA IF I WERE TO TALK ABOUT ALL OF MY EMOTIONS IT WOULD TAKE PAGES AND I'M ONLY ON SERIES 2.I seriously do need to stop reading things that have everyone dying or going through something tragic, though.Phobias... I technically don't have anything crippling, though I do have some major fears, which include the people I like hating me in secret, being talked about behind my back, heights, and speaking in public (plays and singing are fine, for some reason). I tend to be cautious, so there are some things I've probably missed. The first two only manifest when I'm in a bad mood (which is more often than I'd like to admit), but most of the time, it's not that bad. Still there, though.