#ketake

‘thought about how it feels like to stab myself using the kitchen knife’

I was shocked. Like i know I have had those thoughts for a while but like, I didn’t expect myself to actually jot that down as part of what i did on that day. I don’t know if I should be glad that I didn’t actually do it (because if I did, i wouldn’t have had to experience so much heartbreaks, sadness and uncertainty in life. Since i didn’t, I experienced all those 3 mentioned above and they all hurt like hell. These emotions may have hurt lesser compared to stabbing myself but i wouldn’t know  But i felt like i had benefit from the experience??) so yeah. 

But a few things I would regret if I had actually done it, one of which would be that I wouldn’t have felt how it would be like to buy great stuff for your parents using your own money. Like i honestly felt really happy? satisfied with myself that I managed to give them something using my own money. 

Another one would be working at a local famous bank. Despite the shitty people, I think working in that bank has gave me so much valuable experiences that I would never forget. And I’m v proud of being the youngest there lol. I would have never met the interns, and it’s (kind of) thanks to them that I enjoy my stay there slightly better. the crushing part is v shitty but lets not talk about that

The last one would be skyping with friends from overseas. I think it’s a pretty damn awesome experience to skype with someone who comes from a completely different country and culture. So thank you @ketake like honestly without you I wouldn’t have known how it feels like.