#kelmiro

Amaury Lorenzo

The telenovela ended today, and it marked me way more than I thought possible. Kelvin and Ramiro, the gay couple, got married- by a trans officiant, surrounded by outcasts, and loved. So loved. But the scene that really got to me was this one- the marriage proposal.

I'm stealing my last description of them because I think it was a good one:

In the show, Ramiro was a working hand who was "raised" by his boss. He never studied, never had any opportunities, and learned from a very young age that his role in this world is to be aggressive and follow commands. He was treated less as a person and more as a rabid dog, and sure acted the part, hurting and killing the people his boss told him to. And then he met Kelvin, an openly gay man who started showing him his worth for way beyond his job and his gun. They hit it off right away, their chemistry is fucking insane, except for one problem: the only thing Ramiro felt like he had in this world was his masculinity, and he felt threatened by his own emotions. He didn't think he was allowed to love, especially not like this.

But then he learned. Kelvin saw him as a person, and he started seeing himself as one as well. He went to school. He started seeing a psychologist. He couldn't bring himself to hurt people anymore. And then he finally confessed his love, and kissed Kelvin in a scene that got my parents talking about them for a week straight- and they were talking about how beautiful it was. It was a gay kiss, an actual kiss, at prime time open television, and everybody I talked to only spoke of how great it was.

When Ramiro stood up against his old boss, he got beat up almost to death. His recovery took months. But he had love. When he confessed his crimes to put his old boss in jail, he had love. And today, at the last chapter, the man escaped and threatened to kill Kelvin, and Ramiro did what he couldnt bring himself to do for months: he killed again. He killed the main villain of the whole story in the name of love. And he went to jail happy.

The reason why I liked this scene so much, though, is because of how much it shows Ramiro's character development. Right before the video starts, Ramiro had told Kelvin he didn't want to date anymore, and Kelvin, looking around, thought he was back at the old days: they were surrounded by people, surrounded by MEN, of course Ramiro wouldn't want to be open about his queerness. Of course a man who had so much internalized homophobia would run away from love because of what others would think.

But then Ramiro shouts. And tells the whole world about their love.

nenhum tipo de desejo? – capitulo 120