Nov 11, 2023
And here I thought my phone was finnaly getting backed because I saw the notification several times
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And here I thought my phone was finnaly getting backed because I saw the notification several times
kel.do ulike. him
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What if kel had a phase where he saw himself as a replacement for Mari after her death? Like imagine him trying to figure out ways to comfort people and fix things, and he decides that if he became more like Mari he could fill the void in some way, and eventually realizes he'll never be like her-in a good and bad way. It would start slow, like trying to bake maris cookies for hero, but they would always come out wrong in some way, or he might try to learn piano, but its always offtune or not as comforting as maris music, or after he sees aubrey dye her hair pink he dyes his own purple, but he picks a shade that would suit Mari instead of him, so it ends up looking terrible; and maybe after a lot of these moments of him trying to replicate Mari and failing, he would realize in a bittersweet way that he can't bring her back or become her, and-with heros help probably-realizes that even if he replaced Mari perfectly, he'd end up getting rid of himself in the process, and they'd lose someone either way.
oh god I've seen AUs like this before yeah... just... nothing he does seems to help, because they need Mari, but Mari isn't here anymore... maybe if he tries harder, he can help! He can be better for them, they don't have to be sad because he'll fill that void,,
but he can't do it. Not that it's his fault, but he just can't. Because he's not Mari. And he doesn't need to be, Hero tells him, but sometimes it's hard to believe. Because Mari made everything better, but Kel doesn't know how to do that. He doesn't know how to play piano, or make flower crowns, or bake cookies, or do any of the things that Mari can't do anymore.
But what he doesn't know is how he, the real Him helps, just by being there, endlessly supportive, talking about happy things, having fun with the people he loves. He helps in his own way, bright and bold and gleaming, and god he doesn't see it in himself and he's too afraid of screwing things up again to try his own ways again.
okay so my AJR kick is STILL going and it's not going away any time soon auihgfdjkhf
The Trick, by AJR for Kel :>
I've got a dog and my dog can dance Just not in public and not with my friends I've got a girl and she's twenty-eight Now, I'm the coolest guy in all of eighth grade
I know a kid that you've never met His dad was a rockstar, we smoked in his van I know a trick, do you want to see? I can be anything that I pretend to be
We'll get out of this We'll get out of this too I'm not proud of this But I'm not proud of the truth And if you run from me Then I'll use my trick on you The truth is that I'm screwed
