#keib

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hey there ~

we're a set of keiichi maebara fictives from the same source. this blog is run by two alters of a DID system who are both keiichi. according to evidence gained from memories (even if we have so few of them atm), we were also alters in our canon(s). respectively, we'll refer to ourselves as keiichi A and keiichi B here

we haven't quite figured out our source, the memories we're getting are super vague, and it's quite possible that we have multiple canons so sifting through them is a lot of work!

we don't mind talking about our source so long as it's respectful and not like, trying to get answers out of us. interacting with kin/fictive tumblr is not something we often do.

below we talk about our interests and stuff~

~ Keiichi A/KeiA/KA ~

[he/they]

i'm the holder of a lot of the higurashi-based feelings and emotions between the two of us - about our friends, the events, etc, and also the one who's getting the most memories, all the while not really... identifying too much as keiichi, despite being a fictive and attached to our source? for these reasons we believe i was an alter of KeiB while he was the host.

i'm obsessed with music!!! one of my most vivid memories is routinely going to a music store before i moved to hinamizawa. it started with needing SOMETHING to help me through those long nights of studying, countless hours of staring at textbooks and writing papers. i needed some sort of stimulation as if my life depended on it. at one point i borrowed my dad's hand-me-down tape player and some of his cassettes at his offering, and i ate it all up. his catalog mostly had a lot of western rock like the beatles. at the time of writing this i can't remember which album it was (i THINK it might've been the white album??) but i CAN remember that i was totally obsessed with it and could not put it down. i think for the first couple nights of discovering it, i looped it for hours and only got like, an hour of sleep - on and off dissociating to the music like i was in a trance.

i eventually got into stuff like metal (black sabbath and bow wow ring a bell in my head, but i'd need to listen to them in this life to really get a feel again) and also electronic music, ESPECIALLY the latter. i loved the artificial sound of a synthesizer and was blown away by how an electronic device could produce sounds like those, let alone hundreds of different ones! more on that later though

i SPECIFICALLY remember one day doing my daily overview of the music store and coming across a particular album: "e-study" by merzbow. i didn't notice the section it was in, let alone any type of genre that it was. i geniunely thought it was like, some sort of ambient type stuff, and i remember being in a really big crunch with school stuff so i went, "fuck it, i'm buying this, i have to cram so much in tonight." i remember the cashier's face contorting in absolute confusion as i brought the cassette up to the counter, but i left happy nonetheless.

i went home, got out my paperwork, put in the cassette, put on my headphones and subsequentally got so confused within the first 10 seconds of the tape that i paused it and took about two minutes to process what i just heard. i contemplated just pulling out one of my old favorites again, but i said to myself, "you know what, i bought this thing, so i might as well listen to it all the way through.

and i am SO glad i did - e-study was my introduction to noise music, which has been Such a deep dive , even while i was alive in my canon. the next merzbow album i listened to was "normal music." (this was around 1982 when i first listened to both of these), and it solidified my interest in noise, especially electronic-based stuff.

which brings me to my next obsession: synthesizers!!! i was so interested in the ways they worked and made sounds and how musicians made these sounds into music regardless of genre. i know at one point i began begging my parents to get me a roland synth (poking around what wikipedia says they've made, the system 100 rings a definite bell, so i think that might've been my first synth).

i can't really explain the way synths make me feel whenever i'm around them or when i look at them. i see studios crowded with modular gear and want to just sit there among the wires like i was an animal in its natural habitat. the body owns a casio CTK-2550, but that's just a keyboard. someday i'd like to own an actual synth, one that you can put patches on and fuck with the inputs and outputs on. at least vcv rack can satiate that desire for now... ugh, one day i'll get my hands on a JP-08, but those are literally like 5K USD ;3;

THIS WAS LONG SORRY i like to ramble!! im usually perfectly open to talking and such when i'm not busy!!!

~ Keiichi B/KeiB/KB ~

[he/him]

hi - i'm keiB. i don't hold a lot of active higurashi-related feelings at the moment other than constantly feeling like i'm in keiichi's shoes or... whatever, i guess. i was presumably the host in whatever canon we were in, but strangely enough i haven't remembered much other than dealing with school. sorry if i'm a bit cold or boring, it's just how i am for the most part.

it's also likely that keiA has simply just gotten more memories than i have, which honestly i don't have a problem with. if he's able to deal with those emotions then at least someone can.

in terms of interests i'm... sort of boring, i think. i don't know, i mostly remember thinking about school - i was the "school" alter for the most part - and just needing to get good grades and high test scores and such. but i don't need to do that anymore in this life so i just have this worry that's irrelevant to me.

if i remember back to what i enjoyed most about school, i think i liked writing assignments the most. other than that, it all seemed so bland and endless that all the dullness meshed together to create one giant grey stain on my mind. i think keiA has more of the color.

i don't ramble nearly as long as keiA, and i haven't really found my passion yet for anything. but, i'm still here. i'm also open for talking to people - i just might not be as vibrant as keiA.

~ Body Information ~

collective pronouns: he/they

age: 19

+ DID system

+ ADHD/Autistm/OCD