#keepmakingme

FRIDAY - February 27

Tonight as I was driving home, I was listening to one of my Spotify stations and a song by Sidewalk Prophets came on, called "Keep Making Me."

The first verse and chorus go like this:

Make me broken, So I can be healed. 'Cause I'm so calloused, And now I can't feel. I want to run to You, With heart wide open. Make me broken. Make me empty, So I can be filled. 'Cause I'm still holding, Onto my will. And I'm completed, When you are with me. Make me empty. [Chorus:] 'Til You are my one desire 'Til You are my one true love 'Til You are my breath, my everything Lord, please keep making me

As I was thinking about the words, I thought how thankful I am that God offers us 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th,........chances. We are sinful beings, imperfect, irrational, and many times, just pathetic (or at least, I know I am).

God knows we are flawed. He doesn't expect us to be perfect all the time. He just expects us to have a willing heart, ready for Him to lead.

These lyrics are so powerful also, in that they are asking God for difficulties. Really.

Yeah, we often sing along to these songs about making us empty and lonely and broken, but do we REALLY want God to do that? When I think about the ways that He might choose to make me broken and empty, that will probably involve some pain. 

But, when I think about the times that I have been broken and empty in my life, those are the times that made me stronger, more faithful, more sensitive, more real. It is during those times that I have felt God's arms around me, and during those times that He nurtured and fed me so I could grow.

I remember when we first found out I was very ill with Lyme Disease a couple years ago. I thought I just hadn't been feeling well for a couple weeks, but we found that I had been sick for much longer than that. Much longer as in, a couple years. As I became more and more sick, it was such a slow process that I didn't realize I was even sick. I was just going along with everyday life. It wasn't until I was healed that I realized just how sick I was. 

Honestly, that's how it is with sin. It doesn't always come and slap us in the face as soon as we sin. Sometimes we are deceived slowly and fade more and more over a long period of time, and before we know it, we are so deep in it that we don't know how to get out. It's not until we are healed and forgiven that we realize just how far we had gone, and we didn't realize we were even sick until we hit rock bottom. 

It doesn't matter how far we fall though. God loves us so much and hates seeing us in our sin-sick condition. He desires more than anything else that we surrender and let Him redeem and lead us. And He WILL redeem us when we surrender our will to His ways that are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9).