#keepinitg

Dear Mom and Dad,

I feel like my attachment style is a mixture of avoidant and anxious. Its not just one or the other fr. Its like i wanna stay to myself and not get myself too emotionally involved but its like I want all of that at the same time, because I love feeling and emotion and giving love and receiving it back strong and passionately.... but then its hard for me to trust and be vulnerable and I always need constant reassurance. Im very sensitive to energy shifts. On top of that I overthink but also wont tell you how I feel because I dont wanna show you that im worrying because I feel like it makes me an emotional burden and what if that person cant handle that or doesn't want to deal with me anymore.... but then theres that other part of me thats like fuck it whoever is supposed to be here will be here for the long run and I can literally do me and be fine because i already have this thing where im addicted to my solitude and I dont want that to make me come off distance.... It's like ive gotten to a point a long time ago where I only really ever felt safe being with me... Idk i dont wanna say ive lost my faith in making connection but I guess I just dont care anymore.. I see why some people are single for years and years. There's not enough love, patience, kindness, empathy and the list goes on of course but im sure im not the only one who can relate.

Motivation

Day 6