#kcko60

Been in a pretty low place. 6 days left of the challenge to blog, but I honestly haven’t given any fucks for the past week.

Teaching is exhausting because I have to deal with people (surprise! I’m not a people person). I’ve done two events in the past week and I haven’t performed since October. One was sprung on me the day before (?!) so I was stressing about costumes until I got to the venue and talked to the makeup artist. (Thank you Jen, for undies and incredible body paint.) The second was on Friday so I missed hang outs with friends I never see. Rigging was way too low and that’s the hotel’s rigger at fault, not our riggers so pffk. The event also ran late - 3 hours later than it was supposed to. Client was happy at least.

Eating has been ok, anyone else would likely say its been really good (still low carb), but I didn’t even try to actively follow keto. Having a shitty week and then walking past my favourite bad food place at midnight? Yeah, I definitely got myself poutine.

Post-event tradition is for everyone to go to a restaurant and get some fuel. If bossman is there, he pays for drinks. When there’s only a few of us, I don’t usually get invited. I was not impressed that I was forced to decline because I live on the opposite side of town and if I stayed, there would be zero ways home (I don’t count a 50$ cab ride as a viable option.)

Walking alone + eating + Nightclub Street + full show makeup + catcalls = no fucks given.

So yeah. I’m doing (not) great.

Will you continue keto after this challenge?

How Has Your Routine Changed Since Before the Challenge? How About the First Week of the Challenge?

My routine has changed only slightly. I’ve stopped logging my food religiously in MFP. It’s kind of a pain, but a necessary pain to make sure I’m staying on track. But a lot of the time when I know I’m eating a keto-friendly prepared meal that my mom makes I won’t log it purely because I don’t know how lol I just eat until I’m full and just don’t worry about it. It hasn’t negatively affected my weight thus far only in a sense that I’m not losing weight as quickly as I was. Perhaps that’s because I’ve also pretty much stopped working out all together. My gym membership expired a while back and I’m not much of a runner, even though I should get out and do that more. It has just been so hot lately!

How has this journey changed you? For better or worse?

What are you thankful for today?

This is a very vague question, so I’ll answer it as best as I can. I’m thankful for my life; thankful that I woke up today with a roof over my head. I’m thankful for my parents who love me and support me in whatever I do. I’m thankful that I get to see a very close friend of mine, if not today then soon. I’m thankful that I found my little american flag so that I can go visit someone who deserves it on Memorial Day tomorrow.

After Starting Keto Have you developed stronger will power? Do you feel Stronger, More Energized, Happier?

I have definitely developed willpower itself! I believe before I started keto I had none. I know my thought process used to be “I probably shouldn’t eat that,” then “It’s just only one. What could it hurt?” then, finally, “I definitely shouldn’t have done that.” after eating more than I should have. Self-hatred ensues.