#kaysword

you see here’s how it’s going to go

We both will find someone new

We both will live the lives we always wanted

hopefully we will be the happiest we have ever been,

but here’s the thing for me.

Despite loving someone new,

and showing them my world

Despite knowing they won’t ever leave

and to grow old with them, I will do.

He won’t ever be you.

He won’t hold the roles you now and will forever hold.

He won’t have my whole heart.

Maybe that’s unfair to put him through that,

or maybe it’s the reason why he will be great, and why I choose him after you.

but you, you’re the guy who showed me the world all within the four walls of a room.

You will forever be the guy who calls me Kelly girl,

and laugh at the little punches of alert you send my way.

you are the guy who helped me understand so much of what was going on in my mind.

you’re the one who opened my mind and my heart.

I’ll forever be grateful, you know I’ll forever be in your corner cause that’s just who I am.

you’re the guy I will always laugh with and cry over cause that’s just who we are.

maybe it will be different.

maybe I will write for him as I have written countless pages for and about your impact on my life.knowingly and hidden to you. It won’t be ever the same. cause for you the words have always been and always will be free flowing. the minute pen touches paper lines of emotions can come rushing through just when I think of you.

And maybe I truly am a fool for you.

and maybe, just maybe I am wrong.

maybe despite not being you

He will be more then you,

maybe he will show me what I missed from you.

maybe he will bring me back to reality