#kavent

it's a little funny how i never really experienced the "youngest sibling privilege" everyone resents until I got older. everyone around me just treated me like a nuisance (which i was. because i was a CHILD) until i started making their lives easier by withdrawing. lol

I hate how complicated I make everything. Everything's so complex to me. Everything is just so silly to me. I've been hella emotional lately, I don't even know why tho. Too much smiling, too much giggling, too much oddness to me. It may sound weird, but it's just a lot of adjusting for me to do. Waking up early in the morning to freezing temperatures and an angry face, to walking outside to workout in the happiest mood with the biggest smile out of others' tired faces. Then I'll go straight to being angry as soon as someone says something stupid to my face. I yelled at this one kid who trying to wake me up 'cause he thought I was sleeping in class. I really didn't mean to but it just happened. When he said that, my reaction was just 'bang, what the fuck Powi, you better put him on blast!'. Like seriously, this heat is doing something to me. I've never thought I'd become a fucking bitch in such a short period of time. I'm becoming hella dark too! Powi don't enjoy being dark!!!!! And all this sweating too. Yuck. Sweating unwillingly is just horrible.