#kaiposting

i’m going to try to keep this short but who knows if that will work! lol

in november 2023 i broke up with my ex after he became more controlling and an incident where he threw something towards me. it was kind of an ordeal bc obv had concerns about his temper but anyway! i survived. when i was prepping to break up with him a counselor on campus suggested i speak to someone w a local org for women who are survivors of domestic violence and i was like nah i’m good! this is not abuse just one weird thing! (spoiler alert: not true)

i started dating mr. kai loml a few months after. i ended up staying in the apartment i had lived in with my ex for the past year which at the time was nice bc conveniently located, didn’t have to move, etc. after a while mr. kai moved in, then around this time last year we moved out and shit kinda hit the fan

i had been in (short term) therapy bc i had been like “ok yeah he said some fucked up stuff” but didn’t think it had affected me That much. but brains work in mysterious ways!! the combo of moving out of somewhere i had lived with my ex + passage of time hit me like a bus. ironically being somewhere safe kind of made things temporarily worse lol. my mental health tanked and i started having panic attacks more frequently, at its worst it was like once a week? vs a couple times a year normally. plus like flashbacks, nightmares, all that fun stuff!

i was in frog in boiling pot of water mode though and didn’t realize how bad stuff had gotten lol. after a few months of waiting i started long term therapy and got to see a psychiatrist. i was surprised (lmao) when i got diagnosed with c-ptsd bc of my relationship w my ex but hindsight is 2020 i guess?

it took a long time for me to even come to terms w the fact that he was abusive and there was a lot of concerning behavior throughout the relationship and obv a lot of processing (shoutout emdr). i am doing better but still healing. and still trying to find the right med combination that helps without making me feel awful lol

meanwhile i am also working full time and trying to finish my master’s! now that things are somewhat better i’ve been able to make significant progress and i’m going to try to defend this semester. that doesn’t leave me w much free time but hopefully once i finish i can hang out with y’all a bit more

also just wanted to thank anyone who has shown me kindness or been a friend on this site. i am sorry i have been so absent and unresponsive lately. this was a very good haven during the second half of that relationship and tbh self insert horny fanfic is healing

hello, fwendy wends!!!!! <- papa wiggly told me to put that in the intro.

hiii!!! im kai drew!! i'm the main mod of this tumblr! it WAS my personal tumblr before my family hijacked it... boo... ill be modding posts, and stuff!!! the people on this account include: my dad, paul matthews, my mom, emma perkins, my papa wiggly, my papa pokey, my papa blinky, my papa tinky, and my papa/mama nibbly!! but sometimes my friends will pop in sometimes, so yeay!! :D basically, you guys can...ask us questions! i mean, i think we're intersting.

umm...bout me, errr...D

im 21ish years old you are 13. NO???? YES YOU ARE

papa tinky stop. or im removing you. okay :[

I'm 21ish years old, i go to hfhs (i never finished (or went) to high school), i live with my papas n my mom in my dads apartment, and... yeah!!!

we all agree to have speaker tags to make it clear whos talking, so here they are!

KAI:

PAUL:

EMMA:

WIGGLY:

POKEY:

BLINKY:

NIBBLY:

TINKY:

OTHER:

and thats all for now! thanks for reading! :]