Who Am I?
It's been a year of self-rediscovery.
Between moving back to Los Angeles and witnessing scandals/racism/misogyny leading to clubs closing and attending Industrial/Goth nights that are male dominated, and feel like frat parties, it's hard to find subcultural 'home' again.
I can't deal with the machismo, the political centrism, the emotional ignorance from that crowd, the cargo pants mentality, and knowing that if something bad happens to me or anyone I'd care about in the scene, the 99% macho male dominated regulars wouldn't care. They already don't care about things happening in my country that is resulting to people fearing for their future.
I don't want to be surrounded by contrarian, nihilistic, dudes that just don't care about anything but their own skin.
I may write more on this blog about my experiences and kind of eye-opening experiences in-person in these spaces, and online, that forever changed me as a person, and feel like a huge question mark floating above me.
