#k;eep

I guess by last night I should just go ahead and say this night. It’s already morning though, and I’m still awake. I could’ve easily called you up or texted you but, I don’t want to wake you up. I do believe you’re sleeping at this moment, and knowing how busy you have been this whole year you just need to rest as much as possible. Especially since later today you owe me a lovely date at our local park. You haven’t forgotten about that right? I hope that you read your emails! ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 

Have I told you how much you mean to me? Like really told you these past days? Well In case you forgot, You mean so much to me. So much so, that your opinion is the only one that really matters to me. Remember what I told you last time? Wherever you go, I’ll follow? I meant that. I know that I haven’t been able to really get to see you outside of work that much lately, but I want to change that. We talked earlier about how you thought I was ashamed of you, but kibum-ah, I’m not ashamed at all. I don’t mind being seen with you anyways - of course certain things we won’t be able to do but I don’t mind being seen with you. I wish that certain thoughts wouldn’t cross your pretty little head. You don’t deserve to be thinking like that. 

Ahhhh, while I write this I’m really starting to miss you. Can time go by any faster for just this moment so that it can be the time of our date? I’m truly excited, enough so that my feet are shaking and my hands are starting to type faster. I must sound so weird ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ how did you fall for someone like me? Mn, I will never understand but I will forever be grateful. You’re my soulmate, my love, my husband, and my best friend. Any time I spend with you is a day well spent, but we should make them last longer because I can’t get enough of you. I’m seriously missing you too much that I’m about to go re-watch your newest videos. Please wake up soon! ㅠㅠ but make sure that you rested enough. 

사랑해 

- Your Jonghyun

From: [email protected]  Date: Wednesday, July 22, 2015 6:16 AM To: [email protected] Subject: Re: 어젯밤에 가슴이 두근거려서 잠을 많이 못 잤어요.. Attachment: [ picture.png ] 

I just woke up.

I look a mess. ㅎ_ㅎ~

Such a hypocrite! You say I need rest, but it was nearly 5 AM when you sent this. Tsk!  And you wonder why I worry so much about you. How could I not, honestly? I hope you’re sleeping right now. Like me, you deserve all the rest you can get before promotions start back up. I can’t believe have the audacity to talk about a date at 4 AM. How can I trust you’ll even be awake for all the surprises I have for you?

I’ve been thinking about the relationship we have, and I’ve guess I’ve gotten greedy. I want a lot, you know? I want a lot emotionally. But I know there are some things we can’t do. Somethings we have to endure. I can see where you misunderstood, though. Just know that there’s never been a moment I’ve felt ashamed of you or what we have. We don’t carry a relationship of shame.— Then why’d I ask? I just… want to go out more. I guess it’s getting claustrophobic for me… I didn’t mean to come off so snappy. The last thing I want to do is cause trouble and add to your stress.

Sometimes I wonder how I fell for you,  too ㅎㅎㅎ.  Freak. I’ve been trying to make a gadget to slow down time but, alas I’m unsuccessful. Maybe if I fiddle with my apple watch I’ll find the blueprint. Honestly, when I’m with you time slows down, even now… replying to you here, it feels slow… I want to see you, too. We should meet after schedules today. After Blue Night, maybe? ^^~  

I hope you didn’t check out the latest episode already… it’s emotional, and I have a feeling you’ll start crying making me start to all over again, see the problem? —oops! A spoiler… ㅠㅠ

At first  I thought this email was going to be something silly, because seriously, who emails these day for informal conversation? You have my Kao. You have my number. Guess you’re finding even more way to be  spontaneous these days… It’s kind of, dare I say, cute. 

I’m going to make breakfast now.  Scheduled eating is very important bye bye.~~~

나도 사랑해

[HOSEOK->] It’s like... Tuesday night.

Dear Mister Park,

I haven’t seen you in a while. I just wanted to see how you were doing~ I’m really starting to appreciate my relaxation days, and I’m glad that I could spend the last two with you. I wonder how you’ve been? It’s been some time since we last talked. My manager says he can’t make a reservation anymore to your email, and that’s gotten me worried. My next relaxation day is a week from tomorrow (Friday), and I was hoping that we could set up an appointment. I can also bring some food, too! 

How is Dolly, Mister Park? Is she keeping you company? Is she enjoying the treats that I gave her?~ ^^ I hope you weren’t too lonely over the holidays. I wanted to come visit you in the past few weeks but no one answered the door when I knocked on the salon doors, so I assumed you went on vacation or something. Ah…I guess it’s safe to say that I miss your company, Mister Park, and the delicious snacks you give me~ So..ah..when you get the chance, you can text me if you’d like..or just email my manager…I’ll be looking forward to hearing from you~ 

From, 

/whisper/ SHINEE’S BACK!!

CONGRATULATIONS KIBUM & SHINEE :D

You’ll kill the stage like you always did. I’ll be waiting for my signed copy ;) and I promise to tweet about it. Good luck Kibum. 

❤Jinah

How are you, my good friend? It’s been a while since I last saw and heard from you. Sometimes I end up talking to Soyu and we just tell each other how we miss seeing one of you guys around. You know it’s never the same when someone’s missing. Hehe! But anyway, whatever you’re doing and wherever you are, I hope that you’re in great condition. Despite the exhaustion and stress! I wish I ordered some fruits to send to you along with this letter, but the thought just came to me now. Definitely next time! Haha~~

Anyway, it’s sad that we don’t get to talk much…and hang out. You see Jungshin way often than you see me and I’m envious! But you enjoy his company right? Shin tells me you’re hilarious backstage, and I hope he treats you well. You guys look really cool as MCs, I watch you guys when I have the time.

I also just want to say thank you for being a good friend of mine. I recall that you checked on me before when I wasn’t at my best, and I was surprised and touched. The cool and chic Key is actually very caring! Haha! I appreciated that…. If you need anyone, despite me being the complete opposite of the awesome you, I’m here to listen. Yeah bro I got your back!

Stay awesome and I hope to hear from you soon!

Sincerely,

Ayako : Red Lantern

In the darkness lays a beacon, A way to light me home. Raise the red lantern, Lead me from the weary road..