#justfrustrated

Remember all those times in school when they said there are no stupid questions? They fucking lied. There are stupid questions. There are repetitive dumb annoying questions that make teachers want to cry and cuss and flip a table. That is all.

When people are nicer/friendlier to your roommates than you... I should be the one being less nice to you, not the other way around.

On the five month anniversary of the death of someone I love very much, some older kid in school comes up to me and asks "Im glad its getting easier. At least you can move on." I'm not sure what bothers me more-- the fact that they assume they understand how I deal with things, or they assume how much he meant to me. Every single month the 26th rolls around, I wake up, and it's hell. I still remember how I felt the moment he died. That feeling all over my body like I was being speared or my heart was slowly being cut out of my chest. People think they can relate, but I have a hard time believing that unless someone you love very much dies. Moving on from something like that isn't a time thing. Its more of a spiritual thing: when your spirit is finally at peace. Time doesn't have anything to do with it. In fact, time is the one thing I would get rid of. Time to live, time to love, time to die. Just rid me of it all. Time affects many things, but not the spirits of those who are dead. So why should time affect when my spirit is at peace, or when I should forgot the pain? Don't let anyone tell you you should be over something. Ever.

I know this is a total first world problem... But all my electronics keep breaking and it's really frustrating. My laptop is fucked. My television keeps shutting itself off and on. My camera hasn't turned on in months. My phone is spazzy. My blu-ray has had to be repaired numerous times. All electronics do is cost me a lot of money and add to my damn stress level when they break constantly, all on their own. Im giving up and becoming a mountain person.