#just... how?

I have learned some things about myself. 1) I find it really hard to compose anything to be longer than a minute (a minute and a half is pretty much my max) and 2) Everything I do sounds so relaxed! Whyyyy?! I don't dislike it, but sometimes I want to make something that can cause excitement and adrenaline by listening to it.

Heh, you could say this is an artist's study in a way. I listened to the How to Train Your Dragon soundtrack and took notes on the structure of a few of the songs. Basically stuff like "quick violin notes in background" and "brass instruments here to provide punch" and stuff like that. Then I implemented those things in this piece.

and then the last chapter is totally different.

And look, I feel mean, because I'm no critic, and I shouldn't have the sheer nerve to judge in any way, being a writer myself, but... Suddenly the characterisation is all over the place, and relationships are breezed over or pushed to one side. Nothing that happened between the characters holds any significance or weight any more. The structure becomes really really simple, so it's just all tiny choppy sentences of nothing but Character A does this. Character B does this. when before they had meandering sentences of different lengths, time for their characters to dwell on things, and you really dove deep into their thoughts and feelings. And even the sudden use of characters talking in caps lock is super jarring when it hadn't been done at all previously! Why randomly do this in the last chapter? Honestly, it was so shocking, it was like it was written by someone entirely different.