#just spiralling

i hate mental health and i wish my stupid brain brained like normal peoples

ALSO, am I anxious because it's both the first day of my period and I'm taking the kids to the Franklin Institute for the first time since three days before the shutdown in March of 20 and I am fhuuuucking ricocheting between it's fine I have to get out there sometime they're going to go all out to make it safe as possible - AND - this is a huge mistake literally nothing in this country should be open because we are collectively too stupid and reckless to have every done the simple actions to responsibly return to normal - AND - my kids are fucking desperate to be able to do the things they used to do - AND - I am a fucking terrible person for endagering them and others because of wants rather than needs - AND - how is this fundamentally different from when I had no choice but to take them into a grocery store or chose to go camping?

listening to the succession soundtrack wyd?