#junijn

How many times did count?

It’s never enough. I’ve chosen to give up several times already but I know deep inside my heart that he will comeback. He should. He promised me. He will find us.

My friend is trembling while nagging me to just ignore that childish game but how can I do that when he’s risking everything while we are hiding? I knew he was bitten while we were still running but he tried to ignore the pain. He told me that he was born immune to the virus.

Andy Oppa knew that this will happen. We cannot stay safe in this place anymore. They are all coming for us. I am afraid but I am more burdened to think that I will be alone in the end. It was a good thing that he came to pick me up from my trip here. He saw me and my friend running for our lives a while ago from the living dead citizens.

I can’t still understand what happened but we woke up in our cabin hearing the tragic screams of the town’s people who are now without any doubt became part of them. Something very wrong happened in the research laboratory that was meant for my new location. If he did not come, we could have been dead meat.

“You’re crazy for waiting for him!!! I DON’T WANT TO DIE LIKE YOU AND WAIT HERE!” my colleague shouted at me and went out of the bunker where we are supposed to hide and she ran off somewhere. I couldn’t stop her since I am exhausted too.

I closed the lid tightly and returned to the last number where I stopped counting when all of a sudden I heard my friend screamed with agony from somewhere outside. I clenched my fists; I bit my lips and chose courage from fear. I stormed my way out from the bunker only to see her being devoured by a crowd of zombies which are now approximately a couple of meters away from where I am. It was too late, she was lifeless already.

I can’t hide anymore. I saw one of them twitched its head towards my direction and slowly others sluggishly turned their disfigured bodies to where I am. I closed my eyes and kept on counting. He should be able to see me now. I am no longer covered by a huge block of wood under the soil. My feet were numb already. I am starting to hyperventilate because of tension when I heard his voice above me.

“Found you.”

Andy Oppa’s voice was loud and clear. His well-modulated tone spoke peace to my heart. He does that most of the time and base from my instincts he is standing on a higher ground near me right now. I opened my eyes to meet him with my gratefulness but what I saw left me without words.

My hero’s delicate skin is now stripped with crimson colour. His bitten arm was like a fountain of blood attached to him and I cannot do anything to stop the bleeding. Strands from his neatly tied pony-tail were scattered on the side of his face and some were tucked under his ears. His white shirt is now all muddy and his jeans were designed with scratches from all angles. I cried a soundless sob and he hushed me with his blood stained fingers.

He bent beside me and got his handkerchief inside his pocket. Andy Oppa started wiping his arm, I thought he was about to cover it but he suddenly said to me,

“Okay, stay still. My blood will hide you from them.” And he started wiping the same handkerchief on my shirt, gently against my cheeks and wrapped it on my neck.

“Oppa, what do you mean?” I looked at his arm again with a worried thought and the wound was gone. I cannot believe what I just saw. Am I imagining things? Am I being delusional? I am so confused right now. I can’t even think properly.

“I will explain to you later. Let me carry you on my back, it will be faster this way. Junjin and Hyesung Hyung is already on their way here while Eric Hyung is almost done getting all the documents from the lab. Minwoo Hyung and Dongwan Hyung will be on the bottom of the cliff when I throw you off so you don’t have to worry.” He said and he pulled me out of the hollow and lowered his back for me.

“I can’t understand any of this. What is happening?” everything is starting to drive me crazy when he grabbed my hand and the next thing that I knew was – we are running in full speed while he is carrying me.

His sneakers were untied, I am worried that he might trip – but what’s happening right now is so inhuman of him. Even if he looks sleepless from his deep eye bags, his grip is extra tight. I know how heavy I am but he is steady with his speed. I thought he is a vulnerable person for being the youngest among them, yet I was wrong. Andy Oppa is very strong.

He spoke under his breathe,

“Don’t let anyone know about what you saw a while ago. You are the sixth person to discover. The members already know about me. This is our secret.”  

“Let me tell you something, I’ll cry if you go.”

I was looking at him with my overwhelming emotions trying to burst from my tiny heart that I’ve been squeezing for so long.

“Go. Cry if that’s what will make you feel better. I am not going to stop you.”

He said in front of my face. His reaction is still unreadably annoying. He knows me very well.

I bit my lip. I tried to gulp one more ounce of confidence to not stutter as I speak my words of disgust but even before I opened my mouth, he hugged me.

Beneath his embrace, I felt his warmth. He held me close and tight. I can feel his chin pinning on my skull as he speak and I trembled –

“Why do you always make goodbyes so complicated? I was not supposed to cry with you. I was planning to leave you as cool as possible but you are so spoiled. What have I done to deserve your tears?”

I tried to escape from his lock but he restrained me from doing so. I bounced back to his chest and I heard his silent sobs while he gently brushed his hands through the strands of my hair.

“Oppa, let me go.” I can’t even hug him back right now.

“No.” his voice was firm and full of sadness this time.

“Please. You need to stop.” I begged one more time and he loosened his grip.

“NOW HOW CAN YOU POSSIBLY GO TO YOUR BLIND DATE WITH ALL MY MASCARA SMEARED ON YOUR WHITE SHIRT?” I exclaimed.

He was shocked. He didn’t expect this to happen.

“See?! I told you I’ll just buy you ice cream when I come back!!! But you kept on asking me to buy it first before I go! Now what will I do?” he was briefly furious about it but my epic abstract face paint suddenly made him laugh so hard.

“Jinnie Oppa, stop laughing.” He is annoying me at some point.

“Oh, I didn’t know you can be so cute like that! Hahaha! Minwoo Hyung! Look! We have a baby panda here! Dongwan Hyung! HAHAHAHA LOOK GUYS!”

All of them came out in a rush Eric Oppa laughed silently while hiding at behind Andy Oppa. Both Hyesung Oppa and Andy Oppa tried to cover their smiles with their hands. Minwoo Oppa helped Jinnie Oppa to stand back to his feet while still laughing out loud. Dongwan Oppa on another hand was ready with wet tissue on his hands and started wiping my face with it.

“Now, stop your drama. Let’s go buy your ice cream.” Dongwan Oppa’s smile made me felt more pathetic and happy having them as my sworn brothers.

Oh that ice cream. =_=

“Don’t wait for him anymore.” He said it again without any sound of hesitation in his voice.

I think he got used to it since he had been saying that same line more than ten times now. He adjusted his snapback again to fit his perfectly groomed almond brown hair and stood up from his crossed legged sitting position.

He walked towards the window and checked his wrist watch for the nth time. I cannot believe that his angelic face can still illuminate that beautiful magnitude while his temper is being tested. He took off his ash tinted cardigan and placed it on his shoulders instead. From where I am sitting I can see his well-toned biceps emerging because of his stressed muscles. His tan line is also visible on that black sleeveless garment that he is wearing.

He walked towards me and bent one of his knees to rest it on the floor. The moment we matched our visions, yes – I just saw how elegant his face is in close range. His piercing gentle eyes focused on mine, I don’t know where to look since his tiny nose and tight thin lips are so distracting in so many ways that I cannot explain.

“Come with me. We need to go now.” His voice, it is really heavenly convincing with all that poise of a prince substantially negotiating me over and over. I am really having a hard time keeping up with this kind of pressure.

I know he is already losing his patience but what can I do?

“Hyesung Oppa, I can’t. I promised him.” I closed my eyes tightly as I said those words that would probably make him explode when all of a sudden the doorbell rang.

The door swung open even before I can take a glance and the last thing that I saw was a flying kick being delivered to the late comer by an elvish prince.

“Hey! Don’t kick me! You said you are not coming! WHY ARE YOU HERE?!” Eric Oppa tried to dodge that painful attack.

“YOU IDIOT! YOU ARE AT MY HOUSE RIGHT NOW!” Hyesung Oppa said with a roaring voice.

I shouldn’t look at them while quarrelling but I can’t – it is too amusing.

“Exactly! That is the reason why I came in late! We decided to meet in her house and the last thing that I knew when I woke up is you picked her up and brought her here to wait instead! YOU ALREADY HAD BREAKFAST WITHOUT MEEE!!! AND YOU’D GO TO DISNEY LAND WITHOUT ME TOO?!!!” Eric Oppa shouted with a whining high pitched voice.

“I promised I will wait Eric Oppa. Now let’s go?” I gave him a cheerful beam since there is no point of fighting with each other anymore.

“Oh yes, I almost forgot about that.” Hyesung Oppa calmed down in an instant.

Before I can stand up, I received a message from Jinnie Oppa with a picture of the four of them saying –

“Eric Hyung, come here faster!!! Minwoo Hyung and I are so bored right now we cannot do rides without you three! Dongwan Hyung and Andy are getting cotton candies for us right now. SHE WILL BE SURPRISED WE ARE ALSO HERE!!! Hurr – “

And another message came in from him too –

I regret going here. I know that I must have been very late but I needed to be here nonetheless.

An unknown number sent me the most intriguing text message that made me go run wild with a rush to my old university. I hate this gut feel.

The person who sent it to me told me that I without me, something very awful could happen and I must take the responsibility afterwards if I will not believe the message. The sender is waiting in our library.

I know it sounds super lame and all – but I am anxious like hell. My phone just got restored and all my contacts were gone. I’ve tried to call the number but it seems like the battery drained mercilessly in the most unwanted timing.

The weather is humid. I can smell the rain coming real soon. I decided to tie my hair on a pony tail and sprint all the way from the gate of the school across the very huge ground field. I was almost out of breath and panting like crazy when I reached the first floor of the building where our library is. I leaned on the glass door and pushed my way in with the remaining force that I have. I accidentally tripped and went out of balance. OH MY.

In slow motion, I saw him running to catch me from my epic fall. He was able to glide right in front of me and save my reputation from a very huge lump of embarrassment from my juniors who witnessed it with shock and amazement.

His face, I recognized it right away the soonest that my eyes focused on him. He steadied me like a weak vegetable; my wasted adrenaline is taking effect. He lowered his posture to match mine as he reached something inside his pocket.

He brushed the strand of my hair from my forehead and wiped my sweat with his handkerchief. His thick eyebrows were so near to each other and both were displaying a worried expression.

His eyes were as anxious as I was, I can’t believe that a handsome face could be staring at me directly and as near as this. I looked down to avoid his gaze and traced my sight towards his undeniably straight nose bridge and his puckered charming lips – he will scold me in no time.

“I told you I will wait in the library. Have I ever told you to hurry and push yourself to run here carelessly? I can wait and I will. Look at what happened to you. I was right to meet you here. I saw you earlier running like you’re being chased by zombies.” he said while pinching my left cheek.

 “Jinnie Oppa, it was about to rain. I don’t have an umbrella.” I hope my obvious excuse can be accepted as a valid reason.

“You don’t need an umbrella; I brought two orange raincoats for you and me. I needed you to come here and try it if it fits well. It’s custom made for us. Eric Hyung and Minwoo Hyung asked me to deliver it to you since they still need to buy groceries. Hyesung  Hyung will be here to pick us up and Dongwan Hyung too along our way. Andy is waiting for us in his house as we speak. Don’t tell me you forgot.” He explained while folding his white long sleeves. He also bent down to fold the edge of his nicely ripped off denim jeans.

So I had a dream that I was like the coordinator for Shinhwa's world tour, mostly arranging the concert venue in Los Angeles and London (don't know why those two) and helping fellow SHCJ get a fantastic time with them like they did in their concerts in Korea.

Lost a lot of details ... Hyesung and Minwoo was playing around and doing games for meet & greet ..... I think Junjin was doing a hug game with 60 people (I really wanted that number for some reason) ... but then it all ended and Eric was like I hope I meet this person who did all this. Thought that was weird of him to say that .... Dongwan was like taking photos of everything while he was talking and when I look at his pictures, I didn't see me in it ..... then Andy went thru me!!! ................... I was a ghost! 

They wore thick Jacket because it was still snowing and I thought Andy is really handsome in person.

It was funny how we were talking about this blog and dreams on KKT yesterday and this morning I woke up and found shinhwa visited so many of us in dream land yesterday! xD We should talk about dreams more =P

This is a funny dream cos one of my nick was actually "Jinnie" >.<

I didn't know I was in Jinnie's perspective initially. I remember I was busy in the first part of the dream. A lot of running up and down the stairs, going into different rooms (I knew I was working but honestly I couldn't figure out as what and what was I doing). While being busy, there was something at the back of my mind bothering me - knowing the parents were going to divorce and there was nothing I could do other than to wait. (I am feeling bad for Jinnie after I woke up, but MW and Eric stole my attention at the last part of the dream).

Then finally in one of the room, I saw a letter. From the Dad; to confirm the divorce. It felt awful. And I just needed a break and didn't feel like working (Weirdly I got sick and didn't go to work today too >.<)

So for everything above, i did not see my own face in the dream. just the hands and clothing I was wearing. After the room part, the perspective switched. I became part of the filming crew. Jinnie (A BLONDE JINNIE!) walked in, wearing the shirt and trousers I was wearing earlier so I figured I was him earlier. Minwoo and Eric were already in the room. Minwoo was wearing a light peach colour knitted sweater (a bit like his christmas red sweater but lower cut and peach in colour. VERY LOW CUT!). Eric was in a leather jacket and looking gorgeous (like the him in sistar episode of Shinbang). It was a Lunar New Year game. They were given almost unrecognizable replica of items related to lunar new year and they were supposed to guess what the actual item was. (Jinnie on the left side, Minwoo in the middle and Eric on the right. My position was nearer to Ricmin)

Eric was given this ugly doll that look like a green and black pug. He made a lot of weird and funny guesses making the crew and Minwoo laughed. Minwoo was pulling the collar of his sweater up and giving that cute shrimp eyes smile <3<3<3 Eric's laugh was so super cute too. When the answer was released to them, it created an uproar between Minwoo and Eric and they were showing the camera the doll (apparently a symbol was sew on to it and they missed it) and complaining the thing shouldn't be black in colour and it was impossible to guess.