So I’m home, I’m showered, and I’m actually unpacked! I’ve even started on the laundry, although I may still be working my way through it next month 🙈😂! I’m currently chilling in bed, painting my nails 💅🏻 and watching sleeping beauty 👸🏼. There are still LOTS of beautiful new photos and videos to post from my week away, so expect to be spammed, but don’t expect too much from me the next few days; I’m knackered! I’m also feeling very sad this evening; after an incredible week surrounded by incredible people, it’s hard to say goodbye 😭💔! It’s also hard to say goodbye to the ability to be selfish; Jumbulance is literally the one week a year I get to be entirely selfish in my decisions and actions. It’s my one week of complete and utter freedom... coming home can feel so terribly confining. And of course, that ability to concentrate on myself is made possible by the person I’m missing most of all, my incredible big sister Jade 💚 who’s been my carer all week; not because she’s paid to (in fact, she pays to come on Jumbulance!) but because she wants to. I feel like I’m missing a limb, and it’s not even neuropathy 🙈😂! I’m really, really missing my good night cwtches. Typically, because of the reasons listed above, I always have a really nasty battle with my depression when I return from holiday; this year I’m being more proactive about managing it. This includes doing things like unpacking straight away, keeping busy, spending time with my friends (if anyone would like to hang out this week, hit me up! I need my friends this week, and cwtches would be much appreciated!), but I’ve also got an appointment with my psychologist booked for tomorrow. I’m telling myself it’s okay not to be okay, and that it’s okay to ask for some help at a difficult time. I was incredibly appreciative of my mate Steph feeling comfortable making jokes that I had to go see my psychologist tomorrow because I’d miss her so much 😂! It made me feel less ashamed of needing that hit of help... and of course, I actually do really miss Steph (and everyone else)! Big thank you to everyone at Jumbulance who’s made one of the best weeks of my life possible 💖 expect an essay soon 😂! #jumbulance https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz6R71whXlP/?igshid=1t7dji7sh10tl
