I held an impromptu death celebration for Judith The Cat last night after receiving her ashes in the mail. I cried holding her remains in my lap staring at a brilliant sunset for nearly three hours straight. In retrospect it was almost harder than the day she went to sleep forever, as it was another step towards the reality that she truly, in fact, is no longer on the physical plain. I've kept myself so insanely busy for the last two weeks trying to fill the space that caring and hanging out with her every moment I could left that I feel like I've been running myself a bit thin, so it was more than amazing to just sit with her and be silent and present for a few hours. I don't feel like I'll ever say goodbye, as I know better. Death is just the next step of life. She's still with me and will be forever. I'm not sure I've ever been this sad in my entire life. I feel completely emotionally depleted. There is a hole in my heart that is going to take some serious time to get refilled, but I know it will happen. I miss her every waking moment of every day, and especially while sleeping, as that is when we would have some of best cuddle time, even if we were unconscious. It feels weird to hold onto the physical remains of a body reduced to ash. I'm not quite sure what I will do with the ashes yet, as being a cat, we didn't really go on walks, and none of the houses I have lived in over the years do I want to spread ashes at as I don't live there anymore. Some I will have tattooed into the piece of her I'm working on. The rest I just don't know...yet. I'm thankful the Universe reflected back with the 2,275 lightning strikes the day she died, September 7th, and with this incredible Seattle sunset the day I received her ashes. I miss you Bear ♥️. . . . . . . The first two photos are undoctored. The third wqs edited slightly, with #NoFilter. . #JudithTheCat #Seattle #LifeAndDeath #DeathCelebration #Sunset #MeowMixInTheSky #PurpleSkies #Purple #Shadows #Contrail #Clouds #GoldenGardens #206Love #SadAF #IMissYou #NeverToBeForgotten #SeeYouInTheNextLifeWhenWeAreBothCats (at Golden Gardens Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2sbRUJpL-A/?igshid=j6yltutpcgxi
