#jpba

I love you beacause you’re you. I feel safe and secured when I’m with you. I love the way you stare at me while smiling, hoping I can read your mind and know what you’re thinking. I love your lips, the way you sweetly kiss every part of my face while I was giggling feeling all the those butterflies in my stomach. I love your hands holding mine everytime we’re together. I love your smell, makes me want to kiss you. I love the way you say you love me. I love all our sweet and stupid conversations even if its late at night. I love the way you make my heart beats so fast when I see your name pops up on my phone. I love you, I still do. I know you’re now happy with her. But I’m still hoping we’ll end up together and thinking that someday I will be marrying you. Last night, when I saw you all of my sadness fade. I smiled at you wishing I could say that I miss you. You jokingly said to me “I like that lipstick on your lips. Can I kiss you?” I smiled and whispered “you’re stupid” and I swear on that moment I was dying to kiss you. I want you to take me home, hold my hand once again, kiss you and feel you. But then I realized it is really over when you didn’t come to take me home, we just smiled and gestured goodbye at each other. I miss you right now. God! How I wish you miss me how much I miss you. I’m dying everytime I wake up knowing someone’s recieving your goodmorning texts and i love yous. I wish I’m the one who gets to recieve that. I think I’ll never get over you. Not this time. I don’t know when or how. And I hope it will be soon because it’s killing and hurting me every second. Goodbye to you, my first love, my heart’s desire, my always. 💔