Remember Me
She doesnât know who getâs her numberâ to call her. She is at home, sleeping peacefully with Keiko curled into her side when they call- voice rushed, telling her to come to the studio and she almost hung upâuntil they mention Kadeâs name and Over Dose in the same sentence. She almost chokes on her breathâ her heart is in her stomachâand she cannot remember how to breathe. âHospitalâ get him to the hospitalââ She kisses Keiko and calls her brother to come over, sheâs grateful he lives down the streetâand that he doesnât judge her, just gives her a hug before she dashes out of the door.Â
She doesnât need thisâ doesnât need to be here, doesnât need to be dealing with thisâand she wonders why she never really closed the door when it came to himâ why she was speeding like she could do something other than beg his sorry excuse for friends to call an ambulance. She nearly crashes her carâbut she gets there in ten minutesâand ignores every red light she comes across.He is in the shower when she getâs there, cold water hitting his face in an attempt to revive him, and they all seem to part for her, and her mis matched pyjamas and furrowed brow. She feels like cryingâ but there are so many strangers that she retreats into herself. She just needs to figure out how she can help. He is barely lucidâ when she steps into the shower with him and holds him up. âWill someone call the fucking ambulanceâ? Who gives two shits about bad publicityâ you want to know what the worst publicity would be? His Funeralâ CALL-â She is smallâand demanding and they stare at her as if she is a different person than the girl in flowy clothes who gave birth to his daughter. She wonders again who thought to call her.âBabyââ She coos the word into his ear, though she doubts he can hear her. âDonât fall asleep okay? Iâm hereââ She murmurs the words and she gets a grunt of acknowledgement. He is out of it. âWhat the fuck did he take?â she hasnât sworn this much since she was in labour. The room is silentâ and no one wants to say a word, but she is staring them all down. He is breathing too slow for her liking. âEverythingââ The answer Kade gives himself, before a silly grin is plastered on its face. From where she is it sounds like a grimace. âYoâyou feel nice ladyâ who are you? you gonna go? Donât goâ You smell like fuckinâ flowers manâdoes your pussy smell like flowersâ?â She bites back laughter, but someone else in the small room giggles and she sends them a conspirators smile. The water is making her shakeâ but she doesnât step outâ she holds him up and it takes everything in her body. âIâm Emiko⌠and I wonât be nice when you wake up. We have a daughterâ you know. Sheâs just getting to know youâ she already loves you. But thatâs how children are. Iâm justâ Iâm your friend maybe. Iâm the girl who taught you how to pick sunflowersâ and laugh at the little things. Taught you how to cook breakfast tooâ remember? The first morning I woke up at your house and you almost burnt it down trying to make me eggsâ remember me? In your shirtâwith messy hair wondering what I was getting myself intoâ I think I still smelled like flowers thenââ He is still smiling when she finishes but it is gentler nowâand she hears the sound of an ambulance. Sees a stretcher coming and relaxes.Â
âDo you want anyone to come with you sir?ââThe nice ladyâ Emiko. She can comeâ Sheâs my wife.â She wonders if he thinks they are going to the clubâ either way she slides in the back of the ambulanceâ and holds his hand all the way to the hospital. And doesnât correct him on the wife thing.














