You Never Looked Back (Jopper Fic)
Jopper songfic for Jopper Week 2026 full of my headcanons and a major amount of fluff for the ending.
Song is Rose Betts' You Never Looked Back (except for the last bit)
I could be a hero, I could be a rock
I could be the brakes when the car won't stop
I could be the water when the hiccups come
And I could be your socks when your feet get numb
Her home life has never been what anyone would classify as ideal. Her mom left when she was so little that she didnât even have any real memories. There were some smells and songs she associated with her mom. She could pick her out in pictures. But she didnât have much else. She knew it was her fault that her mom left though. That part was always clear.
Her dad was rough around the edges, but she deserved most of what he said and did. She was anxious and irritating. She was lazy. At least thatâs what she always heard from him.Â
So she grew up a little tired. Because it was hard to fall asleep never knowing what time your drunk dad might stagger into the house.
She was always a little hungry. Because any more was greedy and he wasnât raising a greedy kid. Because too much might make her fat and nobody wanted an ugly girl.
She wore cast-off clothes and hand-me-downs. She wasnât worth new, pretty things.
And she genuinely believed every bit of that to be true. So when eight-year-old Jim gave her his apple at lunch one day at school she didnât even know what to do.
âI have a loose tooth,â she began. âAlso, my dad says that I donât need anything else.â
âMy mom said you do,â Jim told her. âPlus, if youâre hungry at recess you wonât run as fast and I want you on my team.â
Jim Hopper was the most normal part of her life from the time he shared that apple until the day he left for Vietnam. Always in her corner, always speaking gentle truths that ran counter to everything sheâd heard before, seeing and believing the best about her, and being her comfort.
I could be an oak tree, I could be the shore
I could be a campfire keeping you warm
I could be the sunlight peeping through the cracks
But you'll never know 'cause you never looked back
âSheâs really strong, Jim,â she says, hand on his shoulder.
âI know. I know itâs good they caught it early and thereâs a good chance she comes through this just fine. Itâs just,â he puts his head in his hands. âScary.â
Sheâs the only one he can admit that to.
âYeah.â She plops down beside him. âIt is. I need her too, ya know?â
He didnât expect his mom to come home with a cancer diagnosis. He thought she was just worn out. She took care of everyone and everything. Being tired would have made sense. This didnât.
âIâm calling it now,â Joyce says, scooching somehow closer to him.
âWhat?â He doesnât mean to glower at her but he feels awful.
âSix months from now, thatâs how long they said her treatment will be, right? Weâll be celebrating that sheâs recovered.â
One month later Joyce reminds him that his momâs doctor said there were options for treatment so if her cancer doesnât respond they still have recourse.
Three months later Joyce reminds him that his mom is halfway there.
Four months in and she reminds him why theyâre not giving up.
Five months pass and he finds Joyce having tea with his mom on the front porch because his mom canât get out and do anything.
Six months later she says âTold you so,â and gives him his first real kiss (the one under the slide at their elementary school doesnât count).
And a year after that, Joyce is the one who makes him and his dad plan a whole picnic to celebrate.
Sheâs there for all of it.
I could be a blanket, I could be a breeze
I could be the sugar in your morning tea
And I could be a penny at the bottom of the well
I could be a pearl in the middle of the shellÂ
âLonnie is a piece of shit,â he says, voice raised.
âOh, youâre one to talk,â she retorts.
She doesnât know why heâs talking about her coming with Lonnie Byers when heâs dating Chrissy. What business is it of his who she goes to the Snow Ball with?
âWhereâs Chrissy? Why arenât you with her?â she asks with a sigh, voice losing some of its venom. She really doesnât want to fight. To be frank, she doesnât know why they are.
âShe broke up with me.â He doesnât look at her when he says it but he also doesnât sound too upset.
âShe broke up with you?â She scrunches her nose up.
âThatâs what I said.â
So we could have come together.
âWe could have come together,â he says, giving voice to her thoughts.
âWe were fighting,â she argues.
ââBout what?â He looks at her when he asks, half teasing (because teasing Joyce is one of his favorite things.)
âBecause you-â she begins, then lets out a huff of air and swallows her frustration. âI donât really know.â She does know, but she doesnât care. It doesnât really matter. They should have come together.
âDance with me, Joycie?â He holds out a hand to her.
It is going to royally piss Lonnie off. If he comes back in time to see it.
âYeah,â she grabs his hand without a second thought.
I could be a savior, I could be a king
I could be the air underneath your wings
I could be the light when the night goes black
But you'll never know 'cause you never looked back
The tears are running down her cheeks, making tracks, but sheâs not noisy about it. She doesnât blubber. Sheâs been trained not to.
âThis is why I didnât tell you,â Hop says, not making eye contact.
âThat youâre going to Vietnam, Jim?â she says at a whisper. âYou might never come back.â
âThatâs what my mom said.â
âWell, sheâs right. Youâre just leaving us here?â How can he?
âIâm going to help. Itâs my duty,â he replies, parroting back the words his dad has said so many times, choosing to picture his fatherâs pride instead of his motherâs sorrow.
âThis isnât like when we were kids. This isnât risky like skipping out on class or taking your dadâs car to Lovers Lake or-â she sputters.Â
Sheâs overly-emotional. Sheâs pregnant. Itâs Lonnieâs, not Hopâs like she always dreamed but never said.
âItâs not your duty. Somebody else can go.â She knows she sounds petulant but heâs been her hero, her lucky penny at the bottom of a well, her light when the night goes black. He can't go.
âAre you gonna tell me goodbye or what?â He stands and looks at her as he asks.
âI canât say goodbye,â she answers softly, swiping at her cheeks.
The next day, he ships out.
Threw me down like a broken part
I'm so much more than that
But you'll never know 'cause you never looked back
He can honestly say he hasnât thought of her in years.
No, thatâs not honest. He hasnât thought of her a lot, but she has come to mind. When he feels the grief begin to smother him, he thinks of her.
But she hasnât been anything to him for years.
His mom keeps him updated every time she calls.
âJoycie works at Donaldâs store. Iâm glad she has something but that girl is so smart. I wish there was something better for her!â
âJimmy, youâd have loved to see it. She brought the boys by the house to trick-or-treat. The older one, he has so many of her mannerisms but the little fella, oh, he has her big brown eyes. Charming boys.â
âCome home, Jimmy. You could get a job at the station here in town. Your friends are still here. Benny Hammond and Joycie would love to have you back.â
He thinks that maybe, maybe, being closer to her means he might not drown. He doesnât know how thatâs supposed to work, only that sheâs been his sunlight peeking through the cracks before.
We could be a statue and we could be a star
We could be the lovers in the hotel bar
We could be the feet making brand new tracks
But youâll never know âcause you never looked back
Theyâd grown back together, talked through the causes of old wounds, healed, moved forward. They had the kids, two boys and a girl. They had a house (mildly monster infested) and a cabin (not without its own flaws).
Theyâd rescued a child together, fought monsters together, protected their family and their town and here was where it ended. Fighting the Russians.
Thereâs no other choice. The machine has to be destroyed.
She goes home without him and tries to move on.
First the denial is just that. Itâs the first stage of grief and sheâs slow when coming to terms with loss, especially this one. But then thereâs the feeling, the same one she had when she knew Will was out there somewhere. Oh, sheâs not talking to lights, but thereâs something in the pit of her stomach that just wonât settle and isnât just sorrow. Then thereâs the package and the knowledge. And the rescue.
And the choice. Heâs back and they're going to do everything else, forever, together.
Saw who I was, loved me just like that
Promised a love that'll last
That now we'll know 'cause we both looked back
âWhere are we gonna stay?â he asks softly, arms around her, loathe to let her go.
âHere,â she murmurs against him. âHere, right?âÂ
Joyce pulls back and looks so puzzled that he would even ask that it makes him want to giggle. How heâs missed watching every emotion flit across her face.
âSâjust that thereâs not a lot of room. Wondered if you California girls would find it too crowded.â
He sits down on his bed. Their bed?
âI wouldnât care if it was a shed with one of those tiny army surplus air mattress thingies your granddad left you.â
He throws his head back to laugh. It feels so good to laugh.
âIâm not kidding, Hop.â She canât bring herself to stop reaching out for him, reassuring herself that heâs there, heâs real. Heâs hers? âIâm staying with you.â
âWhat do we tell the kids?â
âAbout what?â she asks, her eyebrows doing that thing where one rises higher than the other. âWe just say weâre staying here. Together. Jonathan might want to spend time with Nancy, but Will and El arenât going to say a thing.â
He watches her as she plunks down beside him on the bed and throws herself backwards, hair fanning out.
Itâs long now, probably the longest heâs ever seen it aside from the one time she grew it out.
âWhat?â she exhales, leaning on her elbow and putting her head on her hand.
âWhat do we tell the kids about us?â
She snorts and lets her head fall back again. âPretty sure the kids know about us. Pretty sure they knew about us before we were an us.â
He twists toward her and leans in to kiss her and she reaches out to pull him closer. At last, theyâre home.
You can be a fortress, you can be a net
Be an umbrella so I wonât get wet
You can be a bird and I will be the nest
Forever together living lifeâs best
You can be the grandpa I can be the gran
I can be your lover and youâll be my man
We can be the old folks walking in the sand
Doing life together, hand in hand
Didn't want to miss any more of life togetherÂ
Now we're so much more than thatÂ
And now we'll know cause we both looked back
He knows heâs staring at her but he canât help it, sheâs always drawn him to her like some sort of siren that he was powerless to resist, even if he tried for so much of their lives.
âYou gonna give her back?â he teases softly as he watches his wife stroke the chubby cheek of their newest grandchild.
âWhat? No. Why?â Joyce looks at him like heâs lost his mind.
âJust thought maybe Karen would like a turn,â he continues to needle her gently.
She stares, enraptured, at the tiny face cradled close. âKaren can have a turn another day,â she tells him mildly.
He lowers himself down to sit next to her on the new couch. Not the old one that sunk in the middle. He finds himself occasionally nostalgic for that old couch. He liked how his mere sitting would sink the cushions enough that his wife would, by default, find herself nestled against his side. There's something to be said for the way she chooses to move there now, even when the cushions hold steady.
As if reading his thoughts, Joyce tucks herself next to him so he can put his arm around both her and the baby. Itâs almost certain that Jonathan will find them like this and start taking pictures, but for now theyâre uninterrupted.
âYou ever think,â he began tentatively, âwhat it might have been like if weâd, you know, looked back instead of just blowing right past each other in life.â
âHmm,â she exhales softly. âYeah. But I have to believe that everything happened for a reason and I definitely believe that it brought us here.âÂ
Thereâs a pause and neither of them speaks. She has more to say, sheâs just finding the words. And he knows that.
âWe wouldnât have this.â
âThis is pretty perfect, our life.â
âThanks,â she whispers. âFor coming back.â
âPretty sure you're the one who went to hell and back again to rescue me,â he reminds her.
âIt was nothing,â she quips with that smirk that he finds so irresistible. âAnd,â she says more seriously. âI was tired of missing life together.â
He hums a non-committal noise before answering, âWe always have been at our best that way, huh? Together.â