#jonhelen

i don't mean appearance-wise, i mean silly mistakes. trying to wipe up a spill with printer paper because it misunderstood what a paper towel is. calling an animal by the wrong name.

describing emotions in a door/hallway metaphor. ("hallway full of bees" sorry, did you mean butterflies? distortion, you are experiencing butterflies.)

it was literally a door it doesn't know this shit!

i think it has some memories attached to "who" it is, thus why it can tell michael shelley's story, but little details like this? the nuance of the human experience? lost on it. too busy hating being even remotely like a who to stop and attempt to model after them properly.

this makes it mildly offputting and that's the goal so it's content <3

just as michael's hatred of gertrude made him terrorize jon when he was the distortion, i like to think that helen's love for jon made her follow him around the way she did. she wanted to be around him, and she couldn't understand why.

there's also the lack of dignity of it all. going from trying to kill someone to being hopelessly in love with them within a moment. being essentially forced into that unrequited love, and knowing that any second, if they just looked in the right direction, they'd know. a being of pure delusion falling in love with a being of infinite knowledge and exposed secrets. the only person capable of uncovering the truth about her is also the person she's in love with. she continues to willingly put herself into that situation where her very being could be torn into at any second.

Jon and Helen do bond over their struggle with humanity and becoming a monster, but Helen still embraces her role as the Distortion and Jon's struggle (the conflict is even worse as he listens to Helen more) ends in him deciding to keep his remaining humanity and he still runs away with Martin to the safehouse

jon and helen