there’s this fic that means so much to me and i’ve been spending so much time and effort in it. it’s an mpreg with a medium-sized dose of angst.

i’m currently in the beginning of chapter 22 (the “beginning” but that monster has already 3k words... haha...) and i really wish i could post it before the end of july! i’m gonna try to work on it this night... i still have three days. kinda.

     aaaand each day that passes, i’m more unsure if LMLY is going to be a series of two separate fics or not... the first “book”, or “season”, or whatever, ends at exactly 30 chapters, but there’s still a lot of things that i want to cover. Should i continue them in another work entirely, maybe even make it 30 chapters as well (even though i think that’d be kind of too much for what i have in mind...) or continue it in the same work? and have the entire story end at 40, maybe 45 chapters... and like, a billion words lol-

    sometimes i feel like i should just drop the entire “30 chapters” plan and just go for posting chapters carelessly about these kind of things. because the thing with having so many scenes cut into one chapter is that it ends up being so big and... idk aaaaaaa what am i talking about

i think i’m not making any sense. i don’t know what i want. sometimes i wish i had written this porcaria in portuguese so that i could ... idk, be better? but i think my english is pretty good, and maybe i’m being the best i can be in english instead of in portuguese. when it comes to this specific story, at least. ?

asdfghjklç~çlkjfdasdfghjklç i’m sorry, this makes no sense. i’m out.

but to sum it all: i really want to post chapter 22 of LMLY in july, still. uhm, we’ll see about that ...i hope i can do it.