#johnathan pine

Tom Hiddleston as Jonathan Pine & Diego Calva as Teddy Dos Santos

Feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days Stare in the mirror and I look for another face And I get so tired of putting out fires and making up lies checking my eyes for some kinda light but nothing's inside. And it feels like it's rained in my head for a hundred days

-Good things go-Linkin Park

like

imagine being some random guy, living your life, doing government agent alpha male james bond 007 type shit

then your boss sends you undercover to bring down the devil himself, fully prepared to sacrifice you on the altar of this monster because that's how the system operates you're all just cogs in the machine

but somehow against all odds you survive you survive and you slay the monster you see him lying on a cold slab unmoving as your boss identifies the body releases you from under the weight of the world with a nod

and you think you're out you retreat into a dark corner of an office job and refuse to go out in the light because you don't know how to bear the weight of your guilt in the sun

yet the dead monster lurks in the shadows in the dark crevices of your mind in your nightmares and in every waking moment more alive than ever

the past is a sea at high tide and you're too tired to resist the current trying to pull you under

so you dive in alongside your new friends coworkers and people keep drowning around you and those deploying lifeboats keep punching holes in them before sending them your way

yet somehow you survive despite all the death you keep breathing and with every breath you feel dirty and soiled

until you meet someone who promises salvation and damnation all in one a man with a smile so sharp you could slice your wrists on a man whose blood soaked hands cradle your face gently as he promises to make you clean to wash away your sins

and it's a dangerous game a languid dance that you don't know the steps to but you trust him to lead despite his fleeting nature and your many lies because he's the only human being left on the face of the earth whose eyes reflect the same yearning emptiness you see each time you dare look in the mirror to practice your facade of a life

and it's beautiful and it's tragic and it sparks something deep inside the wilted garden of your soul that makes you believe that life might be worth living after all that something good might come out of all the pain and suffering you've endured for people who will never know of your sacrifice for people who will know it and use it to demand more of you and spit in your face for not doing more for not doing the impossible

you're on the beach touching a beautiful young man cradling a broken boy and you don't know if it's love or lust or hate or longing or all of those but you don't care as long as he keeps laying his hands on you you've died before in worse ways so dying with his hands wrapped around your throat his hot breath on your face and his eyes contrasting the clear blue sky above seems like a blessing

you're in the jungle and it's dark the night sky illuminated by napalm and the air filled with heath and bullets there's blood in your eyes and everything hurts you're coming apart and your senses are gone so you can't hear see feel smell the monsters coming out of the dark but it doesn't matter because there's a hand gripped tightly in your own sweaty palm and a body pressed hot and tightly coiled against yours as you run through the foliage and trip on ancient roots

and your entire damned worthless life has narrowed down to this one point of human contact his hand in yours as you fight for a life you both didn't know you wanted until the entire world conspired to take it from you

the entire universe the fabric of reality itself seems to bend and morph around the enormity of your desire your stubbornness your unquenchable appetite for a softness neither of you have known since time immemorial

you've been aimlessly and fruitlessly fighting other people's battles all your lives but for once you've found something worth fighting for worth dying for worth living for and you're not about to let anyone deny you your god given right

AHHHHHHH!!!