#jlibuit

my biggest wish is to do drugs with my ex boyfriend and talk about all the shit we should have talked about years ago. the demons don't leave, they just sleep.

i miss you a lot today. it's kind of hard to breathe.

i often wonder if you met medicated kayla, if you'd fall in love with her. i'm dealing with all of the things you hated about me.. i know it won't make you come home and i know you'll never see this, but know that i'm getting better. even without you.

one time I was drunk and I asked my ex boyfriend to grab me a cheeseburger. he got me a burger with nacho cheese on it and at the time I was so upset and this burger was the grossest thing ever. thinking back to that night, I'm laughing so hard. he always tried his hardest but was such a flop. I love that kid, making me laugh even when he's not around.

i fight for you. i've never fought for anyone before, but i fight for you. i love you.