— jimidol’s deactivation
As some of you might have noticed, i deactivated my account jimidol.
i’m really sorry if i left without sharing the reasons with any of you but it’s really hard for me. the month of october was truly a nightmare for me, and it destroyed me beyond i could imagine it. since i was super busy with work, i didn’t really notice how bad i was feeling but once everything calmed down, it just hit me super intensely. i was — and still am — in a bad place, and every time, i’d come here, i’d only see all the things i did wrong with my writings. i was being harsh with myself, and it got to the point where i deleted the app from my phone to avoid destroying myself even more.
however, it wasn’t enough. every time i’d be on my laptop watching a show or a video on youtube, i would come here to do the exact same thing. tumblr stopped being my safe place and it was just making me even sadder. i couldn’t handle this anymore and i just decided to completely deactivate my account. i kept my second account ephemeralkookie that i renamed jimidol so you could easily found this little note.
at this stage, i really don’t know if i’m ever coming back. i need some time away from this platform to just breathe, get better, and then i’ll see what i’ll do. please note that if i come back, i’ll inform you all here.
i want to thank you all for the love & support you always showed me, i always felt it & i’m forever grateful for it, this journey on tumblr was incredible 💞 also a big big thank you to all my moots with whom i’m still in contact, they’ve been nothing but big angels 💞
love you all, catie ✨
