my opinionated thoughts on Kim Soleum and romantic relationship (vague part 2 spoilers, bewarned)
Disclaimer: I do not necessarily ship anyone, and this post is not criticizing ships. I enjoy any ships that come my way.
Personally, I cannot suspend my disbelief enough to think that Kim Soleum would actually date anyone while being fully aware that he would have to leave them eventually. He keeps his officetel/motel rooms impersonal. He keeps his coworkers at arms' length. He lies. He deliberately pours in efforts not to get too attached to the inhabitants and the world. Having a lover would tie him down. His wish is still, first and foremost, to return home where ghost stories do not exist. He is not cruel enough to dangle the promise of commiting to a relationship to anyone from the wiki that he loves very much.
(As readers, though, we realize that those exact efforts, when combined with his sincerity and kindness, exacted the very cruelty he tried not to inflict upon the people around him, cough cough, especially Hyunmoo, coughChoi—)
So, here comes the outlier: how do we explain Braun? Braun, almost always by Kim Soleum's side, always aware of his inner thoughts. Arguably, you can say that Braun is the being closest to Kim Soleum, the most intimate with his thoughts and fears. Whether Kim Soleum likes it or not, Braun is the most familiar with the depths of himself.
I feel like one of the reasons why Kim Soleum is so close to Braun is because he subconsciously thinks:
"Because Braun is a ghost story, a monster, he operates on differing sets of social rules and feelings; thus, Braun will not react to Kim Soleum leaving the same as humans normally will."
I believe that Kim Soleum is still of the same opinion, even after the divorce-bombing arc, where Kim Soleum saw how Braun reacted to the plushie getting torn. Even though Braun is the most familiar with Kim Soleum and would act with Kim Soleum's best interests in mind as consideration, Braun, as a personality, as an inhuman who believes in entertainment even at the cost of Kim Soleum's safety, will not consider Kim Soleum's consent as a variable. Kim Soleum understands that they operate on very different rules. He accepts that Braun will never share Kim Soleum's beliefs. Thus so, Braun will just have to accept that Kim Soleum will eventually leave.
Their bond is very much real, but it is also forged, broken down, then later reforged with the fact that Kim Soleum cannot stay. And Braun accepts that. Eventually, all the other people have to accept that fact as well.
Kim Soleum is not in any commited relationship. However, without realizing it, he has forged bonds stronger than that. And so, there lies the tragedy of it all; that Kim Soleum loves the Darkness Exploration Records and its inhabitants, but not at the expense of his own self, not to break himself in the face of his fears and the apocalypse.











