Perfect Strangers (m) | jhs
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When a man as warm as a crackling hearth steps into your cozy bookstore seeking the perfect gift for his friendâs Christmas party, you canât help but offer him your brightest smile. But when he returns days later, with a spark in his eye and a bold requestâto be his pretend girlfriend for this very partyâyou think, Why not? After all, Christmas is a time for a little magic, a little whimsy. Yet as you step deeper into his world, you discover a heart weighed down by scars from the past, a man more complex than the merry mask he wears. Still, whatâs Christmas without a little hope, a touch of wonder, and a heart ready to spread the joy it knows so well?
â Pairing: hoseok x reader (female) â AUs: bookstore!au, coffee shop!au, christmas!au, holiday!au â Trope: strangers to lovers / fake dating â Genres: fluff / angst / smut / romance â Rating: mature/explicit/R18 (this is mature/explicit content, so minors, please do not interact.) â Word count: 19.6k â Warnings + triggers: unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, oral (both), fingering, breast play, cum eating, hair pulling, dirty talk, praise kink, Hobi was a huge cock, creampie, aftercare, marking, â Authorâs note: guess whoâs back with another Christmas gift? Me! đ And this time, weâre unwrapping a Hoseok story! đ„ł Brace yourselves, because this oneâs got ALL. THE. FEELS. Seriously, itâs like a snowstorm of emotionsâpretty sad at times, but also as warm and sweet as your favorite cup of cocoa on a chilly night âđ« Because letâs be real, who doesnât need a good hug this season? I actually wrote this in November, and it gave me all the feels while writing it. I hope youâll love it just as much as I doâand please, pretty please, shower our sunshine Hobi with all the love and virtual hugs he deserves âïžđ â Read on AO3? [link]Â
The air bites, sharp and unforgiving, and snow tumbles in silent waves. Hoseok pulls his green parka tighter, hands buried deep in his pockets, bracing against the chill that feels as much within him as without. He hates this seasonâChristmas and all its garish lights, the forced smiles and saccharine cheer that feel like hollow echoes in his ears. Every year, it pulls him back to a time when something precious slipped away, leaving only empty echoes and a bitter frost in its place.
He trudges through the drifts, his boots crunching with each step as he scuffs at the snow like itâs a living thing to be kicked away. Snow. He despises itâthe memories it brings, the losses buried in its whiteness. Sighing, he drags his mind away, trying to escape from the grip of the past as he remembers his unfortunate task: a gift for Namjoon, drawn by fate and the iron-clad rules of Secret Santa. Namjoon, who seems like heâd raise an eyebrow at any attempt to impress him. What do you buy for a man whose tastes are as precise as clockwork? Hoseokâs mind wanders, a book, maybeâa neutral, safe bet. Or a plant? Or some gym gear, though he winces, thinking that might feel too impersonal. The book is safer, he decides, less likely to disappoint.
His friends wonât let him slip out of their gathering this year; the annual Christmas dinner. Theyâve grown wise to his excuses, having humored them too many times before. This time, they said, he simply has to come, or theyâd drag his sorry ass out of his apartment themselves. So heâd agreed, and before he could stop himself, heâd added a lieâa plus one. A date. Why heâd said it, he didnât know. A flare of bravado, maybe, or a strange wish that he could bring someone to light the way through the season he loathes. But he hasnât had anyone in years, and now the promise lingers uncomfortably, as cold as the snow itself.
Just as his thoughts are tangling around the dreaded dinner and the impossible gift, something catches his eye. Through the haze of snow, a flickering glow lights up the street. LEDs twinkle on a small shop sign, casting warm light onto the swirling cold. The words, âBooks & Coffee,â curl across the sign in whimsical letters. Through the frosted windows, he catches a glimpse of cozy warmth insideâpainted winter scenes, shelves filled with books, and the faint haze of steam rising from mugs. A chance, he thinks. A book for Namjoon, maybe, and a cup of coffee to thaw his mood.
With a shake of his head, he steps toward the shop, hoping the warmth within might push back, if only for a moment, the frost of memory that clings to him so stubbornly.
He pushes the door open, expecting the cramped and dim interior of a hole-in-the-wall shop. But as he steps inside, he pauses, surprised. The space stretches wide and tall, a quiet maze of towering bookshelves reaching toward the ceiling like trees in a literary forest. The air is thick with the scent of aged paper and fresh coffee, as warm and comforting as a blanket against the cold. Each shelf brims with books of every size, color, and genre, neat little labels dividing worlds of romance, mystery, fantasy, and more. And there, at the back of the store, his eyes catch on something unexpectedâa grand coffee station, part of the cashierâs desk, decked out with bottles of liquor that glint invitingly beneath the dim lights. He frowns, amused, wondering just what sort of bookstore heâs stumbled into.Â
Around him, people sink into overstuffed couches and mismatched armchairs, nestled beside little tables piled high with books and steaming mugs. Some read in hushed solitude, while others murmur in low voices, their laughter rippling like warmth in the cozy air. He laughs to himself, an ironic chuckle at the sceneâitâs like heâs wandered into a romantic comedy set. Christmas decorations hang from every possible ledge, string lights wound like ivy around the shelves, falling snow draping down from the ceiling, like something straight out of The Great Hall in Hogwarts. Itâs kitschy, as if the store itself is leaning into the absurdity of holiday cheer, its charm so overdone it loops back into endearing. He canât help but picture it: a flower stand in one corner, and his âperfectly quirky holiday shopâ bingo card would be complete.
Not knowing where to start, he begins wandering among the shelves, eyes skimming over the labeled sectionsâromance (divided by spice levels, he notes with a faint smile), âhow-toâ books, self-help guides, fantasy, young adult, crime thrillers. He feels lost, in more ways than one, unsure what might interest Namjoon. A philosophy book, maybe? Or poetryâsomething brooding and introspective, since Namjoonâs always been the type to lean into âthe deep stuff.â
Just as heâs contemplating how ridiculous it is that he, of all people, has to pick out a âmeaningfulâ gift, he glances up and spots you at the counter, your lips curved into a soft smile. Your eyes meet his, and for a split second, he feels something unexpectedâa flicker, like warmth pressing through the cold. Youâre watching him with a light in your eyes, a warmth that, to his surprise, disarms him, even makes him feel almostâŠseen. Before he can look away, youâre already walking toward him, smile unwavering, and a strange, unfamiliar shiver runs down his spine.
âDo you need any help?â you ask, your voice soft and welcoming, your gaze roaming over him in casual appraisal.
If he had a flirting bone left in his body, he might have found a response, something charming to match the spark in your eyes. He thinks youâre cute, sure, and thereâs no mistaking the interest in the way youâre looking at him. But he doesnât have it in him, not anymore. Itâs been too long since heâs let himself flirt, or even felt the desire to.
âYeah,â he says, scratching the back of his neck with a sheepish smile. âIâmâŠlooking for a book. For a friend. Got stuck with him in Secret Santa this year,â he shrugs, hoping that explains enough.Â
You nod, listening with a gentle attentiveness that surprises him, as if every word he says matters.Â
âAlright,â you reply, a bright smile lighting up your face as you clap your hands together in delight. âWhat kind of books does he like?â you ask, leading him further into the store with a spring in your step, your energy contagious, warming the air around you.
For a moment, he finds himself smiling back, the heaviness he carries lifting ever so slightly. Following you, he wonders if maybe, just maybe, this little shopâwith all its quirks and kitschy charmâhas a kind of magic after all.
A faint, almost reluctant smile tugs at his lips as he watches you move, graceful and light, as if the weight of life has never touched your shoulders. You float through the shop like someone untouched by scars, unshadowed by loss. He envies that ease, that freedomâit stirs something in him he thought heâd locked away. For a moment, he wishes he could go back to that version of himself, the one who moved through life without feeling every step like a burden. He sighs, catching himself and remembering youâd asked him a question.
âAhâNamjoonâs into poetry,â he says, clearing his throat. âExistential stuff. The deeper, the better.â
Your smile grows, wider and brighter, and he catches sight of your slightly crooked front toothâa small imperfection that only makes you look cuter as you bounce across the store. âI know just the thing! Follow me,â you sing, your voice lilting with a joy that contrasts starkly with his own.Â
As he trails after you, he finds himself standing a little taller, rolling his shoulders back, almost as if he could let the weariness fall away. You lead him to a tall bookcase near the back of the shop, beneath a quaint little sign that reads, âPoems; a penny for your thoughts?â He raises an eyebrow at the cheesiness, but something about it is endearing, and he feels a hint of warmth sneaking in, thawing the corners of his frozen heart.
âSo, this whole section is poetry. Anything specific you think heâd like, or should I recommend you something?â you ask, turning to him with eyes that feel soft and inviting, like an open door.
He hesitates. âHonestly, Iâm not sure. HeâsâŠwell, his taste is kind of serious, and sometimes itâs just boring to me,â he admits, shrugging. A hint of worry lingers, hoping he hasnât come off as rudeâespecially if poetry is something dear to you. But your smile doesnât falter; if anything, it seems to soften, unfazed, still welcoming him in.
âPerfect! Then I know exactly what to recommend to you.â Your eyes light up with a spark of joy that catches him off guard, making his heart stir with an unfamiliar flutter. Reaching for a thick book, you cradle it like something cherished, a small treasure passed down. Your fingers trace the cover, vibrant and abstract, alive with colors that swirl and dance. He peers at the title, upside down but legible: Seasons Change, People Change: Thoughts on Personal Growth Inspired by Mother Nature.
You hold it out to him, gently, and begin with a quiet, thoughtful enthusiasm. âThis collection is one of my favorites. Each page is filled with illustrationsâpaintings and sketches that bring the words to life. Itâs divided into four sections, one for each season. Itâs beautiful, but itâs also challenging, introspective. I keep it close for those days when I need something grounding, something to remind me to keep growing, even when itâs hard.â Your voice is soft, reverent, and the passion in your words flows freely, making his heart stumble a little, a pulse he thought had quieted.
Without a second thought, he feels himself drawn in, already captivated by your summary and the way you cradle the book like it holds some kind of quiet magic. He feels itâthe warmth and lightness in your presence thawing the edges of something inside him. He thought heâd long forgotten this feeling, but as you stand there, glowing, he realizes maybe it isnât gone after all.
âDo you want to get him this one, or should I find something else?â you ask, your eyes gleaming with a playful spark, the kind of light that could brighten even the dimmest of days.
He lets out a chuckle, low and gravelly, surprising himself. The sound feels foreign, rusty, like laughter hasnât escaped his throat in a long time. âNo,â he starts, and then realizes youâd offered him two options, so he clears his throat and clarifies, âI want this one. Thank you.â
Your smile widens, and thereâs that same warmth in your eyes, shimmering with a joy he hasnât felt in years. âAwesome,â you murmur, a quiet delight in your voice as you turn to lead him back to the counter. He follows, watching the way you move, the easy grace of your steps, the little bounce that seems so at odds with his own heavy tread. He canât help but notice the care you put into even the smallest detailsâhow your fingers skim over the cover as you scan the book, your voice soft as you tell him the price. He nods absently, hardly hearing you; heâs already decided this book, chosen with such thought, is worth every penny.
âWould you like it gift-wrapped?â you ask suddenly, breaking him out of his thoughts. He chuckles again, awkward this time, and you respond with a light laugh of your own, a sound that melts the air between you. âIâll wrap it up real quick,â you say, reaching for a roll of delicate paper. âJust a sec.â
He watches, captivated by the way you work. Your hands move smoothly, almost lovingly, as you fold the paper with practiced ease. You add a final touchâa bit of decorative tape, a couple of small stickers, a tiny pocket for a note. Thereâs a grace in your movements, a tenderness he hadnât expected to find in something so ordinary. It strikes him that you must do this every day, that youâve wrapped countless books just like this one, yet you treat each with the same reverence. For a moment, heâs transfixed, caught up in a little world where every gesture, every detail matters.
âHere you go,â you say, handing him the book, now carefully wrapped and nestled in a paper bag.
âWill that be everything for you today?â you ask, smiling softly as if you can sense heâs still lingering, still caught in his own thoughts.
âOhâactually, no!â he exclaims, a laugh slipping out, and itâs genuine, unexpected. âIâd like a coffee to go, please.â
âOf course,â you reply with a little nod, and he watches as you glide over to the coffee station, your hands moving gracefully as you work the machine, pouring a steady stream of coffee into a simple paper cup. You bring it to him with a quiet smile. âHere you go,â you say, handing him the cup, its warmth seeping through the paper and into his fingers, spreading heat into his bones.
âThank you,â he says, reminding himself to return your smile. Thereâs a warmth there, an ease he hasnât felt in a long time, and he finds himself thinking, just for a second, how pretty you look with that gentle expression, with the easy way you move through the world. If only he werenât so closed off, so weighed down by his own wounds. Youâd be the kind of person heâd love to ask out, if his heart hadnât already been numbed by the cold.
But noâheâs too far gone for that. So he simply raises a hand in farewell, turns his back, and steps out into the biting wind. Snowflakes swirl around him, cold against his cheeks, but his coffee is warm in his hands, sending up gentle tendrils of steam that vanish into the icy air. He trudges through the snow, his footsteps muffled, his mind unexpectedly lingering on youâyour warm laugh, the way your eyes glinted with life, as if joy itself lived inside you.Â
Maybe he should let himself try again. Maybe he should take a chance and see what could happen, let someone in, just once more. His friends have told him enough times how much he needs that, how he should stop closing himself off. But then he remembers how content you seemed, untouched by the darkness he carries, and he canât bear the thought of bringing his storm into your sunlight, of tainting that brightness with his own shadows. Itâs better this way, he tells himself, better not to risk another heartâespecially not one that shines like yours.
The sun spills across the snow outside, making it glisten like a field of tiny pearls scattered over the earth. Inside your bookstore, the warmth of Christmas lingers in every corner, filling the air with the quiet glow of string lights, the soft hum of holiday music, and the scent of coffee mingling with cinnamon. Itâs just the way you love itâcozy and inviting, a small world apart. The fragrance stirs memories of Christmases past, when warmth and wonder felt boundless. Itâs nostalgic, yes, and you find yourself wanting to pass that feeling on, to wrap it up like a gift and place it into the hands of every person who steps through the door.
This is why you opened this bookstore with its coffee corner, a place where stories and comfort blend as naturally as words on a page. Youâve always been captivated by the written word, knowing full well how a single story can slip beneath your skin, change your world, and leave you breathless with a sense of wonder. A story can make you pause, whispering, wow, this was amazing, or surprise you with glimpses of yourself in its characters. Some books show you new paths; others mirror the parts of yourself you hadnât quite understood.
This is the magic youâve always chasedâa quiet enchantment found only in booksâand why you canât help but adore recommending them. You believe in the power of words, that the right book at the right time can light up a readerâs world. And here, among the shelves youâve lovingly arranged, you get to share that magic every day, welcoming others into a world that feels like home.
Every person who steps into your little winter wonderland is met with a genuine smile, and if theyâre looking for a recommendation, youâre ready to sprinkle a bit of joy their way. Life hasnât been simple for you, and youâve had to fight for much of what you have now, but itâs made every small thing feel that much more precious. Every creak of the floorboards, every cover softened by countless hands, every whispered exchange about a new favorite book feels like a gift.
Itâs midday on a bustling Saturdayâone of the busiest days of the weekâand todayâs book club meets in half an hour. You glance at the clock and start setting everything up, filling the air with extra anticipation. You prepare an assortment of drinks: coffee, of course, but also tea for those who prefer it, poured into festive mugs that add a little extra cheer. You drape fluffy blankets over the cozy couches and scatter them with soft pillows, transforming your reading nook into a haven from the cold outside. Freshly baked muffins and cookies wait on the table, adding a hint of sweetness to the air.
In your hands, you hold todayâs bookâa thrilling, spicy fantasy where a young woman uncovers a hidden truth about herself, discovering magic and mystery with the help of a tall, dark, brooding stranger. Itâs the perfect pick for this crowd, an escape into a world filled with intrigue and impossible love. Your bookstore hosts a range of book clubs, something for every taste, from cozy mysteries to heartfelt memoirs, so everyone who wanders in finds a place to belong.
As you check the time again, the chime of the door opens, and members trickle in, mostly women but with a few men scattered among them. They settle into the chairs, cradling their warm drinks and pulling out their books, eyes bright with anticipation. You begin, reading snippets aloud, leading discussions that bounce from laughter to quiet reflection as everyone shares their favorite lines, passages that moved them, questions that linger. Hours slip by in an instant, and even after the meeting ends, people linger, reluctant to let go of this cozy, book-filled oasis. Some stay to read, sipping slowly at their cups, while you return to the counter, greeting the steady stream of customers that fill your little shop.Â
As you move between the bookshelves and help others find their next escape, you feel a quiet pride. This place is yours, filled with stories, laughter, and a touch of magic in every cornerâa small universe where people come to feel less alone, warmed by the same words that have guided you all your life.
As you wait, relaxed, watching for anyone who might need help, your mind drifts back to a few days ago, to that stranger who walked in with the quietest of presences, searching for a giftâa book for his friend. Namjoon, that was the friendâs name. You realize now you never caught the strangerâs name. He was handsome in an understated way, but there was a heaviness about him, like a cloud clinging to his shoulders. That sadness had tugged at something inside you, urging you to offer him a touch of the holiday warmth filling your little shop. Despite his guarded nature, you saw those small cracks, those fleeting moments when he softened, letting in a glimmer of the joy you tried to share.
Now, with closing time just around the corner, your thoughts drift back to him and that lingering, frowning gaze. Just then, the bell chimes, pulling you from your thoughts, and to your surprise, in he walks, the same stranger, stepping through the door with a hint of apprehension. For a split second, he looks vulnerable, almost unsureâbut as his eyes meet yours, his expression shifts, confidence replacing hesitation. His small smile is radiant, a rare glow that catches you off guard, like a sliver of sunlight breaking through a cloudy sky. Itâs barely there, but itâs enough to leave you wondering what storms heâs weathered to dim his light this way.
You greet him with a soft smile of your own as he steps up to the counter, stopping just before you.Â
âHi,â he says with a steady voice. You return the greeting, about to ask if he needs help with anything, but he speaks first, voice a touch uncertain but warm.
âRemember that friend you helped me find a gift for?â he asks, scratching his head, as though heâs slightly unsure of himself. You nod, intrigued, and he clears his throat, glancing away for just a moment.
âWell,â he continues, his voice steadying, âweâre having a Christmas dinner tomorrow, and I thought... Maybe youâd like to come with me?â
You blink, taken by surprise, and a laugh escapes as you say, âI donât even know your name,â your tone light, not saying no, but letting him know youâre curious, open to this unexpected invitation.
âAh, rightâmy bad,â he says, stretching his hand toward you with a shy smile. âIâm Hoseok. And you?â
You take his hand, his warmth surprising you, and you giggle, âItâs Y/N,â you reply, your voice soft, the sound of your name feeling different in the warmth of his gaze.
âY/N,â he repeats, a gentle smile tugging at his lips. âPretty name,â he murmurs, and you canât help but feel the faintest hint of flirtation woven in his words, though thereâs still a nervousness in his eyes.
Then he takes a small breath and adds, âJust to clarify,â he hesitates, his voice wavering with a hint of uncertainty, âyouâd be going as my girlfriend. Well, my fake girlfriend.â He chuckles nervously, almost wincing at his own words. âI meanâif youâre good with that?â
The words hang in the air between you, unexpected and just a bit surreal. Fake girlfriend? You blink, caught off guard, studying his face as he scratches the back of his neck, stammering slightly, realizing, perhaps, the absurdity of it all. âI told my friends Iâd be bringing my girlfriend,â he explains, his cheeks coloring, âbut, well⊠I donât actually have one.â
Thereâs something so earnest, so endearingly awkward about him that you canât help but smile. And before you know it, you hear yourself saying, âYeah, sure. Iâd love to be your fake girlfriend.â The words come easily, and even though youâve only seen him once in your bookstore, something in his gaze feels steady, genuine. Maybe itâs a leap, but youâve always trusted your instincts, and right now theyâre telling you heâs worth it. If this brings him a little joy in the midst of whatever shadows heâs facing, youâre happy to oblige.
Hoseok looks stunned, his mouth opening slightly in disbelief, and then a broad smile lights up his face. âThank you,â he breathes, his voice filled with relief and a soft gratitude. He tells you heâll pick you up tomorrow, and you exchange numbers and addresses, the simple gestures somehow feeling significant.
As he heads out into the frosty night, his figure disappearing into the snow-dusted street, youâre left smiling to yourself, the weight of the unexpected encounter settling over you. You lock up the bookstore, half-wondering at the mystery of it all, but feeling strangely certain this is exactly the kind of magic the season bringsâunexpected, a little reckless, and wrapped in the glow of winter lights.
You clasp your hands together, fingers intertwining tightly, nerves fluttering in your chest as you wait for Hoseok to pick you up. You agreed to join him at his friendsâ Christmas dinner as his pretend girlfriend, but now, in the quiet of your apartment, doubt creeps in. Youâve only met him twice in your bookstore, barely know him beyond fleeting glances and brief exchanges. The thought of walking into a room full of strangers prickles at your confidence. But you remind yourself that itâs just like meeting new faces at the shop. Slowly, your shoulders loosen, and your breathing steadies.
Glancing at your wristwatch, you see itâs nearly time. You grab your keys, lock the door, and head down the stairs, feeling the soft knit of the Christmas sweater dress Hoseok insisted you wear, an odd sense of comfort in its silly design. Apparently, youâre âmatching his ugly sweater,â as heâd said with a laugh. Wrapped in your winter coat and boots, you step into the night, the cold air crisp and bracing as delicate snowflakes drift through the air, illuminated by the warm amber glow of the streetlamps.
Headlights sweep up the road, and Hoseokâs car slows to a stop in front of you. Heâs waiting, the dim light from the dashboard casting a soft glow across his face. You open the door, sliding into the passenger seat, where warmth radiates from the heater and a familiar cinnamon scent lingers in the air. Hoseok greets you with a quiet smile, though his eyes hold a hint of his own nerves.
âHi, Y/N,â he says softly, watching you as you fasten your seatbelt. He shifts into gear, guiding the car down the snowy road. His fingers clench the steering wheel, and after a moment, he glances your way. âSoâŠyou remember our backstory from last night?â
You nod, giving him a reassuring smile. âYeah, I remember the texts,â you say, warmth lacing your voice. âWeâre childhood friends from kindergarten who recently reconnected when you moved back into town.âÂ
He hums approvingly, tapping his fingers lightly on the wheel as he stops at a red light. âPerfect. My friends are probably going to ask a million questionsâI hope youâre ready for that.â
You shrug with a playful confidence, grinning as you glance over at him. âI think I can handle it.â
The two of you share a small, knowing smile, though the absurdity of the situation isnât lost on you. Here you are, headed toward a strangerâs holiday dinner, to pretend to be his girlfriend. You donât gain anything from this beyond the joy of helping someone out, but stillâŠthereâs a little thrill in the adventure.
The city lights gradually fade as he drives out toward the quieter suburbs, snow dusting the dark roads until he finally turns into the driveway of a quaint little house, string lights twinkling around the doorframe like stars. Hoseok cuts the engine, the two of you sitting in the hushed stillness for a moment, watching as the snowflakes swirl gently outside the windshield.
âWeâre here,â Hoseok murmurs, and you catch his smile, warm as the headlights reflecting off the falling snow. âThis is actually my friend Namjoonâs place,â he says, reaching for a carefully wrapped gift on the seat. Watching him, you suddenly wonder aloud, âShould I have brought something, too?â
He waves his hands between you, shaking his head. âNah, donât worryâyou didnât draw a name for Secret Santa, so youâre all set.â
Relieved, you step out into the brisk night, following him along the snow-dusted path. As you approach the door, he reaches for your hand, his grip both grounding and electrifying as he gives a gentle pull, guiding you to the doorstep. You bite your lip nervously, a bundle of nerves and excitement building, when the door swings open. Standing there, smiling with dimples that carve deep into his cheeks, is a man who strikes an oddly familiar chord.
âHi, Hobi,â he greets, his voice rich and welcoming, before glancing at you with a knowing twinkle. âAnd this must be your girlfriend?â
Hoseokâs hand presses lightly against the small of your back. âYes, this is Y/N,â he introduces you with a soft squeeze that sends a rush of warmth through you.
You follow them inside, feeling the sudden coziness of the houseâa subtle warmth, holiday lights casting a glow over walls adorned with paintings and art pieces. When you step into the dining room, you stop, eyes widening at the grand bookcase stretching along the wall. It reminds you of your own bookstore, and you canât help the delighted laugh that escapes you.
Youâre greeted by Hoseokâs friends, easy smiles and lighthearted jokes melting away your nerves. Thereâs a surprising ease to slipping into this role, to letting Hoseokâs arm find its way around your shoulder, his touch landing at the small of your back, drawing you in for a gentle hug every so often. His casual touches feel natural, and you find yourself leaning into him as if youâve known each other for far longer than two brief meetings.
As the evening unfolds, though, you notice something. While youâre chatting and laughing with his friends, Hoseok seems quieter, reserved, watching more than talking, an unexpected contrast to the warm person whoâs held you close all evening.
Soon, everyone settles at the table, and you find yourself between Hoseok and Namjoon, whose familiarity still niggles at your mind. Drinks are poured, laughter fills the air, and a delicious meal is shared. The room falls into a comfortable quiet as everyone eats, voices softened as plates empty and contentment settles in.
âSo, how did you meet our Hobi?â a tattooed guyâJungkook, you thinkâasks with a curious smile.
You recount the story Hoseok gave you, weaving it with a smile. Jungkook nods, seemingly convinced, and around the table, friends accept your tale with knowing grinsâexcept for Namjoon. You catch the soft scoff he tries to hide, though the others brush it off. When you finally turn fully to face him, catching his eyes, recognition strikes.
Of courseâheâs a regular at your bookstore. Youâve seen him countless times, tucked into a corner with a book in hand, quietly immersed, though heâs never spoken to you and always leaves without buying anything. You wonder if he remembers you too, if he feels the same familiar spark, or if itâs just you, standing in the company of strangers who somehow feel just a bit like home.
A pang of doubt twists in your chest. If Namjoon has indeed pieced together that youâre not Hoseokâs real girlfriend, then the secret youâre helping carry feels a little heavier. You remember Hoseok mentioning their long history, and you wonder how well Namjoon can see through this little charade. But as dinner goes on, he stays silent, leaving you in an unsettling limbo of half-glances and unsaid words.
The night drifts on, and laughter fills the room as everyone exchanges Secret Santa gifts. You canât help but smile as each friend unwraps their present, the spark of surprise and joy lighting up each face. When itâs Namjoonâs turn, he opens Hoseokâs giftâa bookâand he pauses, his gaze slipping to you in a flash of recognition. You avert your eyes, warmth creeping into your cheeks, uncertain of what he sees or thinks.
When the last of the presents has been exchanged, Hoseok turns to you, a small, wrapped package in his hands. âFor you,â he murmurs, his smile soft, almost bashful. Surprised, you unwrap it, revealing a tiny sun plushie with a wide, beaming grin. Its warmth brings an involuntary smile to your lips, and you clutch it close. âThank you, dear,â you say, leaning in to plant a light kiss on his cheek. Hoseokâs friends exchange giggles and knowing looks, and Hoseok whispers softly to you, âItâs for being my partner in crime tonight.â
As the evening winds down, you join in clearing the table. Hoseok has drifted to the couch, his figure outlined by the window, eyes distant and fixed on the winter night. A weight lingers in his expression, a deep-seated sadness that seems miles away from the warmth of the room. Youâre about to go to him, to ask if heâs alright, when you feel a strong hand at your wrist, guiding you into the hallway.
Itâs Namjoon. His presence is grounded and steady, like an oak tree catching you in the autumn wind. His eyes meet yours, and for a moment, you see both questions and answers swirling there, like heâs holding onto a truth heâs not sure heâs ready to speak.
âSo, should I be thanking you for the book?â Namjoon chuckles, his smile gentle yet curious, as though heâs only half-convinced of your innocence in the matter.
âNot really,â you reply, grinning as you deflect his gaze with a little shrug. âI just helped him choose because heâs hopeless with booksâunless theyâre comics.â You laugh, hoping your nonchalance hides the truth beneath the surface.
He laughs, nodding. âYeah, sounds like him. Comics are about as close as he gets to literature.â His eyes flicker with warmth as he continues, âSo, whatâs your kind of book? What authors and genres do you get lost in?â
Before you know it, the two of you are deep in conversation, voices lowered in the hallway like youâre sharing secrets. Time becomes a vague notion, and the room around you seems to fade, leaving only the vibrant world of booksâtheir characters, settings, and journeysâalive between you. Talking about stories, you feel a rare lightness, as if Namjoon is the first person in ages who shares the same deep love for them.
âYou should drop by the bookstore sometime,â you say with a smile that feels wider, warmer. âWe have a book club, too. Itâs not as fancy as this,â you laugh, glancing toward the festive room, âbut itâs a cozy crowd.â
Namjoon hesitates, then rubs the back of his neck, a flicker of shyness breaking through his cool exterior. âI might just take you up on that.â He pauses, as if summoning courage. âActually⊠could I get your number? Thereâs that book you mentioned earlierâIâd love to hear more about it sometime, butâŠâ He glances at the room filling with laughter and goodbyes. âLooks like this nightâs wrapping up.â
For a brief second, you wonder at the request, but something in his gaze, earnest and unguarded, assures you. With a soft smile, you hand him your phone, and as you exchange numbers, a quiet sense of possibility lingers in the space between you.
He must know, right? That youâre only pretending to be Hoseokâs girlfriend?Â
And yet, Namjoon has said nothing, given no sign that heâs in on the secret. With a fleeting glance over your shoulder, you find Hoseok across the room, engaged in conversation with Seokjin. You drift over and settle next to him, and he instinctively wraps an arm around you, his fingers lacing with yours in a way that feels almost natural, if not a bit intoxicating. Itâs easy to lean into his warmth, to fall into step with this rhythm of borrowed closeness, though your heart betrays you with a quiet flutter. Hoseok is both charming and soft-spokenâthe kind of person you might fall for. But as he laughs and smiles, you sense a faint veil behind his joy, as if heâs holding something back, a quiet sadness simmering beneath his surface.
Your curiosity pulls you closer, like youâre skimming a page of a novel youâre not yet allowed to read, catching only glimpses of the sorrow he hides. You wonder what story lies beneath his charming front but stop yourself; after all, tonight youâre nothing more than strangers playing at love.
Later, as he drives you home through streets blanketed in snow, a mellow Christmas tune hums softly from the radio. Heâs quieter now, eyes focused on the road, his features thoughtful, even solemn under the glow of passing streetlights. You wonder whatâs shifted within him, whatâs brought on this sudden retreat. You want to reach out, to ask if somethingâs wrong, but the words linger on your tongue, uncertain. Instead, you fall silent as the car slows, then stops outside your building. A strange reluctance holds you there, as if the air itself has thickened, laced with words neither of you are quite willing to say.
After a pause, Hoseok turns to you, clearing his throat, his hand resting on your thighâa gesture thatâs both tender and strangely formal. His voice is low, soft as he murmurs, âThank you for being my fake girlfriend tonight. You⊠really made it feel real.â
He says it softly, his voice carrying a hint of sadness that catches you off guard, a weight that settles around your heart like mist on a winter night. His words linger, unspoken emotions woven into the silence that stretches between you, and you find yourself wonderingâwhat happens now, with this fragile connection suspended in the cold, quiet air?
âIt was nothing. Reallyâyouâre welcome,â you say, a gentle reply you hope sounds reassuring, though it feels distant, safer. Perhaps the middle of the night isnât the time to unearth things better left unsaid. Yet the thought crosses your mind: will you see him after this? Wasnât this just a single act, a temporary arrangement?
âWill I⊠see you again?â you hear yourself ask, your voice soft, almost hesitant, as if it too fears rejection.
Hoseokâs hand retreats, and he glances down, a subtle sadness clouding his eyes. âI⊠I donât think so.â His words feel heavier than they should, an unexpected blow that leaves you feeling emptier than you thought possible. You hardly know him, yet thereâs something unspoken etched across his faceâsomething hurt, guarded, and you ache to reach out, to tell him that whatever heâs holding back, he doesnât have to carry alone. But heâs closed himself off, walls too high for a strangerâs comfort to reach.
You sigh, swallowing the pang of regret, clenching your hands to steady yourself. âOh⊠okay,â you say, masking the ache with a soft, hollow smile. Your fingers twitch, wanting to bridge the gap between you, to offer some small comfortâbut his posture tells you he isnât ready to accept it. He looks away, his expression distant, already far ahead on a road youâre not part of, his face cast in shadow.
With a deep breath, you open the car door and step out, lingering just a moment longer before whispering a soft âGoodbye.â He barely meets your gaze as you close the door, and before you know it, his car is fading into the darkness, leaving you alone on the sidewalk, wrapped in silence and the unsettling ache of missed chances.
You stare after him, shivering under the streetlights, wondering if you shouldâve pressed, if you shouldâve dared to ask what weighed him down. But the night stretches on, and youâre left there with only your thoughts and the haunting feeling that you missed something rare and beautiful that might never return.
Hoseok feels hollow, a sinking weight that hasnât lifted since he saw that crestfallen look on your face when he left you at your door. Heâs not blind; he knows he messed up. But thereâs something about this season, the way it reaches into his chest and pulls him under, leaving him fighting against a tide that heâs been trying to ignore for years. And now Christmas Eve is almost hereâan anniversary of grief he hates most of allâand the closer it gets, the more his mood tangles, turning dark and unmanageable.
Why does he always ruin things? You were so sweet, so bright, your hand fitting perfectly into his like it was meant to be there. Itâs been so long since heâs felt even a spark of warmth like that. Having you beside him at the dinner helped, too, lifted the weight for just a moment. But now, heâs gone and left you with nothing but silence. He knows heâs worried you, knows heâs made you question yourself. And yet, his heart twists at the thought of texting back, at unearthing the reason for his darkness.
The worst part is heâs seen every message youâve sent, each one left unanswered, and with every passing day, theyâve dwindled until now⊠thereâs nothing. He canât blame you for giving upâheâd have done the same. And still, something in him aches at the absence, at knowing heâs pushed you away when heâs wanted to tell you the truth. Wanted to let you in. But the truth feels as vast and heavy as the winter sky, and he doesnât know how to share it. He doesnât know if he ever could.
His friends have noticed, too, hounding him with questions that scrape against his guilt, asking him how he kept you hidden for so long. Namjoon even laughed and asked how heâd managed to keep such a âchildhood friendâ so secret all these years. Hoseokâs stomach tightens with the weight of his lie, the flimsy story unraveling before him like a thin thread he canât control.
He scrubs a hand through his hair, frustration thick in his throat. How could he possibly tell you whatâs really going on when he knows it would change how you see him? How could he bare himself to you, darkness and all, without fearing heâd lose the brief light youâve brought into his life? The thought circles in his mind, relentless, as he wonders if heâs ever been brave enough for the truthâor if, this time, heâs finally lost the chance.
The doorbell cuts through the heavy silence of Hoseokâs apartment, and when he swings open the door, there stands Namjoonâtall and composed, bundled in a long coat, a beanie tugged low, thick glasses catching the faint winter light. Heâs holding a houseplant, its green vibrant against the muted backdrop of the street.
âMind if I come in?â Namjoon asks, but before Hoseok can even respond, his friend steps over the threshold like heâs been here a hundred times. Hoseok stands, caught off guard, words barely forming in his throat.
âUh, sure,â he finally stammers, wondering what could have brought Namjoon here at this hour, unannounced and unreadable.
Namjoon places the plantâsmall, resilient-lookingâonto the dining table, then slips off his coat and drapes it over the chair, pulling it out with a quiet determination. Hoseok follows and sits across from him, still dazed, feeling like heâs been summoned to some private tribunal.
Namjoon clears his throat, fixing Hoseok with a steady, discerning gaze. âYou and Y/N,â he begins, words deliberate, âhave you told her why you canât stand Christmas?â
Hoseokâs breath catches; his throat tightens. He forces himself to shake his head. âNo, I havenât,â he manages, the words heavy.
Namjoon leans forward, his posture stern yet somehow protective. âSo youâre not serious about her?â he presses, voice low but insistent, as though each syllable is meant to peel back the layers of Hoseokâs tangled emotions.
âNo...I meanââ Hoseok hesitates, feeling the urge to confess heâs cut things off, ended this entire charade before it grew more complicated. But Namjoon speaks again, his voice shifting, a rare gentleness threading through.
âI stopped by her bookstore,â he says, and Hoseok holds his breath, tension prickling beneath his skin as he waits, unsure of where this is heading.
Namjoonâs eyes soften, and a small, genuine smile flickers across his face. âSheâs really sweet, you know. Bright. Kind. I think sheâs exactly what you needâif only it were real.â
The words pierce through Hoseok, his heart stumbling. He feels his pulse race, the subtle grip of panic and dread mixing with something that feels painfully like hope. He knew this moment would come, knew someone would finally see past the lie, and yet thereâs relief in the admission. He canât hide, doesnât want to.
âSo...you figured out itâs fake,â he mutters, defeated, bracing himself for whatever comes next.
Namjoon nods, arms crossed, his expression shifting to something sterner, more disappointed than Hoseok could have anticipated. âWhat I donât understand,â he says, voice firm but low, âis why youâd hurt her feelings like this.â
Hoseok flinches, each word like a heavy stone sinking into his chest. Hurt you? The idea stings, unearthing a guilt he hadnât let himself feel fully until now. Heâd thought this arrangement would protect him, keep everyone at a safe distance. But hearing it said aloudâthat heâs hurt youâtightens the knot in his chest, makes him realize just how much heâs let his own grief pull him down, dragging someone else along with him.
He searches Namjoonâs face, but his friendâs gaze doesnât waver, holding him accountable with a simple, unrelenting question. And for the first time in a long time, Hoseok wonders if maybe, just maybe, heâs been too afraid to let himself feel something real again.
Hoseokâs gaze meets his friendâs, a trace of confusion flickering there, but then, with a pang, he remembers the look on your face when youâd asked if youâd see each other again. He can still see itâhow your expression fell at his answer, the sadness that slipped across your features.
Namjoon leans forward, his tone gentler but resolute. âYou know... I think she actually cares about you,â he says, stretching his arms out and shaking his head in amused disbelief. âI donât know how you manage to pull that off while acting like the Grinch himself,â he scoffs, âbut somehow, this girlâs worried about you. You really should go talk to her, at least apologize for being a complete ass.â
Hoseok feels his chest tighten, leaving him mute, almost stunned. He knows Namjoon is right; he knows it all too well. But saying what he feels, peeling back that scarred armorâespecially around Christmasâis something heâs almost incapable of doing.
âI donât know if I can, JoonâŠ,â he murmurs, the words coming out more fragile than he intended. âI just think telling her everything will only make her sad,â he says, his gaze dropping to the table, his hands clasped tight as though they could somehow keep his emotions contained.
Namjoon doesnât let him off that easily. âAnd what do you think she is now?â he retorts softly, but with enough weight that the words feel like they land with an impact. Hoseokâs eyes widen, struck by the truth that heâd been dodging all along.
Heâd thought, maybe, youâd be angry at himâmad, frustrated, but surely youâd move on quickly, brushing him off as just another mistake. After all, you were nothing more than strangers bound by a silly pretense. But hearing Namjoon say it so plainly, he realizes just how deeply heâs been fooling himself. And underneath the weight of his resentment for this season and the pain tied to that distant, bitter December night, he canât deny the truthâhe finds you kind, thoughtful, even hopeful in ways that he barely remembers feeling himself.Â
If things were differentâif his grief hadnât swallowed him whole, if he could loosen the grasp of the pastâhe could almost imagine himself with someone like you. But here he is, still tethered to that haunting memory, letting Christmas slip by year after year in the shadow of that loss.Â
Namjoon watches him in silence for a moment, then speaks, his voice quieter but unyielding. âHoseok, weâve all tried to tell you. The past canât be a place to live, no matter how much it calls you back.âÂ
And Hoseok feels the truth of itâa weight and a choice lingering like the chill of winter air, urging him, perhaps for the first time, to break free.
Itâs nearly Christmas Eve, and youâre setting up for the last book club gathering before the holidaysâa special, spicy session in the fading afternoon light, centered around a tale of witches, dragons, and the tangle of morals. While you lay out the books, aligning them carefully on the tables, your mind drifts to Hoseok, stirring with thoughts you canât quite suppress. Namjoonâs words echo in your memory, nudging you to give his friend a chance. But the emptiness of your unanswered texts lingers; despite the messages youâd sent with tentative care, Hoseok has remained silent. A part of you aches to reach out just once more, yet the other half insists on self-respectâif he doesnât want the comfort you offered, the space to unburden himself, you tell yourself thatâs fine. Still, beneath that quiet resolve, a sliver of frustration seethes, and it slips into your work, reflected in the books you place down a bit too roughly, each one landing with a defiant thud.
Tonightâs book club promises to be a lively one, with more attendees than ever before. Youâve even roped in a few friends to help rearrange the store, setting up extra couches and stools to welcome the crowd, and handling the front counter while you join the readers. Despite everything, the prospect of the gathering fills you with a kind of joy thatâs untouched by disappointment. Here, surrounded by stories and souls eager to explore them, you feel anchored, reminded of the warmth and kinship that words can forge even on the coldest nights.
Everything is ready, and as people start trickling in, the space soon brims with warmth and laughter. Every seat is filled, and latecomers, wrapped in thick blankets, settle on the floor, adding to the cozy, intimate atmosphere. Soft candlelight dances across the room, casting a gentle glow over festive mugs brimming with coffee and tea, and you smile, savoring the joy that settles over your little bookstore. You begin speaking about the new indie author whose book youâre exploring tonight, diving into themes of morality, which quickly spark a spirited debate among the readers.Â
But then your phone vibrates, faintly insistent in your pocket. At first, you ignore it, but when it continues, you excuse yourself with a sheepish smile and slip away to the counter. A string of messages from Namjoon lights up your screen.
[19:23] Namjoon: Hi đ Â
[19:23] Namjoon: Sorry to bother you again, but Â
[19:24] Namjoon: TY for letting me visit your bookstore đ Â
[19:24] You: Youâre welcome anytime! đ Â
[19:24] Namjoon: and finding that book for me Â
[19:24] You: np at all đ Â
[19:25] Namjoon: I know that your relationship with Hobi is fake, but I really wanted to say that I think youâll be good for him âïžÂ Â
[19:25] You: Really? đ„č Â
[19:25] Namjoon: I hope youâll want to get to know him. Heâs a really great guy đ Â
[19:25] You: I do! Yeah. I had a feeling thereâs a nice guy under all that sadness đ„č Â
[19:26] Namjoon: Ahh, yeah. He actually used to be the happiest and brightest person, butâŠÂ Â
[19:26] Namjoon: Ahh, sorry đ Â
[19:26] Namjoon: Itâs not my place to tell you. Â
[19:26] Namjoon: You should talk to him đ Â
[19:26] You: DW! I didnât want to pry. Iâll ask him himself đ„°Â Â
[19:27] You: TY for looking out for him. Youâre a good friend đ«Â Â
[19:27] Namjoon: Always. Heâs one of my oldest friends and I just want to see him happy again đ„č Â
[19:27] You: Iâll try talking to him. I hope he finally responds đ Â
[19:29] Namjoon: Please do, otherwise Iâll kick his ass!
You smile at Namjoonâs last message, the warmth of his words lingering as you slip your phone back into your pocket. But a tangle of thoughts and emotions stirs within you. Namjoon seems genuinely hopeful for you and Hoseok, nudging you toward him with a gentle insistence that Hoseok might just need someone to reach out. Youâd promised to try, but doubt lingers at the edgesâwhat if itâs all in your head, an illusion woven by the quiet moments you shared and the loneliness he wore like a mask? Â
Yet, the image of Hoseok as the âbrightest person,â as Namjoon described, sits heavy in your mind. What could have dimmed that light? And as you glance out at the book club gathering, a part of you wonders if, somehow, thereâs still a chance to bring a bit of that warmth back to him.
Hoseok finds himself aching for your smile, the warmth you seemed to pour out effortlessly, and the sharp, clever humor that softened his edges in ways he didnât expect. Namjoonâs words echo in his mind, words that have been unraveling him slowly, urging him toward the chance to make things right. With his hands tucked into his coat pockets, his feet carry him almost unconsciously toward your bookstore. He knows youâre working tonight, but he doesnât care about timing or convenience; he only knows he needs to see you, to finally apologize and hope youâll give him even a moment of your time. Heâs prepared to accept whatever youâre willing to offerâeven if itâs a closed door.
As he steps inside, the familiar warmth and scent of cinnamon and worn paper embrace him, comforting and bittersweet. You glance up from the counter, and the softness of your smile catches him off guard; relief flickers in his chestâyou havenât yet written him off. He makes his way over to you, offering a tentative, apologetic smile.
âHi, Y/N,â he says, noticing the subtle spark in your eyes, something between surprise and hope. âI came to order a coffeeâŠand give you a proper apology,â he adds, his voice warm, almost pleading.
You let out a small chuckle, the sound light but genuine, and turn to make his coffee. âIs this one to go?â you ask, an amused smile tugging at your lips.
âNo,â he replies, a hint of a grin breaking through his seriousness. âActually, I was hoping for one of those festive mugs, and maybe to borrow a book and stay for a whileâif thatâs okay.â
A warmth lights up your eyes, and he feels his heart lift, his nerves unraveling just a little. âI think thatâs a great idea,â you say, and reach for a whimsical reindeer mug, the kind with a scarf winding into the handle, speckled with snowflakes. You fill it with steaming coffee, setting it before him with a soft, inviting smile.
Hoseokâs gaze drops to the mug as he gathers his thoughts, then he looks up, meeting your eyes as he speaks. âI owe you an apology,â he begins, his voice low and earnest. âFor everything. I know thereâs no excuse, but Christmas has always beenâŠwell, itâs not exactly my season,â he trails off, catching himself rambling, and gives a nervous chuckle. âBut I didnât mean to take that out on you. I just wanted to say Iâm sorry, truly, and Iâll try to be better.â
The smile you give him is small but warm, like a flicker of forgiveness, and for the first time in a long while, he feels a glimmer of hope that maybe, just maybe, he can start letting go of his past.
You hand him the reindeer mug, warm and brimming with rich coffee, smiling as you pass it to him. âIâm glad to hear it, Hoseok. You were acting like an ass there for a bit,â you say with a playful glint in your eyes, âbut thatâs in the past nowâyouâve apologized.â Gently, you slide the mug across the counter toward him. âHereâs your coffee. Pick out whatever book catches your eye,â you add softly, your voice warm.
He nods, pausing for a moment as he clears his throat. âActually,â he begins, a bit hesitant, âthat poetry book you recommended for NamjoonâŠdo you have another copy?â
âI do,â you say with a quick smile, nodding toward the poetry section. âItâs right over there.â
âThanks,â he murmurs, wrapping his hands around the mug and savoring its warmth. âFigured I could use a little introspective magic.â With that, he takes a long sip, the comfort of the mug slowly thawing his cold fingers.
He makes his way to the poetry shelves, pulls down the book, and settles into one of the plush armchairs in the corner. For a long time, he reads quietly, the pages offering him solace in ways he hadnât expected. While his usual reads lean more toward comics, he feels something settle inside him as he lets himself sink into the rhythmic flow of the verses. Every so often, he looks up to see you moving gracefully through the shop, helping customers, laughing softly with a warmth that feels magnetic. He realizes, almost with a pang, that this warmth is something he used to feel too, before the shadows crept in. Maybe thatâs part of the draw he feels toward youâyou radiate the kind of light heâs been missing.
From the corner of his eye, he notices you glancing over at him, and when he catches your gaze, a soft blush creeps up your cheeks. You offer a shy smile, and he returns it with a gentle wave, feeling lighter than he has in a long time.
He doesnât know how long heâs been there, nestled into that armchair, his coffee long finished and now sipping tea. Hours seem to slip by, but he doesnât mind. As he flips through the poems, heâs surprised by how deeply they resonate with him. Some verses are quiet and sad, others comforting, and some seem to reach into the bruised places heâd long tried to ignore. He closes the book, his heart feeling just a little less heavy, and places it back on the shelf.
Finally, he walks to the counter, holding the empty mug in his hands. A grateful smile lingers on his lips as he approaches you, words forming in his mind like the first sparks of something new.
âItâs getting late, so I should head home,â he says softly, a smile spreading across his face. âThank you for the coffee andâŠthe poetry. Your store feels like a warm hug, honestlyâcozy and comforting.â
You smile, touched by his words. âThatâs exactly the atmosphere I was hoping for,â you reply, taking the mug from his hands and placing it on the tray to be cleaned later.Â
He lingers, shifting slightly, his eyes dancing around the room as he gathers the courage for what he wants to say next. âI, uhâŠâ he clears his throat, glancing up at you, âIâd like to come back sometime soon. Maybe we could actually hang out?â His voice wavers just a little, and you catch the flicker of nerves in his expression.
A playful grin tugs at your lips as you raise an eyebrow. âAre you asking me out on a date?â you tease, letting a hint of mischief dance in your gaze.
A blush creeps into his cheeks, but he nods, smiling shyly. âYeah, actually⊠Iâd like to take you out. Not here in your store. How about a movie or something?â he mumbles, trying to hide his hopefulness.
âA movie sounds nice,â you say softly, warmth blooming in your own chest.
âHow about the day after tomorrow?â he asks, his eyes brightening with relief and anticipation.
You nod, giving him a gentle smile. âSure.â
His blush deepens, and his grin widens as he waves goodbye, stepping out into the night air. As he heads home, he feels lighter, like a weight has lifted, the warmth of your smile lingering with him, warming him even as the winter wind swirls around.
Hoseok insisted on watching one of those cheerful Christmas movies, the kind that swells with improbable reunions and holiday cheer, even though youâd told him he didnât have toâany genre wouldâve been fine. But heâd insisted, almost stubbornly, saying that itâs what he wanted. Yet, even as the lights dim and you settle in, you can feel the irony of it: this bright, glittering warmth on screen, and something distant in his gaze that it doesnât quite reach.Â
Youâve got a tub of buttery popcorn between you and sodas on the floor by your feet, but your attention isnât really on the movie. Something about a girl rediscovering her familyâŠyouâve seen it before, enough times to know every twist and turn by heart. Instead, you focus on the space between you, the openness of your hand resting on the armrest, waiting for him to close the gap. When he does, intertwining his fingers with yours, a soft thrill of warmth lights up your chest.Â
He hums contentedly, gently squeezing your fingers, and after a while, his head leans softly against your shoulder, his breathing falling into a slow, steady rhythm. When you glance down, you realize heâs drifted off, and a small smile tugs at your lips. He must be exhausted, though you donât even know what he does for work, what fills his days with the kind of weight that would make him fall asleep so quickly.
You let him rest, his warmth comforting against your shoulder, and time slips away until the credits roll and the lights blink back on. As he stirs, blinking sleepily and straightening up, a hint of embarrassment flickers across his face, but you brush it off with a reassuring smile, finding that you liked the feeling of him resting against you.
âWant to come back to my bookstore?â you ask as you both step out into the cold night, snowflakes swirling gently around you. Your fingers find his again, as natural as breathing. âWe could have a drink. Itâs closed for the holidays, so itâd be just the two of us,â you add with a smile, looking up at him.
He yawns, nodding. âIâd really like that.â
You walk together through the snow-dusted streets, laughter mingling with your steps, until you reach the bookstore, keys jingling in your hands as you unlock the door. Inside, the quiet space welcomes you both, the ceiling lit with floating snowflakes casting a soft glow over the shelves and cozy reading nooks. You both shrug off your coats, and you lead him into the back of the store, where the barista machine hums quietly in the corner.
âHow about hot cocoa?â you ask, glancing over your shoulder. âItâs a little late for coffee.â
He nods, a soft smile touching his lips as he settles into one of the armchairs. You start grinding cocoa beans, the rich aroma filling the air, and set two festive mugs beneath the machine, watching as it pours thick, velvety cocoa. The air is warm, and somehow you feel more at home in this quiet moment than you have all season, the world outside reduced to the gentle hush of falling snow.
With the cocoa steaming in your hands, you settle into one of the oversized, cloud-soft couches, and he sits across from you, mirroring your small, hesitant smile. The bookstore feels like a world away from the outside, a sanctuary where the soft hum of holiday lights flickers gently, and the scent of chocolate mingles with the faint, comforting smell of old books.
You take a slow sip, letting the warmth fill you. âSo,â you ask, voice gentle but direct, âdo you want to tell me why you hate Christmas so much?â
He pauses, caught off guard, nearly choking on his own cocoa, and you watch his face flush, caught somewhere between embarrassment and hesitation. Realizing youâve gone right to the heart of it, you quickly add, âYou donât have to, of course. Iâm justâŠcurious. But itâs okay if youâre not ready.â
For a moment, he seems to shrink inward, his face turning soft with a sadness that feels ancient, like a weight heâs carried for too long. He takes a breath thatâs almost a shudder, expanding his chest as if even breathing through it hurts.
âItâs not that I donât want to tell you,â he says finally, his voice so low itâs barely a whisper. âItâs that Iâm scared youâll look at me differently, that Iâll justâŠbring you down.â His words are vulnerable, stripped bare, trembling with the unspoken.
Reaching out a little, you reassure him, âI wonât. I promise. But really, thereâs no pressure. You only have to share what feels right.â
He nods, but thereâs something in his gaze that shiftsâlike heâs waging a silent battle, torn between hiding and the need to unburden himself. He fidgets with his fingers, then places his mug carefully on the table, as though any movement could shatter the quiet around you.
âItâs justâŠâ He hesitates, casting his gaze downward, then continues, âI want to tell you, becauseâŠwell, only my closest friends know. And I think you deserve to know too, since Iâve been such an ass to youâŠâ he trails off with a nervous laugh, tinged with sadness.
Taking a deep breath, he begins. âIt happened when I was seventeen,â he says, voice low and brittle. You set your own mug down, instinctively leaning forward, drawn to the rawness of his words.
âIt was Christmas Eve,â he says softly, staring past you, somewhere into the painful fog of memory. âThere was a stormâsnow swirling thick, icy roads. AndâŠâ He pauses, his voice trembling, his words hitching, thick with emotion.
Instinctively, you move over to sit beside him, wrapping an arm around his shoulders as he struggles for composure, his breath shaky. Leaning into your touch, he swallows hard, gathering the words from somewhere deep, each one a fragile release.
âMy parents and my sisterâŠâ he chokes out, his voice shattering into tears, and you draw him closer, feeling him tremble against you. One of his hands finds yours, his grip tight, holding onto you as though he fears the memory might pull him under.
âThey died,â he whispers, and the words break free like a dam bursting. His shoulders shake as the full force of his grief surfaces, raw and unrestrained. He buries his face in his hands, and you gently place a hand on his back, offering the quiet comfort of your presence as he unburdens himself.
He leans into you, surrendering to the weight of years of sorrow. âAnd itâs all my fault,â he sobs, the words barely discernible through his heaving breaths.
Softly, you murmur, âHow do you figure that?â Your voice is low, gentle, as though youâre trying to hold him steady with your words.
âBecauseâŠâ He trails off, swallowing hard. âI asked them to go out that day. The star on the tree was broken, and Iâd wanted everything to be perfect, so they went out just to get a new one. And they never came back.â
His confession lingers in the air, heavy, each word carving deeper into the silence. You pull him close, holding him as he cries, his sobs echoing softly through the quiet bookstore.Â
You pull him closer, letting your warmth envelop him like a soft blanket, as if you could shield him from the pain heâs held onto for so long. âBut it wasnât your fault,â you whisper, gently, your words like a balm, âHow could it be? They were adults, Hoseok. If they hadnât wanted to go, they wouldnât have. You didnât force them, didnât ask for a storm. Itâs horrible and tragic, yes, and Iâm so sorry youâve had to carry this, butâŠitâs not your fault.â
A sob breaks from him, raw and filled with years of bottled sorrow. âBut it is,â he cries, his voice catching, âIf I hadnât been so insistent about that damn star, if I hadnât wanted everything to be fucking perfectâŠâ
Tenderly, you tighten your embrace, gently rubbing his back. âBut you canât know that, Hoseok. No one could know.â Your words are soft but sure, reassuring, each one carrying a warmth you hope he can feel. âSometimesâŠthings just happen, things we canât control.â
âItâs been over a decade,â he says, his voice a fragile echo. âBut every Christmasâevery snowstorm, every time I see the lights, Iâm right back there. All I see is them, and I hate it.â His voice trembles with anger, grief, and resentment. âI hate the snow, I hate the holidays. That storm, those roadsâŠitâs all ruined for me.â He breaks again, the words torn from him, and you hold him through his tears, letting him release everything heâs held in, feeling each tremor as he cries.
For a while, you just stay there, giving him the space to let the sorrow pour out, letting him lean into you fully. You say nothing, just hold him, until the sobs subside to quiet sniffles. His voice barely a whisper, he murmurs, âI just want them to come backâŠâ and the raw ache in his words tugs at your heart.
Your chest tightens with empathy, the pain heâs carried so vividly there before you. The weight of it all is almost unbearable, and now you see why heâs buried his light under layers of grief for so long. But thereâs something else there, tooâa longing to break free, if he only knew how.
Finally, you find the words, speaking softly. âLook, HoseokâŠI canât even imagine what youâve gone through. And itâs unfair, all of it. But youâve carried this for so long, like a stone around your neck, dragging you down. Itâs part of you, yes, but maybeâŠmaybe it doesnât have to define every part of you forever. What if you could let a little of it go?â
Heâs quiet, thinking, eyes still glistening. âI donât think I can,â he says softly, looking at you as though searching for permission to forgive himself. âMaybe I donât deserve to be happyâŠâ
You reach for his hand, guiding his gaze to meet yours. âHoseok,â you say, voice steady but warm, âwe all deserve to be happy. Weâve all faced loss and scars that linger, but we donât have to carry them like this. Iâm not saying you need to forget, butâŠmaybe you can let the pain be something else now, something softer, something that blooms instead of weighs you down.â
He looks at you, brow furrowed, as though heâs trying to understand. âLike turning it into something beautiful?â he asks, his voice so low, so vulnerable.
âYes,â you nod, a small smile breaking through. âLike tending to it, like planting seeds where the pain was, and seeing what beautiful things might grow. Hold onto that pain, but let it bloom into something beautiful rather than letting it scar. Nurture it like a garden, tend to it with care, so that the memories donât define you, but become parts of you that you can cherish, like petals of a rose you keep alive. New memories, maybe. Or something to honor what you loved about them.â
He looks up, eyes glistening with tears, and yet you canât help but think he looks so heartbreakingly beautiful like thisâvulnerable, raw, his heart laid bare.
He stares into the distance, thinking, his fingers still laced with yours. For the first time, you catch a glimmer of hope in his eyes, fragile but alive. The weight is still there, but something else is there now, tooâa softness, a beginning.
âNamjoon told me you used to be like the sun itself, and I think itâs time to let your light shine again. I can see glimpses of that warmth, those pieces of who you were. You deserve happiness, Hoseok. Donât you think?â Your hand gently cradles his cheek, thumb brushing softly against his skin.
His breath shudders, voice rough and tremulous. âI⊠Iâm not sure.â
You squeeze his hands, a comforting weight. âIâm not saying it will happen overnight. But you deserve the world, and maybeâŠmaybe itâs time to let yourself imagine that.â You search his face, noticing the exhaustion in the redness of his eyes, the weariness clinging to him like a shadow. Heâs been carrying his world alone, and itâs wearing him down, thread by thread.
âListen,â you whisper, âwe donât have to talk about it anymore tonight. You look so tired. How about thisâIâll find some blankets, and we can sleep on the couch, together?â Your arms hold him close, an offer of sanctuary, one he so clearly needs.
He nods, and you rise to gather the blankets, arranging them softly around him before settling beside him. You help him lie down, his head resting on your lap as your fingers drift tenderly through his soft brown hair, tracing gentle circles. Your fingertips graze the shell of his ear, and you feel a delicate shiver ripple through him. Slowly, his breathing steadies, the tension in his face unwinding as you touch his cheek softly. His eyes flutter shut, though a few quiet tears slip free, trailing down the bridge of his nose to rest, shimmering, on your thigh.
âIâm so sorry you lost them,â you murmur, voice almost a breath against the quiet. âIâm so, so sorry. But Iâm sure your parents and sister would want to see you smile again, to see you living freely.â
He hums faintly, a soft sound that melts into the stillness, leaning unconsciously into the warmth of your hand. With a tender impulse, you lean down, pressing a gentle kiss to his cheek, your lips meeting his skin like a promise. âYouâre a beautiful sunflower, Hobi,â you whisper, the words a soft caress.
A small, fragile smile tugs at the corner of his lips, his breaths deepening as he drifts, his body finally surrendering to sleep. Your heart aches for this gentle soul, and yet you feel strength in the quiet resolve settling over you. Though youâve barely begun to know him, you feel an undeniable pullâto protect, to nurture, to help him find his way back to the light. You want to see him reclaim the happiness heâs buried, for you feel, deep down, that he deserves it more than anyone.
As you press your hand softly against his shoulder, you settle beside him, closing your own eyes, and together, under the soft weight of blankets, you both drift into the quiet peace of sleep.
His chest feels strangely lighter, as if the weight heâs carried so long has finally loosened its hold. The scent of old paper mingles with a trace of last nightâs cocoa, stirring softly around him, and he opens his eyes to find two forgotten mugs, their contents now cold, sitting on the table. Morning light streams through the bookstoreâs large windows, casting delicate beams across the room, where tiny particles of dust dance and swirl like winter snowflakes caught in a golden glow.
And then it hits himâheâs in your bookstore. He fell asleep here, his heart laid bare, resting in your gentle embrace. Last night, he poured out his grief, his regrets, his guilt, and youâd held him in the quiet safety of your lap, soothing him with words that linger in the air, as soft as the dawn light now filtering in. He feels a warmth settle in his chest, something lighter and more hopeful taking root, gently nudging the darkness aside.
He turns, catching sight of you still asleep beside him, your lashes fluttering against your cheek in the gentlest rhythm, like the delicate wings of a butterfly resting between flights. You look so serene, so quietly beautiful, and in this moment, he feels his heart expand, filled with a quiet gratitude and a strange, new kind of peace. He isnât fully healedânot yetâbut he feels the faintest beginnings of something brighter, a light beginning to shift within him.
You were right, he realizes. He doesnât have to carry his grief alone, doesnât have to let it take root so deeply. His friends had tried to tell him before, but somehow, heâd resisted. With you, though, it felt different. Maybe itâs the way you looked past the jagged edges of his sorrow and saw the flicker of light he thought heâd lost. Maybe itâs the way you listened, without pity, without judgment, your compassion flowing freely, like a balm to his worn-out soul. He feels a rush of quiet reverenceâfor your kindness, for the safe harbor you offered, for the hope you unknowingly planted in him. And he knows, somehow, heâll carry this moment with him forever.
You stir softly beneath him, your body stretching as you wake. Your eyes meet his, soft and warm, and in that gentle gaze he feels understood in a way he hadnât thought possible. You smile, a tender smile that feels like the start of something new.
âI loved our talk yesterday,â you murmur, voice laced with warmth and care. âHow are you feeling?â
He hums softly, the morning light catching the hint of a smile on his lips, âI feel⊠lighter, actually.â
âThatâs good. Iâm so glad,â you whisper, fingers tracing gently along his cheek, your touch soft and warm. A shiver rolls through him, and he feels goosebumps rise, like your kindness has left its own quiet mark on his skin.
âThank you,â he murmurs, voice tender and full. âThank you for listening, for everything⊠truly.â
You smile, brushing a strand of his hair back with a quiet laugh. âI didnât do anythingâyou did that,â you say, your voice a soft tease.Â
He chuckles, feeling his heart swell as he sinks a little deeper into your lap, his gaze locked on yours. âYouâre good with words,â he replies, leaning into your touch, feeling a warmth he hasnât felt in so long.
âI read a lot,â you chuckle, fingers weaving gently through his hair, each stroke grounding him more fully into this quiet moment.
He clears his throat, his eyes lifting to meet yours with an unexpected tenderness, âWhat are you doing tomorrow? On Christmas Eve.â
You pause, a flicker of surprise lighting your eyes before you break into a gentle smile. âNothing, why?â
A smile spreads across his face, slow and earnest. âIâd really like it if youâd come to my place. I want to make dinner for you, to thank you. For all of this.â
Your eyes soften, glistening with a look he canât quite decipher, something warm and unspoken that makes his heart beat a little faster. And then, leaning closer, you brush a kiss against his cheek, your lips feather-light and warm.
âIâd love to,â you whisper, and your words, simple as they are, feel like the beginning of something he hadnât dared hope for.
Itâs Christmas Eve, and the quiet streets are bathed in the soft, amber glow of street lamps, their light dancing on the fresh blanket of snow as you wait for the bus that will carry you to Hoseokâs place. A warmth bubbles up inside you as you think back to yesterdayâwhen you finally glimpsed the beautiful light that has always flickered behind his eyes. That warmth wrapped around you, like a blanket on a cold winter night, and filled your heart with a joy you canât quite put into words.Â
Seated now in the gentle hum of the bus, you press your forehead against the cool glass of the window, watching the world blur past in a whirl of twinkling lights and shadows. Your mind keeps drifting back to Hoseok, that ray of sunshine whoâs somehow already become a quiet storm in your chest. Youâve never felt like this for anyoneânever this quickly, never this intensely. You know you like him deeply, but thereâs so much more to discover. This dinner, you think, could be the start of that journey.Â
As the soft strains of Christmas music fill your ears, you imagine what his home might look likeâwondering if it would feel as warm and comforting as his presence. The bus slows, and you press the stop button when you realize the next stop is just a heartbeat away from Hoseokâs apartment. The doors open, and you step out into the crisp, dark afternoon, your breath puffing out in delicate clouds as you trudge through the snow, boots crunching with each step toward his building. Finally, you find it. You shake the snow off your boots before making your way up the stairs, your heart fluttering as you ascend to the right floor. You reach his door and knock gently, anticipation coursing through your veins. Itâs only moments before the door swings open, and youâre met with an embrace of warmthâboth from the cozy glow spilling out from inside and from the inviting scent of something delicious drifting in the air.
Hoseok stands before you, wearing a red Christmas apron, with a pocket embroidered with Santa and snowflakes at the edges. The sight catches you off guard, and you canât help but smile, your heart swelling in your chest. âWow,â you begin, taken by surprise, but he grins back, the same joyful light in his eyes. ââHandsome, right?â he finishes your thought with a laugh, and you join in, smiling even brighter. âYeah,â you laugh, nodding, âThatâs exactly what I was going to say.â You slip off your coat and shoes, feeling the warmth of his home wrap around you like a soft embrace.
You look down at your dress, a silky golden thing that rests just above your knees, with the barest hint of your collarbone exposed. Beneath the apron, you catch the outline of his dress shirt, festively adorned with Christmas prints, and the way his dress pants fit him perfectly. Without thinking, you reach out, gently grasping his bicep, surprised by how solid and strong it feels beneath your touch. You open your mouth to speak, to tell him somethingâanythingâbut for a moment, the words slip away, leaving you with only the quiet flutter of your heartbeat.
âI used to go all out at Christmas,â Hoseok says, his voice soft, catching your gaze as he notices you watching him. âWhen my family was still alice⊠it was kinda our tradition. And,â he pauses, the weight of the memories hanging between you both, âI thought maybe I should replace those dark memories with new ones. Water the flowers, like you suggested.âÂ
The sincerity in his voice pulls at your heart, and you feel a warmth spread inside you. He really took your rambling words to heart, didnât he? Itâs almost too much, the way heâs reaching for healing, for light. You blink quickly, trying to stop the tears from spilling overâbecause God, if he keeps this up, youâre not sure how much longer you can hold it together.Â
He smiles softly at you, a smile that carries both gratitude and something more, before gently guiding you into his home with a hand resting at the small of your back. âCome in,â he murmurs, as if heâs sharing more than just his space, as if heâs offering you a piece of himself.Â
You step inside, and the atmosphere is instantly warm, comfortingâlike stepping into a dream where all the colors and memories belong exactly where they are. His personal items are scattered thoughtfully around the room, each object, each piece of art, telling a story of the man himself. The walls are adorned with splashes of color, vibrant yet intimate, as if the house breathes with the same life that hums in his veins. Itâs the kind of home that makes you smile involuntarily, grounded and cozy, much like him.Â
You follow him into the kitchen, small but inviting, its walls holding the scent of simmering food and something moreâsomething like hope. Your stomach rumbles with anticipation as you watch him finish off the last details of the meal, every movement graceful and purposeful. Itâs like watching an artist at work, and your senses are overwhelmed by the delicious aroma that fills the air.
He rolls the sleeves of his shirt up with an easy, practiced motion, revealing arms veined and strongâmuscles flexing as his hand moves to stir the pan. Your mind drifts for a moment, caught between admiration and the soft, flickering thoughts that begin to dance behind your eyes. His presence feels like the warmth of the sunâcomforting, yet powerful.
âDo you want wine?â he asks, his gaze meeting yours as he reaches for a heat-resistant mat to place the pan on.Â
âYeah, but just one glass,â you answer, your voice steady. You donât want to cloud the clarity you feel in this momentânot today. Not with this quiet intimacy swirling between you two, a pull that feels magnetic, like youâre drawn in by the gravity of his kindness and the warmth of the space heâs shared with you.Â
When you step into the dining room, the sight before you takes your breath away. The table is set perfectlyâcandles flicker gently, casting a soft glow across the room, while a delicate Christmas playlist hums in the background. The ambiance feels like something pulled from a dream, and your heart flutters as you take it all in.Â
âYou didnât have to do all this,â you say, your voice quiet with awe, still unable to fully comprehend the effort heâs put into making this evening so special.
Hoseok chuckles softly, a smile curling at the corners of his lips as he drags a stool out for you to sit. âActually,â he says, placing the food carefully on the table, his eyes warm and earnest, âI had to. Itâs the least I can do.â He pours wine into your glass, his fingers brushing the stem gently, and as he looks up at you, something shifts between you bothâsomething that feels like the beginning of a new story.
You blush and smile, warmth blooming inside you, feeling a kind of happiness that only his presence seems to create. Itâs a glow that wraps around you like a soft, sunlit blanket, a feeling you know he brings to others when heâs not weighed down by his sorrow. But tonight, Hoseok is differentâlighter, freer. Heâs like a person emerging from the dark, letting the painful past be nothing more than distant echoes, fading into the background of his life. Thereâs a spark in his eyes, a lightness to his spirit that wasnât there yesterday. You know the sadness still lingers in him, but damn, seeing him fight to reclaim joy is nothing short of beautiful.
His movements are more confident now, flowing with a grace that seems to echo his shifting mood. The pain didnât vanish overnight, but heâs making a conscious choice to let go, to change, and thatâs the most powerful thing. It feels like watching someone wake up, piece by piece, from a long and heavy slumber.
You take a sip of your wine, and the quiet hum of contentment fills the space between you. As you begin to eat, the flavors on your tongue are nothing short of heavenly, and you realizeâheâs not just kind, not just tender, but heâs an incredible cook too. Your heart swells, and you glance at him, finding his smileâsoft, genuine, a reflection of the warmth thatâs spilling out from inside him. Heâs smiling with his eyes, and it makes you feel elated, like everything in the world has aligned just perfectly.Â
Then, you feel something nudge against your foot, warm and gentle, and your gaze drops to see his foot brushing against yours. You canât help but giggle, a little burst of joy that seems to bubble up from your chest. You drink a little more, letting the wine relax your senses as you continue eating, savoring every bite until youâre almost too full to move.
âThis was so delicious, Hobi,â you say, your voice soft, full of admiration, as your hand stretches across the table, finding its way to gently caress his.Â
He smiles, his lips curling into a playful smirk as he meets your eyes. âMh. Thank you,â he murmurs, the words wrapped in warmth.
âBut youâre the one who deserves all the thanks and praises,â he adds, his voice thick with sincerity, his gaze never leaving yours. You blink, surprised by the depth of his words, and feel your heart stir with a tenderness you canât quite explain.
âMe?â you laugh, a little incredulous, the sound light and playful, like youâre both caught in this beautiful moment of connection.
âYeah,â he nods, his voice low and filled with gratitude, âif it wasnât for you, I wouldnât have had the strength to face my pain, to let the old meâthe me I thought was lostâcome back to life.âÂ
His words settle in your chest, heavy with truth, and it stirs something deep inside you.Â
âInstead of sitting here with you today,â he continues, his voice raw and real, âIâd probably be lying in bed, bitter, angry at the world and everyone in it. But here I am, actually enjoying Christmas. Actually enjoying life again.âÂ
The rawness of his honesty catches you off guard, and your heart aches with the beauty of it. A few tears well in your eyes, not from sadness, but from the overwhelming sweetness of his words. His gratitude, so pure and so deeply felt, moves you in ways you didnât expect.
He caresses your hand back, the warmth of his touch sending a ripple of warmth through your chest. âThank you for guiding me back towards the light,â he whispers, his voice soft yet resolute, the sincerity in it making your heart swell.Â
Your eyes flutter, feeling a mixture of gratitude and happiness for him. This is the light you saw the moment you met himâthe flicker of hope beneath the surface of his painâand now, with gentle patience, heâs found his way back to it. To see him embrace it, to see him live in it again, is nothing short of breathtaking. And in that moment, you realize just how incredibly sexy that isâthis strength, this vulnerability wrapped in his quiet confidence.Â
Without thinking, driven by the pull of something deeper, you lean in across the table, closing the distance between you, and your lips meet his in a kiss so tender it almost feels like the world stops.Â
For a fleeting second, thereâs hesitation in himâsurprise, perhapsâbut then his hands cradle your cheeks, his fingers slipping into your hair, and he moans into the kiss, pulling you closer, deepening it.Â
Your heart races, the connection between you sparking like wildfire. You think, with a flash of clarity, that it was only ever a matter of time before this moment arrived, before your lips touched in the way they were always meant to.Â
When you pull apart, his brown eyes are dark, pupils blown wide with desire, as are yours, and you feel the heat between you intensify, every nerve in your body alive with the electricity of the moment.Â
He leans in again, lips brushing against yours as his breath quickens, and you feel something stir within you, something deep and primal, fluttering in your chest.Â
He pulls back again, and his voice is laced with desire, hushed but intense. âDo you want to see my bed? Itâs nice and soft,â he asks, his gaze still smoldering.
You blush, the heat rising to your cheeks, but you canât help but laughâa breathy sound, teasing and full of playful mischief. âYes, but Iâm more into the harder beds.â
He raises an eyebrow, his gaze sharpening into something more dangerous, more magnetic. âYou are, are you? So you like it hard?â His voice is low, a dangerous edge to it now, and it makes your breath catch in your throat.Â
âMaybe,â you tease, batting your lashes as your heart begins to race. You rise from the stool, the air between you thick with unspoken promises.
âWhich way to your bedroom?â you ask, your voice barely more than a whisper, the heat between you palpable, electric. You can already feel the pull of him, the temptation of whatâs to come.
He stands up, his hand reaching out for yours, and you feel the warmth of his touch ignite something inside of you. âThis way,â he murmurs, his fingers threading through yours as he leads you through the tiny hallway.
Every step feels heavier than the last, the anticipation building like a slow crescendo, your pulse quickening with every heartbeat. The air feels thick with tension, charged, like a storm ready to break. As you step into his bedroom, the world outside seems to disappear, and all that exists is himâhis presence, his touch, the way heâs looking at you with that fire in his eyes.
Before you can take another breath, he pulls you into his arms, one hand sliding behind your neck, the other settling on the small of your back. His lips crash into yours, deep and smoldering, igniting the very air between you. You melt into him, your heart pounding in your chest, your body aching for the closeness, for everything thatâs about to unfold.
His tongue dances with yours, a teasing, intoxicating rhythm that sends shivers through your bones, a soft, helpless moan slipping past your lips and into his. The air between you is electric, alive with a pulse that pulls you both closer until clothes become mere shadows cast aside, and your chests rise and fall in time, breaths mingling as one. He guides you down onto the bed, and you gasp, bouncing softly against the mattress, a laugh escaping youâonly to dissolve as he hovers above, his gaze dark and consuming, savoring every curve, every inch as though you were his finest vintage.
âGod, youâre beautiful,â he murmurs, his voice thick, reverent, as his hands trace along your body, leaving trails of fire in their wake. You shiver, the warmth of his touch awakening every inch, every nerve, until your skin hums under his fingertips. His lips descend, his breath warm against your skin as he moves lower, his gaze holding yours in a promise, a delicious anticipation that pools and aches within you.
âCan I touch you, make you come on my tongue?â he whispers, his voice low, pleased. You nod, breath hitching, and when you gasp a desperate âyes,â he presses deeper, spreading you open, his lips finding your pussy, soft and warm, as a shudder rushes through you like a wave.
He doesn't hesitate, diving in, his tongue moving in slow, devastating circles that steal your breath, exploring you with the kind of hunger that unravels you. You gasp, hands tangling in his hair as he wraps his arms around your thighs, holding you steady, his own groans vibrating against your skin as his mouth moves against you, relentless, devoted. The wet sounds echo, shamelessly intimate, drawing you closer to that edge, your pulse quickening as his nose brushes your clit, a shockwave of pleasure sparking up your spine.
Your fingers knot into his hair, tugging, a fevered plea spilling from your lips as he drives you higher. A skilled flick, a press, and your hips roll forward, chasing the pleasure he's offering, breath coming fast and shallow. âHobi,â you gasp, feeling the tidal pull of release, the wave cresting just at the brink. âIâm so close, Iââ
He pulls back only briefly, his voice a husky command. âCome for me, sweetheart. Let me taste it.â
The endearment sends a dizzying rush through you, a warmth that winds tight in your core, pushing you over the edge. With a final swirl of his tongue, you fall, your muscles clenching around him as his name shatters from your lips, your body arching, pulsing with every wave that rolls through you. He doesn't let up, holding you through every tremor, his mouth and fingers steady, pulling every last bit of pleasure from you.
When your breath finally slows, he trails kisses up your body, lingering over the swell of your hips, your stomach, each touch a worship. His mouth finds the hollow of your throat, then your jaw, his face gleaming with your warmth as he murmurs, âAbsolutely breathtaking.â
âThat tickles,â you giggle as his lips trail across your cheek, finally capturing your mouth in a tender, lingering kiss. Thereâs a faint taste of yourself on him, but itâs lost in the intoxicating warmth of his presence; youâre drunk on him, submerged in the depth of his touch, his scent, the pull of his breath against yours. Itâs astonishing how deeply you feel for him alreadyâas if you've known the quiet rhythm of his soul and the dance of his heart for years, not days that turned to weeks.
âWas it good?â he murmurs, his eyes bright and searching, holding a playful tenderness that only he seems to bring out in you.
âIt was incredible,â you pant, your body slowly easing down from the dizzying high, a blissful afterglow humming through every inch of you.
âThen let me give you another,â he says with a teasing glint, the promise glistening in his voice as he leans closer.
You blink, surprised, a trace of doubt slipping through your words. âAre you sure?â Itâs not that you question his skillâheâs just shown you what heâs capable ofâbut youâve never been able to reach that edge twice in such quick succession.
His expression softens, his eyes tracing over your face with quiet understanding. âYouâve never orgasmed twice in a row, have you?â He asks, his voice gentle, knowing. You bite your lip, nodding, your cheeks warm.
âThen lean back, relax,â he whispers, a warmth threading through his voice that feels like a promise waiting to unfold. âLet me do all the work.â
He guides you to sit up, leaning comfortably against the headboard, and settles in beside you, close enough that his heat seems to melt into your own. With a soft, lingering kiss, his lips capture yours again, while his fingers trail a path down your body, finding the sensitive peak of your breast and teasing your nipple with a gentle, rhythmic squeeze that draws a moan from deep within you. His hand moves skillfully, squeezing, massaging, until your skin tingles beneath his touch, each sensation like a spark flickering into life.
When his hand finally moves lower, tracing the curve of your thigh, youâre already quivering with anticipation. His fingers find that sensitive spot between your legs, his touch feather-light but insistent as he circles your clit, the glide slick and warm, a sensation that sends tremors through your body. A soft moan escapes your lips, melting into his as his finger slips inside you, a slow, steady rhythm building as he moves in and out, each motion drawing you closer to that simmering heat just waiting to burst.
His lips never leave yours, each kiss drawing you deeper into the haze of his touch, your body moving in sync with his, rolling against him as his hand works its magic. Youâre already beginning to unravel, each touch, each whisper against your skin making you feel like youâre on the verge of combustion. Not quite over the edge yet, but right there, teetering, every nerve alive, every inch of you utterly and completely his.
âMmmhh,â he breathes against your lips, his teeth grazing your bottom lip before pulling away to meet your gaze. His eyes lock onto yours, dark and inviting, filled with a warmth that makes your pulse quicken.
âAh, Hobi,â you pant, your hips instinctively moving in sync with his hand, matching each subtle movement with a desperate rhythm.
âYou like that, huh?â he teases, his voice soft but laced with a confidence that sends a shiver through you.
âI do,â you moan, breathy and unguarded. âYou can⊠add another.â
He obliges, slipping a second finger beside the first, the added stretch sending a spark of pleasure rippling through you, and you canât help the delighted mewl that escapes your lips. He moves with a steady, knowing rhythm, his fingers curling, finding just the right spots, each motion igniting something deeper, pulling you toward that familiar crest of pleasure. For the first time, you believeâmaybe you could actually come again.
Your head falls back, resting against the headboard, and he seizes the moment, his mouth tracing along the exposed curve of your neck. His lips, warm and firm, press kisses to your skin, each one sending a wave of electricity through you, and as his teeth graze just beneath your ear, you giggle softly, your body instinctively clenching around his fingers.
âYouâre so tight,â he whispers, his breath hot in your ear, each word brushing against your skin like velvet, sending delightful shivers coursing through you. âThink you can handle a third finger?â
Your breath hitches, a soft moan escaping as you murmur, âMaybe⊠Are you getting me ready for that monster cock of yours?â you tease, voice wavering with laughter and heat.
He laughs, the sound low and deep, and slides a third finger inside, his mouth brushing your ear as he murmurs, âIâve got to make sure your sweet, tiny pussy can take me.â
The words strike something in you, a spark that seems to light you from within. Your body welcomes the stretch, feeling fuller, each movement of his fingers heightening the tension building inside you, every push and curl driving you closer to the edge. Youâre lost, breathless, a soundless cry caught in your throat as his thumb grazes your clit, sending you spiraling, stars dancing in your vision as pleasure wells up from within.
âAre you close again, sweetheart?â he whispers, voice thick with desire, his fingers moving faster, his thumb circling in a way thatâs both messy and perfect, igniting every nerve.
âYes,â you gasp, the word more a breath than a sound, your hips rolling in time with his hand as he dips his head to your neck, then your cheek, each touch gentle, yet searing. He catches a stray tear of ecstasy on his lips, and then he finds your mouth, kissing you deeply, his body pressing against yours, chest against your breasts, the closeness amplifying every sensation. The world fades around you, narrowing to just the two of you, to his fingers, his lips, his warmth, everything feeling achingly right.
Before you know it, youâre tumbling over the edge, your body pulsing around his fingers as he moves within you, steady, guiding you through every wave of your release. Youâre left breathless, panting, as the pleasure washes over you, his fingers still moving, coaxing every last tremor from you, until youâre spent, lost in the warmth of his embrace.
âSee?â he grins, his eyes glinting with satisfaction. âI told you I could make you come again.â He leans in, pressing a soft kiss to your cheek as he slowly withdraws his fingers, leaving you feeling empty, your body still pulsing in the delicious aftershocks of his touch. He holds his slick fingers in front of you, and for a moment, you think heâll ask you to taste yourself. But instead, he surprises you, lifting his fingers to his own mouth, his lips parting as he sucks them clean, his gaze locked onto yours. The sight sends a rush of heat through you, and your body responds instinctively, clenching at the image of his self-indulgent pleasure.
âThat was⊠incredibly hot,â you murmur, still breathless, your hand finding his chest as you push him gently back against the headboard. He gives a soft, surprised laugh but lets you take the lead, his body relaxed, trusting. His legs part under your touch, his cock heavy and hard between them, and you feel a rush of excitement knowing heâs been waiting, building up desire, just for you.
âOh, okay,â he breathes, his voice breaking into a pant as you lean in. You spit into your hand, wrapping it firmly around his dick, feeling the warmth of him under your palm, the slight pulse of anticipation. His eyes close, his head tilting back, a moan slipping from his lips as you begin, your hand gliding over his length, making sure every inch is slick and ready for you.
Without hesitation, you bring your mouth down to him, taking him in fully, your lips stretching around him as you ease down. He gasps, his body jerking slightly, unprepared for the sudden depth, and you stay there, breathing steadily, relaxing as you let him fill you completely. Above you, he murmurs something unintelligible, a string of curses and soft sighs that only drive you further.
You pull back, letting him slip from your lips with a soft, wet sound, the cool air hitting his skin as he opens his mouth, stunned. âDamn, Y/N, Iââ
But before he can finish, you take him in again, his words dissolving into a low groan as you move, finding a rhythm, hollowing your cheeks around him as you hum, feeling him pulse with each sound. The slight salt of his precum lingers on your tongue, a taste that feels both intimate and thrilling. His hands find your head, fingers threading into your hair, and you feel him tense above you, fighting for control. But then his grip tightens, and he pushes you down gently, deeper, a raw, breathless whisper escaping him.
âFuck,â he pants, his voice breaking as you take him all the way in again, your eyes watering slightly, the warmth of him filling you completely. He presses his palms to your cheeks, drawing you up, meeting you with a hungry kiss, his mouth capturing yours in a fervor that leaves you both breathless, your bodies pressed close as if to savor every last taste, every last touch.
âYouâre incredible,â he whispers, pressing a lingering kiss to your lips, his eyes meeting yours, deep pools of desire and awe, the kind of look that sends warmth pooling low in your belly.
You giggle, shifting down the bed and tugging at his legs, playfully coaxing him to lie flat beneath you. As he settles back, you crawl over him, gazing down, feeling the heat between you like a magnetic pull. Slowly, you lean down, capturing his lips, letting the kiss deepen until it feels like youâre both tumbling into something endless.
When you pull back, your voice soft, you ask, âAre you okay with doing it raw?â His face flushes, his eyes darting to the side for a moment, vulnerable, unguarded. âIf you have condoms, thatâs fine too⊠Iâm clean, andââ
He interrupts, his words stumbling. âItâs fine. IâItâs been a long time for me, but⊠itâs not like I havenât⊠I mean, Iâm not a virgin⊠itâs just been a while sinceââ
You press a finger to his lips, silencing him with a soft smile, your other hand resting on the warmth of his chest, feeling the steady thrum of his heartbeat. âI donât care,â you murmur, eyes half-lidded with desire. âI just want you. Right here, right now.â
He inhales deeply, his chest expanding under your hand before he breathes out, a quiet âMkay.â
Thatâs all you need. With a slow, deliberate motion, you swing your leg over his hips, settling yourself above him, your hand finding him, guiding his dick to you. Gently, you press yourself against him, letting the head of his cock tease you, a tantalizing friction that makes his face tighten with a mixture of pleasure and impatience.
âDonât tease,â he pants, his voice a husky whisper.
âSays the master of teasing,â you quip back with a grin, and finally, you begin to lower yourself onto him, savoring each exquisite inch as he fills you, stretching you with an overwhelming, delicious pressure. Every nerve ignites as you sink down, hands splayed on his chest, his skin hot and firm beneath your palms. His eyes stay locked on yours, dark and hungry, and as you begin to roll your hips, a soft moan escapes youâhe feels so perfect.
âGod, youâre so big,â you murmur, voice wavering as you ride him, your movements picking up a steady rhythm, each glide smooth and effortless, your body still sensitive and wet from the pleasure heâs already given you.
âYou look so beautiful on top of me,â he breathes, his voice thick with awe as he watches you, his gaze tracing the way your body moves, the rise and fall of your breasts as you ride him. His words make your pulse race, and your body clenches around him in response, your hips picking up speed, moving faster, deeper, chasing that place inside you where everything blurs into pure sensation.
Leaning forward, you press your lips to his neck, leaving a trail of kisses, your mouth finding a spot just below his jaw where you suck softly, marking him as yours. He groans, his hands gripping your hips tighter, fingers digging into your skin, pulling you closer as if he canât get enough, his need written in every small movement.
When your lips return to his, he kisses you fiercely, and you slow your hips, grinding against him with deep, rolling movements that leave you both breathless, the friction between you a heady, delicious ache. His hands hold you with a greed that makes your skin tingle, his grip firm and possessive, as though heâs trying to savor every second, every feeling.Â
He begins to thrust up into you, his movements sudden yet electrifying, each stroke catching you off guard in the most thrilling way. A gasp escapes your lips, raw and breathless.
âAh, fuck,â you pant against his ear, your voice a broken whisper.
âGood?â he murmurs, his tone low, teasing.
âMhm, yes,â you moan, your voice trembling as his hands pull you down, anchoring you to him, while his hips drive up to meet yours with an intensity that leaves you breathless. Each thrust sends a delicious shock through you, his cock filling you so deeply that you feel entirely claimed, entirely his.
âLet me flip you over,â he pants, and with a strength that feels effortless, he shifts you onto your back without ever leaving your body. Your legs wrap instinctively around him, locking him in place as he plunges deeper, each thrust building a rhythm thatâs quick, relentless. Your hands fall back, palms open beside your head as he holds you there, his hips moving in an unyielding rhythm that sends you spiraling, your vision blurring with pleasure.
Above you, heâs sweating, his chest heaving as he breathes out, âThink you can come again?â
âI donât know,â you whisper, voice barely a breath, each word trembling with the anticipation building low in your belly.
âLetâs find out,â he replies, his voice thick with determination. He leans down, capturing one of your nipples in his mouth, his teeth grazing the sensitive peak as he sucks, sending a fresh wave of heat through you. His thrusts remain deep, unyielding, each movement pressing against your most sensitive spot, and you feel yourself unraveling, piece by piece, as his scent surrounds you, grounding you in him.
He moves to the other nipple, and as his lips close around it, your hands find his hair, fingers threading through the soft strands, pulling him closer, feeling the delicious pull of another climax gathering, stronger, more overwhelming.
âI think⊠I think Iâm gonna come again,â you gasp, every nerve alive with the approaching edge, feeling yourself build higher and higher, almost unbearably.
He hums against your breast, the vibration rippling through you, and when his teeth graze your sensitive skin, your body seizes, your pussy clenching around himâhard, locking him deep as your vision whites out in a blinding rush of sensation. The world blurs to nothing, a soft ringing filling your ears as your chest heaves. You dimly register his eyes on you, his gaze intense, enthralled, as you let go completely, surrendering to the pleasure.
The orgasm rolls through you in waves, endless, consuming, as he continues to thrust, drawing every last bit of sensation from you. It feels like it will never stop, his body perfectly attuned to yours, his movements relentless, and youâre left breathless, utterly taken by him, lost in the exquisite pull of his touch.
âOh myâfuck,â he rasps, his voice catching as he stills, releasing himself into you with a shuddering breath. His chest heaves, spent and utterly captivated, and as he catches his breath, he murmurs, âShit, I didnât ask if I could come inside you.â
You tilt your head, feeling a tired, blissful warmth spread through you. âItâs okay,â you reply, your voice soft and slurred, still drifting in the hazy warmth of pleasure. Despite your exhaustion, your body continues to pulse around him, a lingering hold, like itâs reluctant to let him go.
He chuckles, a low, rumbling sound that vibrates through both of you. âYouâre still squeezing me,â he says, giving a few gentle, lingering thrusts to help you both ride out the aftershocks, savoring every last sensation.
âThis⊠has never happened before,â you murmur, a soft giggle escaping as the warmth fades and your body begins to relax. Finally, the last traces of tension melt away, leaving you both drowsy and satisfied.
âI hope it was good for you,â he says, letting his weight rest against you, his chest pressed to yours as his breathing steadies.
You smile, running your fingers through his hair. âIt was incredible,â you whisper, a tenderness in your voice that makes him chuckle softly. He nestles his face against your collarbone, eyes closed, sinking fully into the afterglow.
âIâm glad,â he murmurs, his voice a low, warm rumble against your skin. âIt was incredible for me too.â For a moment, the two of you lie there, basking in the quiet peace between breaths, in the warmth of skin on skin. He shifts slightly, resting his head on your chest, and you feel his arms wrap tighter around you.
âI could lie here forever,â he breathes, his voice soft and content.
You giggle, brushing a thumb over his shoulder. âSounds nice, but youâre just a little bit heavy,â you tease, your voice trailing off with a sleepy laugh. âBut⊠Can I stay? Iâm so tired, and I really donât want to go outside in the cold snow.â
He draws you closer, pressing a gentle kiss to your temple, his lips brushing over your skin. âI donât want you to leave, either. Stay. Sleep. And in the morning⊠Iâll make sure to fuck you real good all over again.â He tilts your chin up, sealing his promise with a warm, lingering kiss that leaves you feeling lightheaded, even now.
âThat,â you sigh, smiling as you close your eyes, âsounds perfect.â
Slowly, he slips out of you, and though you feel the absence, heâs back almost immediately with a warm cloth. His hands are gentle, his touch soft as he lifts your legs to clean you with careful attention, leaving a trail of warmth where he touches. You hum, your body responding to his tenderness, and he smiles, brushing a kiss to your knee as he finishes.
âDo you want to sleep in a shirt?â he asks, his voice barely above a whisper as he watches you start to drift off.
You shake your head, smiling sleepily. âNo, Iâm too tired to move⊠just come and spoon me,â you murmur, your voice already fading as you feel yourself slipping into sleep.
âNaked?â he teases, eyebrows raised with a hint of mischief.
You smirk, stretching out your words, âYeah⊠unless that makes you uncomfortable?â
âNot in the least,â he replies, flashing a cheeky grin before slipping into bed beside you. He slides in behind you, pulling the covers up over both of you as if sealing you in a cocoon of warmth and comfort. His body, warm and steady against yours, is like an anchor, and within moments, the world fades away, and youâre sound asleep, cradled in his embrace.
Morning comes gently, with the soft tickle of Hoseokâs breath grazing your neck, sending a delicious shiver down your spine as you begin to stir. You shift slightly, and he wakes, nuzzling close to you, his lips pressing a sleepy kiss to your shoulder.
âGood morning,â he murmurs, voice rich and low.
You chuckle, turning your head slightly to face him. âGood morning⊠and Merry Christmas.â
He yawns, then his face lights up with a lazy, warm smile. âMerry Christmas,â he says, voice filled with a happiness that feels both new and deeply familiar, like something cherished but long forgotten. The two of you laugh softly, as if sharing a secret, wrapped in the fullness of each other.
You wonder if heâs ever spent Christmas with anyone since his family passed, but something tells you not to askânot when everything feels so gentle and good. His hand drifts down your body, his fingers finding the curve of your hip, settling on you possessively, and giving you a playful squeeze.
âCan you turn around?â he whispers, a subtle seriousness beneath his tone. âI want to ask you something.â
You shift to face him, and itâs like the morning light itself is gazing back at youâheâs radiant, his smile warm and glowing, spilling over with something tender and unspoken. For a heartbeat, youâre breathless, marveling at how a man could look this luminous, this achingly beautiful, as though heâs sunlight made flesh.
âWhat do you want to ask me?â you murmur, your own voice soft, a smile tugging at your lips as you reach to gently brush a strand of hair from his forehead.
He takes a slow, deep breath, his gaze twinkling with a mix of happiness and something bolder. âWould you⊠be my not fake girlfriend?â he asks, eyes dancing with playful mischief, though you can tell heâs holding his breath.
You canât help but laugh, fingers threading through his hair. âSo⊠you mean, a regular girlfriend?â you tease, tapping your chin and pretending to ponder it, though your heart already knows the answer.
He nods, grinning but waiting, his eyes fixed on yours, full of hope.
Without another word, you lean in, your lips finding his in a kiss thatâs both deep and tender, lingering as if to say all the things words canât quite hold. When you finally pull back, his eyes are wide, gaze soft as though heâs still catching his breath.
âYes,â you whisper, a smile lighting up your face, âI want to be your not fake girlfriend.â
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â Authorâs endnote: so⊠how are we feeling after riding this emotional rollercoaster of all the feelsâą? Are we okay? Did it wreck you just a little? Or were you like, âmeh, this sucksâ? Be honestâI can take it (I think) đ I may or may not have poured way too much of myself into Hobi, and then used OC as a therapy session to bandage my own emotional wounds đ Why do I do this? Every. Single. Time. But hey, at least weâre all healing together, right? đ Anyway, I really, really hope you enjoyed this one. Tell me all your thoughts, feelings, and maybe even your favorite momentâit means the world to me! đ«
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