#jellals

rewatching fairy tail is making me feel so many things and remember so much about us and i just-

some of the happiest moments of my life where in the worst times of my depression- because of you guys and because of this show. laughing over the guild’s antics, arguing about ships (macao and cana is still tRASH ABBY), picking our favorite characters and referring to ourselves as them, freaking out about new episodes, ranting about plotlines- all of these things, seemingly so little, so small, changed my life for the better. being your friend changed my life for the better.

you are all part of my real family, part of my guild. no matter how far away you are, how far apart we might grow, i want you to know that you will always, always have a home with me. i’m rewatching these episodes and i see us in every single one- abby is cana, i’m erza, jess is levy- the list goes on and on. each of you has a fairy tail character that i think of so strongly as you that it fills my heart with joy every time they come on screen. 

life isn’t easy. living is hard. and that’s okay, because i’m a fighter, and so are all of you. because living may be difficult, but loving you has always been the easiest, most natural thing in the world to me. 

our friendships have changed over the last couple of years. we might not talk as much as we used to, or we might not talk about the same things. i still love you the same anyway. you’re my nakama. that love may change and grow, but it never dies.

i know it may be “just a tv show” but it has never been that to me, because fairy tail is where i found love, talent, a reason. it’s where i found you. it’s where i found myself. 

being friends with you guys, meeting you, loving you, laughing with you, growing, healing, changing- it was and is the best thing that could ever have happened to my life. you put me on the path to recovery. 

i love you so much.