You said goodbye and I walked away. Had I not been so persistent our love story would have ended there and maybe you would have gotten married and had babies. And maybe I would have found the love of my life a lot sooner. And maybe I wouldn’t be here, today.
I guess a part of me was just super childish back then. Not wanting to lose something I loved as if it belonged to me. Foolishly believing that when you said forever, you meant it the way I did.
I followed you to Miami. I think a part of you always knew that it was no coincidence we showed up at the same party. I didn’t leave destiny up to God that day. I took destiny by the hair and pulled her towards me.
And maybe I knew that I didn’t feel the same way for you after Miami. Maybe I felt bad that I had infested your heart with my cancerous love, again. Maybe I just didn’t want you anymore after having you out there all those nights, knowing that you had a boyfriend and still there sleeping with me.
I think we were both foolish and young and did a lot of dumb shit to hurt one another. I’m just writing to say that I don’t feel bad or guilty anymore about us not working out. I think it was for the better. Life threw me some of the most beautiful music I have ever heard, after you. I think it was good that we ended when we did. I know that now. I couldn’t have known that back then.
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