#jeanboy

i love this ask so much, i wrote it IMMEDIATELY

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Yours and Jeans wedding night.

smut ahead.. MDNI

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Your wedding was perfect. You got everything you ever wished for. The perfect dress, the perfect venue, the perfect people. All so perfect.

Your wedding party was small but consisted of yours and Jean's closest friends. Sasha and Mikasa being your bridesmaids and Connie and Eren being Jean’s groomsmen.

The wedding in general was small(ish). You didn’t want anything huge but everything you did want, you had. All of your closest friends and family were in attendance, including a reserved seat in the front row for Marco. The seat was empty but flowers were left in his honor.

The ceremony was short but sweet with the both of you in tears after your wedding vows. Most of the crowd also in tears at your words to one another.

After the ceremony, there was an intimate reception with the same guests as before. You and Jean sat at the head table but mingled the majority of the night.

Of course, Connie had to give a tear-jerking speech about how happy he was for his bestfriends to get married. Eren followed with a speech that encapsulated him and Jean’s relationship perfectly. Sasha and Mikasa also gave their speeches, leaving everyone in tears yet again.

I know--it's been forever, but I went down my usual rabbit holes looking for horses, and found out way too much about sheep--some 900 at Maisons, which one hopes were domiciled in the back 40--and grapes.

its officially Jean day. Everyone wish this sassy diva a happy birthday. Such a cutie patootie!!🎉🎉🎂💞💞!!

04/7!!💋💋

This scene is living rent free in my head: on the boat, he's dreading the moment. Not because he doesn't want to see her, no, Jean desperately wants to see his mother. He dreads seeing her because he doesn't know what she'll think of him now.

Will she see a monster? Jean hasn't seen his mother in years - will she look at him in horror? Because she knows he's killed people? That he has blood on his hands? He can never go back now.

Asked my husband which character I should draw tonight in celebration of AOT tomorrow! He picked Jean!!

I've never drawn him before so it was fun -- I knew immediately I wanted to aim for WIT style(ish) with MAPPA/S4 features because he has such distinct features. LOL sometimes he looks like he has botox... And his pupils can be SO small in MAPPA so I went for something more balanced imo LOL

I kinda love his color palette too. Never realized how brown/beige his palette is but I'm a sucker for that, so it was fun coloring with that scheme.

We love Jean!!!! Now I wonder if hubby will ship Jean x Pieck when their scenes get animated!!

It's my first digital art and I wanted to feature some of the things that I love — spring, Attack on Titan, and Jean Kirstein. LMAO

Kidding aside, I made this as an advanced birthday greeting to Jean-boi (お誕生日おめでとう!). His birthday's on 04/07!

And yes, I keep a record of fictional characters' birthdays, okay?

Author note : Hello Rei Anon, hope you’re doing okay ! Your request is so sweet ♡ I hope I did justice to your request, this is going the first I wrote for JeanBoy. Modern AU hit different I just love them ♡. Unfortunately I never find much Jean’s content but he is just a sweetheart I learn to love him through the anime.I hope it won't be too OOC.  Enjoy ! Let me know if you enjoy this ;) 

I do not own that gif credit to the owner 

Warning : Fluffy / Gender neutral / Frustrated ending / a little bit of angst 

Masterlist 

As long as you can remember Jean was always by your side. Your first at school when no one talked to you he was here, when you decided to go into football’s club he was here with you. You two have met the day you move on on his district your house was quite close to his. You were playing on the street while your parent was busy moving each furniture for your new house. 

He never saw you before, he tried to show off a little bit because that kid doesn’t know how to make friends without showing off. 

It works you were kinda impressed by him and you went with him quickly after. 

You never separate from each other since. Indeed both of your parents understand that you were kinda close so they did everything so you could stay together : in class, in club, no matter what you were always with him

His aura relax you, he always pretend to know everything and 99% of time it was. It was such a relief for you, knowing he would be there no matter what. When it came to him, he really enjoys having you as a friend not only did you praise him (which was huge ego boost for him) but you were also faithful. He never experienced someone being like this before, most of the times his friends were friends with other people but not you. 

You were child when you two met, so you know nothing about love so obviously both of you thought you were close friends but nothing more. 

However, when you joined junior high school you started to think that maybe you were more than friends. 

In fact, you were in second years unfortunately for the first time you weren’t in the same class as Jean. At first both of you were sad, but you took it as an opportunity to appreciate even more the time when you two would be together. Even if you make friends with other people, you still share a lot of time with Jean like during lunch or practice since your class used to work by pair. 

One of your friend teased you about how close you were with Jean, about how he always managed to go into your class to find you. How he was always showing off in front of you.  To his you just replied that he was always like that, it’s literally how you two became friends so ? 

But the more they talk to you the more you were questioning your own feeling , what if you were in fact in love with him ? You would feel right ? Since your feelings never changed for Jean it means that you aren’t in love with him ? 

On the other hand, Jean was questioning himself too. Not because some friends teased about it (he never cares he just yells at them to back off), but he started to notice some things on you. Like the way you decided to style your hair, the way you smile or cracked a laugh when you thought someone wasn’t noticed. The way you always plays with your hair when you started to getting nervous. It couldn’t help but find it cute. But it wasn’t like he was in love with you right ? 

Wrong, both of you were so wrong and you were about to find it on the worst way 

One day, Jean received some cute letter on his desk asking him to go into a special place for a talk  he was supposed to meet someone on the rooftop. Every student including you know why, he was about to got a confession from someone. 

You couldn’t help but felt your heart squeeze at this idea : Jean with a Significant other ? Jean dating someone ? You shouldn’t feel sad about this, it’s not like you two were flirting or anything. You were his friend, just his friends. Your friends noticed your behavior and already understand the real problem behind that. They tried to talk to you but you deny everything : no you weren’t in love with Jean and even if you might be that doesn’t matter cause he definitely not sees you that way anyway

Turns out Jean did have a confession that day, but he doesn’t what to do with those feelings about you. He wasn’t sure if he was in love with you or not, in addition you definetly not saw him like this not after everything you two have been through. You were more like sibling that lover. 

At least that what he thought 

So Jean started a relationship with a girl, her name was Nina. They look very good together and as much as it hurts your heart you couldn’t agree more. 

They seemed so happy together. Nina was absolutely gorgeous, she was smart good with sport, she was a cheerleader, got a tone of friends. She was everything you weren’t, you just couldn’t not understand why Jean chooses her instead of you, he was so incredible, so soft, so smart he always knows what to do and he is so funny. 

Jean is perfect she was perfect everything make sense, how could be interest on you anyway ? 

You were his buddies, hell does he even see you like this ? What if you were just a little puppy someone who just followed him in order to be close to him. 

The more you think about it the more you become distant to him, and it kills Jean seeing you like this but he doesn’t know what to do about it. Hell he doesn’t even know what makes you sad ? Since he agreed to become Nina’s boyfriend you tends to less talk to him telling him it was fort the best cause you didn’t want to cause any trouble to Jean (and it was true). 

Instead you started to learn to live without having jean by your side, but it hurts you. It hurts not having a text from him, not seeing him on the morning, not walking with him. It hurts you seeing him doing all the thing with there instead of you. It kills you to see him being happy while you weren’t, at the end maybe he never needed you but you did. 

For the first couple of months, you couldn’t sleep without crying on your pillow you missed him. You miss seeing him showing off as if he needed to prove a point, how you regret never told him he never needed to do that, telling him how much he means to you and that you would always do no matter what he would do. 

He was kinda a dork sometimes but you loved it even if when he was arrogant you find it attractive, his cockiness seduce you, his insecurities melt your heart, his smile warmth you. 

How could be that blind ? 

You always loved him, you just weren’t aware of that 

All you wish was to come see him and start again as if nothing happen, but it’s been so long since you two have talked no matter how hard you wanted this it seemed like there were nothing good to say for fixing your relationship. So you kinda let things go. 

Fortunately your friends was behind your back, they noticed how sad you were since Jean started his relationship. They already planned something to force you two have the talk you deserve 

When it came to him, he wasn’t as happy as he thought he would be with Nina. Not that she wasn’t good with him, but he couldn’t explain but his relationship with her doesn’t sound right as if he wasn’t with the right person. 

It doesn’t help that he suffered from your lack of conversation, he gets so used to have you with him all the time that he felt empty without you. Even his girlfriend who barely knows you since you didn’t talk to them, noticed that his boy suffered from your missing. As much as it bothered her, she had to admit you were a huge part of Jean’s life but she couldn’t know how much you were important to him

At this point, he went after Marco asking him some advice cause he was confused. Was he in love with you ? Or was he just sad because his friend wasn’t with him anymore ? 

« Here the thing, I used to be with them since I’m a kid you know ? They lived close to my house, we’ve become friends without I could realize it. I was a pretty bastard with them at first I was showing off like I was so much better than them and they just follow him, play with me, protect me when I was into a fight. Next thing I know I couldn’t just be far from them  

I see you were pretty close since a long time … What about now ? Did something change ? 

Yeah well, as you I’m dating Nina since 6 months now and they just stop hanging out with me claiming they will cause trouble. But they weren’t. 

How did you know that ? Maybe they felt that Nina wasn’t confortable with that 

But- 

Did you ask Nina about it ? 

Who cares about Nina this is about Y/N ! (Couple second later) I’m sorry I shouldn’t yell it’s just… I don’t know since they’re not with me I’m feeling down you know ? As if something was missing. I-I guessed I just miss them  

*chuckle* well you already have all answer why did you come ? 

I don’t know I guess I needed to know if it was right 

What ? Being in love with Y/N it sounds legitimate to me 

But what about Nina ? I can’t just bumped her 

What about this, try to talk to Y/N just to see how they felt about you and after that you would see what you’ll do with Nina. You know ? Step by step » 

Everything seemed to run its course, your friends were planning a party to celebrate your last year in junior high school while Jean was decided to talk to you and he’ll do it while everyone would be busy celebrating 

You weren’t supposed to go at the party, you didn’t wanted to go at this party. Seeing all people being happy, seeing Jean dancing with Nina was too much for your broken heart you still need to heal after all. But your friend somehow convinced you to go. 

And you did. You ask your friends to help you with your outfit while you mentally prepare yourself for what’s about to happen. 

During the whole day before the party, Jean was pretty calm and distant he knows at some point he would have to talk with Nina and he was afraid he might hurt : after all she doesn’t deserve to be hurt like that. It was as if she could read into his mind cause when they were about to go into the party she told him « Go, you need to talk with them we’ll figure out what to do next. I’m not angry with you, I should see that coming » 

So did he, he walked through the crowd looking for you. After everything, he needs to tell you how he really felt about you this time he was ready to be the little puppy. He missed you so much. The he saw you. 

You were with you friends dancing as if no one was around you, the way your body move with the sound, you were in your own word relaxing but he also noticed some things who have changed about. Did you loose some weight ? You seemed a little bit tired than before ? Did he do that to you ? He won’t forgive himself for treating you like this 

You deserve so much better and he was ready to do it 

He came closer to you, footstep by footstep, as he came closer he started to feel his heart squeeze, he has some difficulty to breath, his stomach twisted as he became more anxious. He knows it gonna be hard, he knows open-up to someone is never easy but he’ll do it. He has to do it. 

When he faced you, he forgot what he has to say so instead he took your wrist on his hand pleading you with his eyes to follow him. Not sure what to do you just look at your friend who push you to follow him. It’s been a lot of days since you two were this close and as far as you can remember he never touch you. The feeling of his firm touch on your wrist warm you and you swore you were blushing, you hoped he won’t see it because of the darkness. 

Couple of minute later, he got you on a private place kinda far from the party and you couldn’t be more thankful for that. Most of the time you were more relax on private and peaceful place but now having him and you all alone make you uncomfortable. After all you were avoiding him since he started his relationship, you weren’t sure anymore if you wanted to talk to him. 

You two stare at each other not knowing what to do or what to say, no matter how spaced the room was it was like you two couldn’t breath properly, you swore you could feel the warmth from Jean’s body and he could feel the same about you. 

Should I told them ? Was everything on both of your mind 

« Look Y/N I’m sorry for… 

Y-You don’t have to apologize for anything Jean besides I’m the one to blame I avoid you since you started to date Nina while I shouldn’t do that. B-But you know I wanted to … I mean I tried to but I didn’t if you … » 

You were so anxious that you become a whole mess, your face was nothing but read, you could even feel tears rolling from your cheeks as you felt embarrassing for not being able to speak properly. You gets hiccup as you couldn’t calm yourself. You couldn’t see jean because your sight was blurry from tears but he was looking at you with a sad expression. 

Never did he expect you to feel like this from him, no one ever did. He watched as you were confusing yourself trying to find your work for a better sentence, anyone in the room would feel pity on you but not jean instead was overwhelmed from warmth « I love them » was everything on his mind. 

Before you could even notice, his hand were on your cheeks stroking it while rubbing the tears from your eyes. In a blink of an eye, his face was an inch from you tilting yours with his hand on your cheeks, one moment later you felt it. His lips were on yours, at first it was a chaste kiss. But then, your arm find their way on Jean’s neck as you let everything out of your mind and deepen the kiss. You would everytime in the world to process what happen but for now you wanted to enjoy the kiss. His lips were soft and warmth as you imagined but he was more gentle with you, as if he was holding the most precious thing of the world. 

Unfortunately for you, you had to stop as you heard some voices. Not wanting to get caught in such private moment, you broke the kiss but neither of you stop staring at each other.