âOkay, now we just have to wait until the food is ready!â
âWhat if I donât want to wait.. what if Iâm sick of waiting?â
All of a sudden this wasnât about the spicy lasagna baking in the oven. Just how many times would they have to have this conversation? Especially now of all times. In their kitchen in front of a camera currently recording them live.
âTamaki! You donât have to be so impatient!! the food will be ready soon!â He jokes and laughs trying to push away the conversation again.
âSou-chan be serious, pleaseâ he whispers a plea.
So now theyâre having the conversation.. again. Sogo sighs and says âWhy would you want to eat it half cooked? Or raw? You could get sickâ of me, the words go unsaid.
âWonât know until I try it. And even then I donât think Iâll get tired of itâ (Iâll never get tired of you, but Sogo refuses to hear it). Sogo is tired of this conversation already, and you can hear it through the tone of his voice. âItâs gross, cold and nasty until it comes out of the oven, so it should bake until itâs readyâ. Still like his usual soft voice, but tense at the ends of words and short at the end of the sentence. Like he wants this to end. He does.
âYouâre not asking me what I want. Itâs always about you now isnât it?â
âExcuse me?â
âIâve been waiting for a long time. For you to take me seriouslyâ Tamaki now stands to face Sogo, heâs looking right at him. âFor you to look me in the eye and be honest. Why wonât you..â Let me love you? The words are loud in the silence and Sogo canât exactly ignore them. Suddenly itâs hard for Sogo to see the young, immature 17 year old he was when they first met. Itâs hard to pretend that was the reason he was so hesitant about this, about a possible Tamaki and I. He canât pretend it's because of their career anymore either, he never could, not after Yamato, Mitsuki and Nagi. So what was it?
His heart and body were ready, more than. He would love to be trapped in the strong mass of Tamaki's arms, warm and protected like always, or to protect Tamaki, like with his dad before. To be able to kiss him freely in the privacy of one of their rooms or in secret in their dressing room during IDOLiSH7 or MEZZO down time. To give eachother longing glances from across the stage and have the observant fans theorize about what it means. He wanted that. Badly. So what the hell is stopping him??
His inner turmoil is broken by soft hands clasping his own together.
A quiet whisper rains down on his ears like a calm river reaching a violent ocean. Sogo, Tamaki says right next to Sogoâs ear.
But our careers!!
But Tamakiâs Hands are so warm.
But his age?
Tamaki is 20. And if Sogo wouldâve come to his senses earlier then he wouldâve realized that he has felt this way towards Tamaki since last year.
But.. but
Tamaki is here, telling Sogo that this is okay. That he wants this, wants Sogo. And as hard as that is, for someone who hasnât felt wanted in a long time, Sogo realizes that he wants Tamaki too.
