But now I'm actually more mature enough to realize that, even though they're just a couple of fictional relationships, it can still hurt someone a lot when you tell them their own opinion or idea doesn't matter. So I guess since then, I kinda drifted away from shipping stuff - specifically in Ninjago. And honestly, stuff like that used to give me a hard time, cause I would see people fighting about it everywhere... Now that I've let go of that stuff, I feel much better every day.

However, there was still one thing that bothered me. Jay and Nya.

It was great before - ish, but it was definitely better than what we got now. IMO. Things started getting so crazy and complicated between them that it just didn't feel right. Though, it bothered me so much that every time I saw something relating to it, didn't even have to be a picture, I would feel my stomach turn. Thing is, I kind of got over the fact that their relationship in the show is just no, but there was still something wrong since I felt sick every time I saw something jaya related...

And I couldn't quite pinpoint it until now...

It’s going to sound almost like a silly reason, but it's the definite reason.

I've been so hooked on Cole and Jay's friendship, that those two together always put me in a happy mood. That was until Moana came along, because later on, thinking about Ninjago got a lot harder... Why?

I realized the reason I didn't like anything jaya related is because, I'm not the romance type of person. I don't really care for romance. Sure it can be nice, but I was always the person who adored friendship. I mean, after all, friendship is magic!

Many of the romances I've seen depicted end up having name calling, like that really disturbing name calling, kissing, er sometimes sexual stuff - and I'm not... The gal who enjoys that... I preferred friendships over that because they were [non sexual], (because not all love requires sex), still very cute, and they can be close with you knowing that there's no romance between them.

I guess I don't mind romance in other shows, but I don't want to see much in ninjago... And since the friendship between Cole and Jay have been one of the biggest things I've ever been so hooked on, seeing jaya stuff makes me feel like it's intruding on that friendship. I didn't want to sound mean and say Jay shouldn't hang around Nya. But it makes me feel like Cole becomes a third wheel - and I know he's got other friends, I just... Really really love the relationship between those two friends and it's one of the things that kept me going with the show. Then when I think of Cole as a third wheel, it makes me... Sad... See, many people have been saying, give Lloyd and Cole a girlfriend so they won't be alone - but I for one don't think they need one.

They're perfectly fine without one.

Though I guess, that's how life is... You got a pair of good friends, but then something happens to one of the friends and they start hanging around another person, kinda leaving the other in the dust... And it hurts cause I've felt it many times, and I feel like it might happen to me again.

Now that I'm typing all this I guess it kinda does sound silly... But screw it ya know? I just really needed to let this out... It's been bugging me for the past weeks and almost months - and my friends let me rant to them but I hate to keep ranting on and on...

Now... Here's me questioning my life ^ and what I've done to myself...