rambling about my experience with amasui, inspired a lot by @radiomogai's post a little bit ago about its gender experience
amasui is really, a very dear term to me, becuase of how long it's been apart of my life. long, long, LONG before i realised i was plural, it's been a big part of my life - pre-undertale. yes, i know, insane, i think a lot of peoples first experience with amasui shipping was either sans, or the onceler. (i actually never experienced the oncest shipping!)
my experience, however. was a lot earlier than that. i was probably the youngest i can remember, like 7 at the most. my first experience? my little pony! back in the day the genderbends were popular. and guess what i did with the genderbends of the mane six? i shipped them with the original ones.
i had a lot of mlp toys, and i still do. i have a disproportionate amount of pinkie pie toys, and i loved to make little story lines with my toys as a child, as most kids do. and since i had so many pinkie pies compared to the other ponies, guess what happened? i made them into pinkie pies from different universes, and i made them fall in love.
plurality made this a whole lot more complicated, and a lot more important to me, because now it wasn't just something i shipped or enjoyed, it was something i experienced. and for a long time i didn't realise how deeply i experienced it.
having a lot of introject doubles takes a big role in this. we split a lot of the same character, and a lot of the time we dont even really think too much about it whenthey decide to date - it's the majority of their insys dating pool, after all, it's just a bunch of themself. why limit themself?
the exploration of amasui, as a shipping dynamic, is wonderful as well. to love someone like they're another, while they're also undoubtely you.
in all ways, every angle, amasui is an undeniably beautiful experience; whether it be from shipping or experiencing. there's nothing quite like it, and that's what i like so much about it.
it's apart of my identity not in a way thats part of my orientation/sexuality, but because it's apart of me. i can't be seperated from it, because it defines a lot of my experiences, a lot of our alters experiences. without that, we wouldn't be who we are.
amasui is intricately apart of my entire life, i love every part of it, and it's a part of me.
sorry for the long post. thank you for reading. <3










