Jan 14, 2017
ooooohhh
it is the same thing again. that always blocks me in everything OOOH.
when a part isn’t perfect i don’t just go: eh i’ll just keep it like that and see if in the future i can fix it up. NO i just go AAAAAAAAA i don’t know how to fix this right now and i can’t continue until i’ve fixed it.
APPARENTLY perfectionism RULES IN ALL COURTS. of course. obvious things are of course obvious but always evade my notice as being DYSFUNTIONAL.
but also when it comes to this tho if i muck up the first parts and i want to change things I WILL HAVE TO CASCADE EDIT EVERYTHING AFTERWARDS AND NOTHING WILL FIT so it actually makes sense for this.
#dsjl#ajsdl#jdsl#jsd#jasdj#sjdf#personal#my stuff#why is this so hard???#i mean i knew it would be hard but i can FEEL#the parts of my brain that could be filled with experience but that are instead empty#i can feel the emptiness the lack of knowledge that could have said: this will work#this won't#or is it just my lack of visual abstract thinking#inherent to me?#that makes this hard
