#jackpotcats

We met, hugged and stared at each other. 

  I wanted to make the first move and kiss him but I didn’t. We watched the new Star wars movie and was really close. I wore a tank top and made the first move to place his hand on my breast. He didn’t flinched at all but went along and grabbed. 

I felt a thrilled but composed myself. I controlled my urges to leap over and just make out with him. I kept myself calm. I kept on touching him and made sure he was comfortable with my touch. He touched my shoulder, my neck and jaw line. After the movie, he lean over to me and kissed me. He tremble, probably since he hasn’t done it but I know I wasn’t trembling because I didn’t see it coming. I figure he was getting ready to leave so I turned my head to him and he just kissed me. 

I was caught off guard and wandered if I should kiss him again so I did. Hahaha! He didn’t question me like before. He was nervous and took a chance. When we got out, he went to the bathroom like I did. He was nervous and I made the secondary move to kiss him. 

I brought him to House of Jazz. We grabbed some drinks and I got out of hand like usual. Hahaha! Yup. Alcohol and Julie doesn’t go so well with a handsome man like himself. I kept on kissing him, touching him, tasting his tongue and just enjoyed the music. I was being dirty and unpure. Something I sort of regret but I’m like that. 

He kept on getting a boner. At least that’s what he told me and he said that when he was in the bathroom, he placed cold water down his crotch since he was trying to get rid of it. He wanted to touch me, he wanted to explore my body but didn’t. 

When we got to Bonaventure, I pressed his face against my chest and he went into my shirt and touched my body. I had a chance to touch his body and I liked the feeling. He was curvy and slightly chubby. But he had curves, something that turned me on. But I wasn’t enjoying him for that, his personality got me. Not his body or his seductive and charming ways. 

He let me have his shirt and I took it with pride, kind of buzzed but I sat on his lap and we kissed, touching each other and being horny bastard. He said he loved me and I returned it but told him it was too soon but one day I’m sure we’ll both mean it. He agreed and didn’t press on. 

When he had to go, I kissed him and straggle away, smelling his shirt as much as possible to get a scent and I did. It was sweet but maybe that was me. It smelt sweet as shocking as that smell but I didn’t know if that was me. 

Ahhh, I’m seeing him tomorrow and I can’t wait for that. :3

I had a bad night and he cheered me up as much as possible. Hahaha! Mainly Rodney since he was the only person to respond and help out when he can. My parents gave me words of wisdom and told me I should of walked away. He decided I was toxic and horrible. And then he wants to be with me and claim to have still love me?

But...I fell out of love? with you. 

How can I be with somebody who I can’t trust? How can I be with someone who has cheated on me? I let go of you and moved on. I’m focusing on myself and then this man came in and made me positive, happy and just...colored my dull grey life. 

I started smiling more, waking up in a happier mood and just simply...loved myself cause he made me want to love myself. I’m still in the process and he’s by my side, keeping me straight.  He’s completely different and seriously...everything I WANT in a guy. Is that fucked up? I questioned him and he answered all of it. I was so surprised! HE FUCKING DOESN’T WATCH PORN AS MUCH! HE THINKS IT’S FAKE AND UNREALISTIC!