#j.b. rambles

So I have no doubts that Harlequin feels like a burden since he says some shit like, "Oh, it's adorable that you're worried about me~!" when he's in your apartment. Plus, Doctor has stated that he smiles to hide his emotions and doesn't value his importance to everyone else.

I know Harlequin expresses his emotions differently and might not do this, but what if we had that same struggle, and if Harlequin sees it when he's more comfortable with being open to us, he he holds our hand says something in the matters of...

"Dear one... you've always tried to be there for me. I'm not sure how or why, but I think I should return the favor, yeah?"

Do this prompt what you will with it.

Harlequin seems like he absolutely hates this, but he is still letting us hug him.

If he really didn't want this, the first thing he would have said is "stop hugging me," but he couldn't do anything but question it when it first happens because, as we know, he's not used to physical affection, especially from humans. All of the other humans hated on the circus and even burned it down, and he, like the others, were taught by Jester that humans are not kind and are harmful creatures. He's clearly proven wrong here, and he doesn't want to believe it.

I can't stop thinking of Harlequin straight up breaking his persona. Like him being genuine. Not like in a "I'm slowly warming up to you" way, but in an immediate breaking point kind of way.

Think about it, if the M/C gets severely physically hurt if not die, he'd absolutely break. Heck, maybe even blame himself. He can hold in the persona easily, even when the M/C feels down in the dumps in any capacity but Harlequin also seems somewhat genuine about it (since he has stated he knows what to say to cheer them up), but if that kind of stuff happened, I can only imagine the panic he would have. Not sure if this will be 100% accurate to his character, but it's still fun to think about.

So the 2nd part of the 6th part of the round 2 AMA (confusing to say, I know) was released today...

This guy really gave away how he really feels big time. Harlequin, what do you mean you "If you think I deserve that kind of love..."?????

I don't know how I come to this assumption but maybe Harlequin has that perverted personality so he can feel more wanted???? Something fucking tells me that he does not crave to be wanted but instead to be needed, and knowing how you showed Pierrot kindness and is obsessed with you, maybe Harlequin finally gets that chance???

I mean, we can clearly see it in Jester's tent that he was envious of Pierrot and Columbina's relationship. And if you look closely when Harlequin is eating Columbia, he's shedding a tear. In the end, it seems like he regrets what he did for whatever reason, so that might be why he says he doesn't deserve genuine love???

Just imagine it. We're talking to Harlequin in his tent or whatever, and either we mention Pierrot or you and Harlequin spot Pierrot in the distance, and Harlequin whispers under his breath, "Ugh, that mutt just won't quit, will he?"

So you know how Jester is so flexible to where he's the only one that can do a perfect split and the fandom collectively calls him "mother"???

We need more of the horror aspect.

Yeah I do enjoy (and make) the erotic stuff that the fandom has to offer, but... you guys realize this is a circus of horrors, right??? You realize there is a horror aspect to this game. Like all of the eyes staring at you in the café and then Pierrot straight up killing that rude lady in the café in front of us the day after. Right??????