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ryujin x reader; slightly suggestive; angst;

"we can't do this" you whisper against her lips, this was so wrong, all of this. your thighs trembling around ryujin's fingers, her hands in your hair, her mouth steadily making its way down your collarbone to your hardened nipple. all of this was so wrong.

but the fire in the pit of your stomach when she placed another kiss on the side of your neck spoke otherwise.

"why?" ryujin asks, making you shudder when she pulls away, lust-filled eyes boring into yours.

"w-we're girls." you say weakly, "i-isnt this—" ryujin sighs pulling away from you. "so what? y/n. i've already told you that you aren't going to hell for loving another woman." you shrink back at her words. "i-i know but-", "then why are you so scared?" ryujin asks gently, "y/n, do you love me?"

you cannot respond to that, looking away from her intense eyes. "i do, but i just..." your voice trails away, thinking about all of the times you've been taught about how two women loving eachother was wrong, how two women being intimate with eachother is disgusting. above all, you can't stop thinking about what everyone would say if they found out about you and ryujin.

"y/n, i don't know how else to explain this to you. you're allowed to love whoever you want, man, woman, anyone in between, above, below and beyond. if this feels right to you, then don't fight it because..." ryujin's voice trails off lightly, "if you pull away from me one more time, i will have no choice to end it right now." you gasp at her words, "ryujin, what-" youre cut off by her, "i love you, i really do but i cannot do it anymore. not if you dont want to."

"ryujin..." you say gently, watching her stand in front of you with her beautiful eyes now glassy with tears. those eyes which you aren't allowed to love. you gulp slightly, "i want this, i want you." and thats all the confirmation she needs.

The sun was just beginning to break in through the curtains of your bedroom, but you were already awake. You had been awake for a while, simply unable to fall back asleep, but now that the sun was up, your gaze drifted to the woman who laid in the bed next to you.

Yeji had spent the night with you after a long day of practice, and there was nothing that made you happier than waking up with her right next to you. It was a nice reminder that you were no longer alone, that you had her in your life now. She was perfect in every way, and she was yours.

Golden beams of light streamed into the room, falling on the sleeping figure of your girlfriend, and a smile overtook your lips at the way her soft skin and blonde hair practically glowed in the sun.

Just when you thought she couldn’t get anymore beautiful, her eyes fluttered open, orbs sparkling with a warm chocolate color that was illuminated by the light that flooded her eyes. She looked up at you through her long lashes, eyes wide, and you swore you could have stopped breathing.

“i’m not gonna stop until you say it!” lia laughed, your laughs filling her ears with bliss as she continues to tickle your sides.

the amount of times you begged her to stop, but her demand still stood, she wasn’t gonna stop until you said it.

“YAH! SAY IT Y/N!” she playfully yelled and you shook your head, only for the tickling to become for intense and your laughs now became pleas for help, tearing up, “FINE FINE! CHOI JISU IS THE BEST GIRLFRIEND EVER.”

the tickles stopped and you desperately caught your breath as you wiped the tears from your eyes. you stared at lia, “you’re evil.”