#itwillallbeoversoon

Abigail, my newest toddler, is about to grow up !!

She's an idiot.

I hope she'll be as dedicated to school as her big sister...

Only two days left

Awake and crying, alone in the dark,

Calling me, begging me, “Make the pain stop.”

No medicine, no calm within, no idea what to do .

Lost and scared. I needed you.

Choking and coughing, can’t speak through the tears.

Is it really fair for one to suffer, of so little years.

24 hour pharmacies? None here... What do I do?!

Panicking and alone. I needed you.

Hold the phone, remember your words.

Stare at your name upon my screen.

Seeing what I can’t unsee, makes it worse, its true.

Needing help and comfort. I needed you.

Survive the night with a tear in my chest,

Feel the cold, in my open wound.

News now, that someone’s life withdrew.

Fueled by anger, he turns it on us. I needed you.

An altercation, emotions raw.

Words said, that can’t be unsaid.

Unwanted, in the home, you thought you knew.

No way to escape. I needed you.

Shattered. In pieces, I question myself.

My purpose, my reasons. “Welcome to self-doubt.”

But your words in my head keep me from you.

“If you need me” and “goodbye.” Well, I did. I needed you.

Daniel Zuppa