#itsnotlove

Wait... how long has it been?

Ten years since I last updated?

By: Chain Harrison

Banjo playing, violin singing, I've been saying, I keep praying. I want to find a new woman. Someone who will be true. Someone who will help me get over you. A girl that will love me through it, one that won't make me lose it.

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My heart is broken tonight I got tears in my eyes. I'm down here at no place, daydreaming of you're lace. I close my eyes and I can see your face. You vanished without a trace.

My whiskey bottles getting empty. The bartenders busy, and forgets me. I'm playing quarters till it's over. Then I'm on home to where it's empty.

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My heart is broken tonight I got tears in my eyes. I'm down here at no place, daydreaming of you're lace. I close my eyes and I can see your face. You vanished without a trace.

Drinking myself silly probably won't help me. Loving you still hurts me. I wish you never met me. Cuz all you did was hurt me, and now my whiskey bottles getting near empty!

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My heart is broken tonight I got tears in my eyes. I'm down here at no place, daydreaming of you're lace. I close my eyes and I can see your face. You vanished without a trace.

You see he doesn’t actually mean what he says and all his tears are fake. He’s using you because you’re there, you sit and you wait for him to come back. You’re his second option not his first. When something or someone doesn’t work out he runs to you the person he knows is there for him no matter what.

You keep waiting for a miracle that will never happen. You see he doesn’t have your heart nor the capability to love the way you do. He’s selfish and manipulative, calculating and harsh. He says he doesn’t know why he does the things he does but deep down he does— it’s for his own selfish reasons.

“I’M SORRY” you’ve heard it over and over but you need to stop letting him in, stop letting him use you, stop letting him affect you. You need to let him go because if you don’t you’re going to lose yourself in trying to save a person who doesn’t even want to save themselves.

Does your lover know what you're afraid of?

I do.

You're afraid someone won't accept you, so you became her servant and guardian in order to keep her in your life.