#ithurtssobadly

Is there a necessity for haunting my dreams? My once safe space that now has been penetrated by your toxic narcissistic green eyes... Those eyes that look like the silent foam on the sea that make my knees buckle and I start melting on the inside;  felt like bubbles in my chest. The aroma of him hiding in my shirt and when I moved, he surrounded me like smoke. 

Now, the bubbles are hot, scolding lava and I can’t breathe. The smoke is now choking me and you’re like a horrible nightmare that I can’t run from. 

Go away.

I hide under my blankets, yelling, “you have already tried to destroy me, just leave my mind and move on to torture another soul who might be dumb enough to let you.”

It hurts knowing that the only person you could talk to no longer loves you

It hurts that you no longer text me

It hurts when conversation becomes an arguments and arguments leads to disagreement

It hurts to know that you no longer trust me

It hurts that i can never ask you anything anymore

It hurts coming back to a place with people judging you for that one mistakes you make

It hurts that i can see how i am being treated

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