#itgetsbetterright

So needed after the day I've had. #spitzkymedia #ryeandginger #longday #itgetsbetterright #overthinkingsucks #rye #nerves #deepbreath https://www.instagram.com/p/B6Ee4lRHG_b/?igshid=ufznstt8mtdv

Not mad about the view. Only slightly mad about what I just did to my legs and body. #spartansupercomingup #bikiniseason #HA #hurtssogood #runningisnotmyfavorite #cardiosucks #itgetsbetterright ? RIGHT? 😓 (at Congers Memorial Park)

I thought my unleashing of bottled up rage on here would help but it didn't. I'm still really fucking angry at his mother. I can't sleep as my fiancé snores like a warthog with a sinus problem and he always takes up most of the bed. When I do sleep I have nightmares so wake up with a start. My memory stick decided to corrupt all the coursework I did over half term. 2 weeks worth of fucking work gone. I'm fed up with no end in sight of the fuck ups. I'm fucking furious at everything with no release. I can't destress at all because I can't solve the stresses. I know damn well I need to move house because my cunt of a neighbor feels its appropriate to play loud music all fucking day. I need a new job because I can't cope with the early (5am) wake up and late (10pm) finishes that go with college and part time work. I can't quit and move as I'm in a fucking long waiting list for an ultrasound scan to see if I'm fucking pregnant or not. It would be really fucking stupid to stop working in a place I've been for 5 years and find out I'm pregnant! I'm really fucked off with the world and I can't talk to my fiancé as he's just as stressed out about a job he cannot talk about or he would get fired.